#heartnote

"you? a 'straight up bitch'? more like a straight up bitch baby. full offense, by the way. i'm still pissed about you breaking my ps2."

oh you're so cute <333333 heres a heart back ❤️

            ◥  Truly, though it hadn’t been scarcely but that of a new moon since last, it is good to see him. There hadn’t been an insistent hurry nor any insinuation as such for the order of perfume placed, nor did he intend to make it seem as so - but the lasts of visits here have been paid in part of pure fascination to the arts of perfumery itself, and, in part, the man behind such a seldom spoken craft. As usual, the flora is apt and beautifully placed, spying out Misha amidst the final preparations of autumn.               ◥  And, in true autumn fashion, Terrence moves cautiously as to not make a sound - not until he is nearest, and paying close attention to windows in case Misha may spy him sooner than hoped. With a nudge of his boot behind Misha’s own, he edged him forward partially, play-tripping him (as if he could fall, in a position like that - if anything, just grasp the shelving more firmly). He could only marginally hold his amusement back, giving a soft “Boo~!” his way.     

"Heart Beats" will be on display and for sale at the Whitewater Saloon in Paradise, CA today. This piece was created specifically for this show. Watercolors on WC paper & framed under glass. #heartbeats #watercolors #painting #watercoloronpaper🎨 #imartsy #musicart #music #musicnotes #heartnote #oneofakind #unique #nofilters #noedits #hashbrown

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The knight has a knight.

Today is June 1, 2015. I already know these are time stamped regardless but still. I think I need to write it. I guess what I want to tell myself is …I’m growing up. I have many thoughts roaming around my head. It feels fuzzy. It feels all jumbled up. It’s been jumbled up. This is a first in my life. I’ve never been this confused on reading myself. I don’t think this is a bad thing. This was more severe about a couple of weeks ago. The reason I felt compelled to write a heartnote is because I realized I’m becoming more in tuned with my mind. An epiphany! I’m listening to my thoughts. This feels kind of soon to say ….but I think I’m on the road of becoming that stronger person I want to be. I’ve been waiting for a level up for a while now. To my surprise, it very much involves my mind. Thinking about it now, obviously for there to be some change within myself, my thinking pattern has to change as well. Maybe that’s why my mind feels like a car crash. Two things collided. My old self …and the person I so desperately have been wanting to become. Since I can remember, as a child, I’ve always thought I can become a better version of myself constantly. I seek change constantly. I seek improvement simply because I think it’s possible. I look back at my former selfs and I like the changes. I’m content with them. But all those changes were small. Necessary but small. Needed but small. They feel really small compared to what’s going on now. I’m forshadowing a bigger change than the rest of them. It feels like I’m learning more. Like gaps are being filled. I thought I was the most considerate person on the planet. But I’m learning that I can be even more. And it feels great. It feels great to feel that feeling a bit more. That deep understanding of humanity and its feelings. To end this, I want to tell myself something that other people have said: “Don’t be so hard on yourself.” “You’re awesome just as you are.” I think they are right and I do like myself a lot and thank you. But my mind craves change and improvement so much. I’m too ambitious for own good when it comes to this. It’s an extreme part of who I am. I can’t control what the world might throw at me. And that’s okay. All that I have left is to control myself. I’m the only thing I have power over in this world. My logic. So obviously, I am my own project. A project that I really want to work hard on. Everything of myself depends on myself. And that excites me. I think I’m in good hands.