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Thank you to @fettuccinecaterpillar for sending this to me as well!! Very much appreciated <3

I've seen this on my dash a few times now from different people and it's such a lovely idea!! I love seeing people talk about their own writing, it's so fun and positive and wholesome :)

Also this is... a lot harder than I thought it would be lol. I've written quite a bit over the past few years, and I'm usually pretty happy with just about anything that I write, so it's difficult to pick a top 5. But I guess, if I had to, I'd say:

It Was Only A Kiss (Kurtbastian). This is my biggest fic, and it was such an undertaking and I'm really just so proud of myself for finishing it. And the reception it got by the fandom was just so so phenomenal, I can't believe how supportive and enthusiastic so many people were about it.

Echoes of You (Klaine/Kurtbastian). This is still a WIP, but I'm pretty proud of a lot of what I've written so far. I've definitely made myself cry at least once while working on this. It's been slow going lately, so if anyone is reading I apologize, but I really want to make sure I do it justice.

He Forgets Me, He Forgets Me Not (Klaine). This fic, and the whole series, is really quite different to everything else I've ever written. It's also really, really personal to me, and I think maybe that's why it makes the list. It's angst, but a different kind of angst to what I usually write, and the verse as a whole has been an important outlet for me.

Keep It Simple (Klaine). This is just a sweet little Klaine proposal fic, and in my opinion it's also not really typical of what I usually write, but I just love the idea of a future!Klaine where this proposal happens, and I don't know. I think it's just a cute glimpse into their lives and I'm really glad I could put that into the world.

Note of an Old Mistake (Kurtbastian). I kind of just feel like this is a classic "me" fic? it's got angst, it's got smut, what else could you want? It's also my most popular one-shot, so it seems like other people appreciate it as well haha.

Fandom: Glee Pairings: Kurt Hummel/Blaine Anderson Rating: T+ Word Count: 1841 Status: One-shot, complete Summary: Kurt and Blaine see a doctor about Blaine's increasingly common memory problems. Set in the He Forgets Me, He Forgets Me Not verse.

*****

"Are you okay?" Kurt asks, cutting the car engine and turning to look at his husband.

"I'm fine," Blaine says, in a voice that is very clearly not fine.

"Are you sure?" Kurt asks again, softly.

Blaine looks at him then, eyes wide and vulnerable and it breaks Kurt's heart just a little. "I'm scared," Blaine admits. "I don't... I'd almost rather not know."

"I know," Kurt says, reaching out to take Blaine's hand. "But we have to do this."

"Yeah," Blaine agrees reluctantly.

"Whatever happens today, we're in this together, alright? We have each other. I love you."

"I love you, too," Blaine says, tries to offer a smile but it doesn't quite reach his eyes.

"Are you ready to go in?" Kurt asks, giving Blaine's hand a gentle squeeze.

"Can we just sit here for a minute first?" Blaine asks, voice shaking just a little.

"Of course, honey," Kurt says, leans over to place a soft kiss on his husband's lips.

Which of my own fics? Oh gosh, this is a hard one.

I guess it depends on how we’re defining favourite. I like all of my fics, often for different reasons, so it’s difficult to choose a favourite.

My blog, my rules I’ve said this before lol, so I’m going to pick two.

It Was Only A Kiss. This is my current WIP. It’s also the very first Kurtbastian fic I ever wrote. It was originally a one-shot, but it got a lot of attention when I first posted it so I decided to continue it. It’s now 45k words, and will be 50k+ by the time it’s completed (I know this because the word document on my computer has already hit 50k). So, this fic means a lot to me, and I also think it has some of my best writing. Fair warning to anybody thinking about reading it: this fic is not Blaine/Klaine friendly.

Ah Nico thank you!! I’m doing alright. I had a really shitty weekend but today wasn’t too bad.

4. Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

I love this question but it is DIFFICULT. I answered Jeanne with an IWOAK quote, so I’ll answer you with a quote from something else; this is a paragraph from He Forgets Me, He Forgets Me Not. Fair warning that it’s angsty and deals with old age/memory loss/Alzheimer’s, so if that’s not something you want to read then you should probably skip it.

