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after you and connie’s shared kiss , your crush began to grow stronger than you’d ever imagined. not a day goes by without you talking to connie about any and everything. from childhood stories to debates about conspiracy theories the conversation never runs dry and that’s what you love about him. it’s always interesting.

you were doing inventory at work and heard the entrance bell ring as you did plenty times a day. “hi welcome in!” you chirp out without even looking up. a deep familiar voice speaks out and causes you to turn around. “hello pretty girl.” connie says as you turn around and meet his eyes. he’s standing there in baggy jeans and a vintage graphic tee holding flowers and a smoothie. this isn’t the first time he’s surprised you at work. ever since he discovered your job he made it a habit to come in with the excuse of “passing by” but he knows he’s going out of his way to see you but that’s something he’ll keep to himself

“what are you doing here con? i thought you were busy with eren today.” you questioned trying not to show too much eagerness as you walk over to him. “i finished early and decided to come check on my favorite girl. got these for you.” he hands you the smoothie and you notice it’s from your favorite cafe. butterflies seem to go crazy in your stomach at the thoughtful gesture. “con thank you! how’d you even know i liked their smoothies? and these flowers are so pretty too. this is so sweet.” you gush looking up to his smiling face.

“you told me you loved their smoothies since you were a kid.” connie explains as he sets the flowers down. connie remembers everything you say. he loves just listening to you talk seemingly hanging on the edge of your every word. your energy just was so comforting and safe something connie had never experienced before in any of his past relationships. which is why he’d come to you today to formally ask you on a date. he’d taken the time to plan the perfect first date for you.

“ so do you have any plans tomorrow?” connie questions looking at you as you fiddle around behind the cash register. thinking to yourself about your plans which you came to realize was absolutely nothing you eventually tell him you’re completely free. “well since you’re not busy i wanted to ask if i could have the pleasure of taking you on a proper date?” a smile spread across your face as you nod your head.

“yes con. i will. just let me know how i should be dressed.” you tell him attempting to keep your cool not wanting to seem overly eager. he assured you he’d let you know and told you know all the details he could share without spoiling the surprise. after saying your goodbyes as connie walks out the store your coworker and best friend, maya walks in.

“is that mr. connnnnieeee?” she asks while making teasing kissing noises. you’d told her about connie but nothing too serious. you didn’t want to get ahead of yourself when it came to yalls relationship. whatever it was. but now with this upcoming date you’re too excited not to share.

“well yes it is. he just came by to see me and to well you know ASK ME ON A DATE!” you screamed jumping up and down and maya joined you immediately. it had been so long since you’ve had a serious relationship and the last one ended badly and maya was there to see you go through that tough time. she was just as excited as you were.

“okay bitch you gotta find something to wear now!” and immediately you and maya hit the racks like crazy. as you shop you can’t stop smiling at the thought of connie and what he possibly could have planned for yalls date.

crybaby

a/n: hiiii everyone. hope you all enjoy this. it's my first time writing anything like this so it may be a little rocky. the idea came to me when i was listening to crybaby by sza sooo yeah there's that . enjoy!

You don't know what your issue is. You have a man who loves you and would do anything but you just couldn’t seem to let him in fully and it wasn’t doing anything but hurting you and even worse him. Ony was a great man who was always there for you when you needed it. It could be the smallest of things if you asked for it, he was going to get it and you knew all of this but you still couldn’t seem to let down your walls which is why you were currently sitting on the floor looking at the man with tears prickling your eyes. 

Ony rubs a hand down his face and lets out a heavy breath. He looks at your sad face admiring your beauty even with reddening eyes and curls all over your head, he still sees you as one of the most gorgeous women he knows. He clears his throat to finally speak. 

“Hey… Look at me baby.” He softly coos at you. Reluctantly you lift your head and lock eyes with him and begin feeling the tingling sensation you always do when you're with him. Maybe that’s the reason you can’t let him in. The feelings are too strong and with your track record of relationships that’s nothing new. 

You feel so strongly and are constantly let down by men who never intended on doing right by you. The last man you encountered left you so broken you made a vow to yourself to never be that open and willing with anyone else. That was until you met Ony. You met through mutual friends at a small get together. He saw you walk in and was immediately intrigued. He’d never been so drawn to a person or their energy the way you did. 

You both had begun talking casually as friends and the feelings grew rapidly on both sides. You had expressed to Ony about your bad luck when it came to men and shared your vow to focus on yourself from now until the future. It hurt him inside to hear about how your kindness had been taken advantage of time and time again making you have to retreat to a person who shields their heart for their own protection. All he wanted to do was show you what real love was supposed to look like. No lying. No cheating. No manipulation. Just pure love. 

“When you gonna let me take care of you? What’s it gonna take for you to let me in?” Ony questions you with a serious look on your face. It had been a constant push and pull between you both.  “I just… I don’t know Ony. I want to but I can’t take another heartbreak. I just can’t.” you breathily said as you looked up into his dark eyes. It broke his heart to see you look so torn, so sad, just so broken. He knew he wouldn’t treat you the same as the rest of the little boys you had dealt with. The only issue remaining was getting you to see the difference between the ones in the past and the potential future you had with him. 

“C’mere. Get up Pretty.” Ony lifts you up off the ground and places you onto his lap in a straddling position. He quietly admires your face and runs his hands over your silk pajamas. This position was nothing new for you both. There’s been many times where you have ended up in the same exact spot with Ony. Each time he was so soft and careful with you as if you could break if handled too rough. That was always the case with him. He was always so tender and caring and attentive. All reasons as to why you were so drawn to him. You constantly imagine what it would be like if you just let him be with you like you both wanted. Thoughts spiral all around your head about what life could be with him. The soft touches and the hungry kisses. That could be your life and it’s what you desired. 

“Tell me what’s going on in that head of yours? Just let me know.” The sound of Ony’s voice and his hand on your chin lifting your head to meet his eyes breaks you out of the trance.

“I’m thinking about how much I like you. And about how scared I am to try this all over again.” you pushed out those words without ever looking away from Ony. He nods letting you know to keep talking. “But if I was to try it one more time with any man I’d want it to be you.” You rushed out the words before you lost the confidence to do so. It had been so long since you had allowed yourself to be vulnerable with a man. It felt oddly freeing to let those words off your chest. You look to Ony for his reaction and you find yourself met with his smile shining brightly at you like a kid in a candy store. 

“That’s right Baby. I got you. I promise. Last niggas you fucked with didn’t know what to do with a woman like you but me? I know just what you need.” Ony kiss your lips softly. The one action set your stomach into flames. His lips travel down your neck lightly. It had been so long since you’d been touched by a man your body reacted instantly. Your hips gained a mind of their own as they rolled eagerly searching for any type of friction. Ony’s hands slid under your thighs as he hoisted you up in the air to walk towards his bedroom. 

Ony places you on his bed bringing his face to yours. “You gone let me take care of you Mama? Let me know.” He questions as he slides his hands under the small tank top you were wearing. You shyly nod your head and pull at his sweatpants trying to bring him closer. He can’t help but smirk at your eagerness. You’d both been fighting these urges for so long, you couldn’t wait any longer. 

"You can take care of me. I promise" You tell him looking up at his through your wispy lashes. Licking his lips he nods and kisses you deeply. The pit in your stomach went from fear to a new feeling you hadn't felt in a while. Your past may have been rocky when it came to relationships but there was something that was telling you this time with him would be different. And there was no other man you'd rather try with again than Onyankapoon.