#hel rambles

Bc then I would somehow increment in my Lace Gijinka design the headcanon that GMS is constantly breaking and reforming her bones and stretching her skin to keep her childlike appearance. And I would draw so that when she smiles, it's just a little too forced and a little too constricted, like there is not enough skin on her face to accommodate the expression. Also imagining a panel of Lace saying something like "Stay as mother's favourite...A child to be broken and kept. Eternal."

If you use this as AI prompt I'll learn to draw better and draw you pregnant owo)*

Otherwise feel free to use with credit ^^)*

Everyone is physically okay (including driver & passenger) but yeah... clean up is ongoing and god only knows how much everything is going to cost in the end, including the therapy I'm going go need...

I left my crutches inside so I could safely move my cat out of the house... and I should NOT be moving around without them rn, and I did about 20k steps before getting access to them again.

Let’s start what bothers me the most: I don’t know why the devs thought it would be a good idea for your actions during the game affect Elisabeth’s fate as opposed to London’s fate.  So no matter how many people i murdered, even i left all districts fall, the plague is still cured? The only “big” consequence is that my girlfriend of two weeks dies? And that makes me go into another killing spree? Got it. Makes perfect sense. Also, the good endings don’t feel like ... beliavable? I can’t see Jonathan and Elisabeth just locking themselves up/just go travel the world, leaving everything behind... Jonathan is still a doctor, there’s still the fallout of the plague and people who may need him, if you made Edgar a vampire, then Jonathan also has a progeny to take care of. Elisabeth has a daughter. Even thought Charlotte can take care of herself, I can’t see Elisabeth just leaving her behind like that.

Why can’t Jonathan just try to find a cure to Elisabeth while still working at Pembroke? Plus Elisabeth’s over reaction to being the healthy carrier is a bit... weird. Like, you’re not contagious by being near people, just don’t do any blood transfusions and all should be good.  Imo, they should’ve made your decisions in game affect if London is cured from the plague or not. The fate of Elisabeth could easily be done with a decision wheel, like with all the pillars, with McCullum and with Swansea. Also I would’ve really liked if romancing her was an option instead of forcing it upon the player. 

So, I posted a while back that I was not on my best and that I was gonna stay offline for a while. Then I dediced to ignore all I was going through and come back but yeah... it’s not really working.

Sorry I still haven’t replied to any rp threads, nor rebloged any of those fun ask memes I used to reblog. Sorry I’m not replying to the few asks I have laying on my inbox. I wish I had started this blog in a better moment of my life. 

I’m not as strong as I thought I was. I’m going to stay away from posting again. I not only am neck-deep in college essays and projects since I’m graduating in two months but also my mental health has been really shitty, and I don’t want to bother anyone with my problems. 

So I guess I’m putting this blog on a semi-hiatus. I hope to be back soon. I want to be back soon. But my brain is a clusterfuck, so who knows.

I still have a lot of posts on queue, so again, the blog won’t be completly dead. 

I’ll still be talking to people on IM now and then, so if you want to chat feel free to IM me, also if you want me to see a post or something, send it to me through IM instead of tagging me on it, please.

Hope you all understand. 

I'll have the opportunity to do some Linny in the days to come, because I'll be at my friend's who'd like to RP Ginny!

Thanks for the asks, I’ll be posting next week.

Sorry my beans!