Blaine doesn't have much of a memory at all anymore, and Kurt knows there's no sense in correcting the mistakes; it will only upset him. And it's a rare moment of clarity, brief and then it's gone, when Blaine even remembers who Kurt is anymore. And that's fine, Kurt tries to tell himself, it's fine. Blaine doesn't remember who he is anymore, but he's always happy when Kurt walks through that door, and if that's all Kurt can have now, he'll gladly take it if it means he can see that beautiful smile spread across Blaine's face. His husband, the man he loves more than anything else in this world. The man he was supposed to grow old with, sitting in a nursing home together, a sweet old married couple, and they did grow old together, but this isn't what he'd meant when he'd hoped for that one day.

Honestly, I’m just immensely proud of this whole fic. Of everything I’ve written, it’s the most “real” to me. It’s a different kind of angst from what I usually write, it’s different themes in general from what I usually write, but I think it might be the best thing I’ve written to date. It was hard to pick just one part to quote.

5. What character that you’re writing do you most identify with?

Definitely Kurt. I relate to him so much, and I definitely draw on my own thoughts, feelings, and experiences quite a bit when I’m writing from his perspective.

12. Do you want your writing to be famous?

I suppose that depends on your definition of famous! I have no desire to be a published author or for my writing to be well-known outside of fandom. But I won’t like; I would be super stoked if something I wrote became one of those fics that “everyone” had read in a particular fandom. Not that I expect that to happen, but it would be pretty cool if it did. :)

20. Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you’ve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)

Alright, now I’ll talk about It Was Only A Kiss. The references to Sebastian’s past in this fic. I have hints all the way back in chapter 1, when it was originally meant to be a one-shot, because I had his characterization in my head even when I didn’t intend to continue the story. And as I wrote it, I tried to slip in other hints here and there. I remember going through and trying to pick out all the hints one day when talking to someone about this; there aren’t that many, but they were definitely there, and I think I did a good job of slowly revealing more and more so that the reader gradually has more of an understanding of what happened to him.

25. What part of writing is the most fun?

- from your ex fiancée

Thanks for the ask, ex-fiancée!

B:  Any of your stories inspired by personal experience?

There Must Be Something In The Water was inspired by my personal experience of working at a pool, but only in the sense that I wanted to write a pool AU. The actual storyline was not inspired by any of my real-life experiences. He Forgets Me, He Forgets Me Not was inspired by my grandmother having Alzheimer’s disease.

H:  How would you describe your style?

Oh this is a tough one. I try to focus a lot on internal dialogue and trying to give the reader an idea of a characters though process and how they’re feeling. So usually I spend more time writing that type of thing than I do describing a scene, or describing actions, etc. I have no idea if this is an answer to this question. I’m not even sure if I know what a “writing style” is lol I just want to make people sad most of the time.

K:  What’s the angstiest idea you’ve ever come up with?

Okay I started writing this, so it’s technically a wip, but I didn’t get very far, and I don’t know if I’ll ever finish. But basically it’s an historical AU set in a time when homosexuality is illegal. Kurt is a tailor, Blaine is some kind of upper class person who is getting married to Rachel. Because being gay is illegal, neither Kurt nor Blaine are out as gay (they also don’t know each other). Rachel takes her dress and Blaine’s tux to Kurt to have them altered, and Blaine ends up meeting Kurt that way. They end up becoming friends (all three of them), Kurt and Blaine start a secret affair, Rachel finds out, and either she reports them or someone else that she tells about it reports them. Kurt is arrested and Blaine’s family manages to get him out of it because they’re wealthy and have a lot of influence. Also a possibility that homosexuality is punishable by death and Kurt gets the death penalty, but I’m undecided on that one.

I don’t know if I’ll ever write it though because I’m not really one for historical AUs, so while I love how angsty the idea is, I’m not sure if I could stay motivated long enough to write it the way I’d want to.