Finalized...and Hurting
Aug 10, 2015- I became officially divorced.  Only took 11 months from the original date of filing.  I’ve healed in some ways but definitely not entirely.  I’m in no way ready to start dating yet as my trust in others is still completely shattered.  I’m hoping to start seeing a therapist in the next week to help with all these left over scars...
So much happened since my last post.  Jackass’s fiance broke up with him in February 2015..and I found him walking into my second job asking to come live with me.  #hellnoasshole!  I was VERY nice and told him to go deal with his issues on his own time and turf.  Figure out his life; grow up.  In the mean time, I would allow him to continue visiting our daughter at my apartment on his weekends while he didn’t have a stable place to live.
Fast forward to today, February 4, 2016... He is finally searching for his own apartment so he can resume his weekend over night visits with our daughter. He’s also dating a new woman for the past few months and has asked me to meet her.  After the last implosion of his relationship with homewrecker, I imposed a strict “no women meet our daughter until i meet them first” rule.  Of course he’s not followed it but why should he change his ways now....
I’m feeling very apprehensive about another women in her life...I have always had abandonment issues so this is scary to me.  I know i’m not the most “fun” mom...I’m not the nicest too that does everything you ask.  I don’t want this woman to waltz in here, have my daughter think she’s better than me, and then walk out of her life - again.  I know I’m probably over thinking it and being silly...but I just can’t help but worry...
