#hellishradio!anons

i think my mum’s new boyfriend is absolutely horrible. He makes constant “jokes” that are homophobic, transphobic, misogynistic and racist, makes fun of any and all minorities, and uses constant slurs. the worst part is that my mum is not only validating but supporting him. it’s gotten so bad that my little brothers, both under the age of 13, adress our black cat with a slur i’m sure you can imagine. it makes me so mad. like i know he can’t get into my head with that BS but he’s gotten into the ehad of the ones I love and it’s disgusting to see this behaviour from them. i’m starting to grow to despise them and leaving my room and it’s so annoying. like my situation isn’t that bad or anything, like others have it worse, but it’s just so frustrating, especially as a person who is a part of multiple minorities

" My my.. How dreadful. Well, this man you are talking of, sounds utterly repugnant and disgusting to my senses. It's very good that you my dear, know that he is wrong! But have you talked to your mother yet, or have you done so already but to no avail? "

mod : it's true that there are people who have worse problems, but that doesn't mean that your experience isn't valid or worth addressing. when you are a part of various minorities, the world can feel like a very hostile place, especially when the people you love and trust are also making you feel unsafe.

i think the first thing you need to do is recognize that this situation isn't your fault. you can't control your mother's new boyfriend, your brothers, or anyone else's behaviour. you can't control how the people around you treat you.

if you haven't already, it might be helpful to sit down with your mother and have a conversation where you tell her how you are feeling. explain that you don't feel safe or comfortable around her boyfriend due to his behaviour, and that you're worried about the impact it's having on the people you care about. and even if it doesn't work out, know that i am proud of you for trying. and remember that this is out of your control so it was and never will be your fault. <333

" Oh, the heart is a fickle instrument. I suggest you allow these feelings to persist until a natural fade! It is not as though these sentiments disappear instantly my dear! "

mod : it's completely natural for you to have these feelings towards someone, and it's also natural for the other person to not reciprocate. but being stuck in that limbo between your own emotions and the emotions of the other person can be a toll.

first things first, be gentle with yourself. recognize that these feelings are intense, and that it can take time for emotions to catch up to our logical thinking. give yourself time until your sentimentality balances itself out with your mind, and until then, i suggest occupying yourself with something else, like a new interest! best of wishes, anon <3

For the longest time i was sttruggling with everything bascially - grades , relationships , the way i present myself , my identity and even though i genuinly think it's real struggles im starting to doubt myself. When i try to vent to people they answer with short and dry sentences , sometimes just pointing out the relatablility of my claims or just outright scold me for it. I think that im getting worked up over nothing and im just being lazy. I feel like i don't deserve to be appriaicted because im arrogant and selfish , focusing on my problems while other have them too. I just can't help myself with this

"It sounds like you're going through a lot, my dear! Having trouble with your sense of identity and your self-worth aren't petty problems. After all, you're the center of your life, aren't you? If people are responding to you in a way that makes you feel belittled, that's not a reflection of you - that's a reflection of them!"

mod : hey anon, thanks for telling me! you know, the great aristotle said that we are social animals. we can't live without each other's support, and that's fact. what your experiencing is completely valid, venting is something we all need in life. again, it's not your fault why people seem to disregard your insecurities and struggles. though you should be asking to vent before you do it! so in simpler terms, you are not arrogant nor selfish for trying to fulfill your natural human needs. take care, anon!

💭, please:))

gender: (AFAB) agender

personality: logical, analytical, sceptical, quick-witted, reserved, apathetic, curious, objective, inventive, manipulative, critical, wrathful, thoughtful, adaptable, respectful if respected, rational, blunt, unconventional, open-minded, introverted, antisocial, philosophical, intelligent, unethical, prideful, impulsive, cynical, independent, introspective, accepting, perfectionist, clever, realistic

likes: research, science, logic, nature, psychology, questionable morals, reading, learning, mathematics, art, music, debates, astrophysics, writing, art, cats, respect, solitude, metaphors, philosophy, controversy

dislikes: authority, traditionalists, country music, inefficiency, society, absolutism, history, my disabilities actually affecting me, obnoxiousness, ignorance, lack of discipline, social interactions, boring people/ unexpressive people, the ordinary

hobbies: studying/learning, writing, creating art, reading, thinking, fantasising, logic based puzzles (e.g. rubix cubes), psychoanalysing people’s trauma and calling them out on their sucky coping mechanisms, treating people who treat others bad even worse

"Well dear, you seem like a very multifaceted being, aren't you? Haha! For you to be reserved and impulsive, accepting and apathetic, and also have all those positive traits while being unconventional. Seems like the factor of being multifaceted carries into your likes and dislikes as well! So much enjoyments and hatred, though both are very necessary so I won't hate on that my dear!"

I posted an ic and i think no one will see it,and ah i always want to rp with you but i feel like i am gonna be an burden

"Well darling, I don't know what you mean since I don't know all these— modern abbreviations but, why be afraid, hm? The world's a stage in which you perform your greatest acts of success!"

( ooc : hey anon, i think this was meant for the ❤️‍🩹 symbol, yes? i just received this ask only a bit ago but this seemed pretty urgent so i hope the others don't mind me answering this first)

"You serve more than a purpose, my dear! You are essential, unique in way so unlike any other you may never realize. Don't you worry your little head about it darling, everyone has some sort of purpose in this grand scheme of life!"

mod : you have a place here and people are not only aware of it, but cherish and desire it dearly. and you are more than a "purpose", what's more important is your fulfillment of life regardless of "purpose". and being good is subjective, as long as you aren't an actual criminal, you are already "good" in more in ways than one. while i can't promise you anything, i can assure you that life isn't a way downhill. it goes up and down constantly, and even if it feels like it's only getting worse, i hope you know how much of a worth you have just for having been alive.

I don't feel like I'm doing good enough. I feel like every day I make some fucking mistake, and every day I get more and more worried about my future. I'm gonna be okay, right?

"Well dear, the uncertainty about the future can be overwhelming, can't it? Don't be so harsh on yourself darling, the only thing you should be worried about is that frown! Turn it upside down, hm?"

mod : hey anon! thanks for telling me your struggles. fear of the future can be extremely wearing, especially when every reminder of the future makes you anxious. everyone makes mistakes, from anyone just walking by the streets, to the most successful people in the world. if you are constantly hard on yourself, then any little mistakrs or imperfections become much bigger in your mind than they actually are. you will be okay, anon, you have made it so far, despite fighting for a little bit of life until now.

but whether you are okay or not, i hope you know at least one person is proud of you, mistake or not. and if there is none, then i must be dead. take care anon <3