#headcanon:five

Himself => understand by it: his actual incarnation

The Doctor remembersyet the time when he didn’t know athing about his future, when his life was stressful still but not at thispoint. He remember the time when he smiled with innocence, happily, wanted todiscover the universe, when he only enjoy his life without knowing his futureloss, his painful loss in the future, his painful die and his future inside thedarkness.

When Adricdie, all his innocence fall apart forever:the Doctor will never let himself goback, and knew he will be forgotten during fifth incarnation is a tear-upduring all this life. For bear the truth, for refuse to run away from thetruth, he had faced it, and this hurting him deeply bit by bit.

The Doctoris obligated to mourn the various phases of his existence though his‘immortality’ (with the time, he grow older, he grow wise, enter into a phaseof acceptation of his loss while his two hearts heal by his self-medication)and it’s very shameful for him. If the Doctor gives himself an illusion of thevarious men he was thought the centuries, which give the level of the Time Lordabout the feeling of loss he feeling thought the ages. 

Some periods of his lifewere really shameful. Like whenhe lost Nyssa, when he pass hundreds of years into a painfulmourning when his pain bring him almost mad, and out of the control and totallyruthless and violent. He didn’t proud of it. This shame is deeper than his personality:this is the same about his happiness. When hemiss a opportunity to be happy, miss a opportunity to pass time with hiscompanions, miss a moment to relax or sleep, that bring the Doctor sad deeperinside himself. He is shameful for his own reaction. Especiallyinside his depressed phases, he really wants crying about it. Crying abouthimself and let all his emotions break done, refraining to doing it.

First, sex.Don’t mind him; the Doctor is utterlydisgusted by the sex. You’ll neverfind something in relation with the porn with him, and he will actually never appreciate it, look at it or beagree with this. Already placed asasexual/demisexual at the basis - he really a deeper link, a deeper chemistry, a deeperaffection for the other person for thinkabout kiss the loved one; and theDoctor need a real powerful link for imagine himself do the thing - the Doctorhad placed the feeling of love otherwise than sex. It’s psychic, atelepathic relationship for better than the ‘physic thing’ the Time Lord thinkis too much vulgar, and inappropriate from his point of view. Certainly, he isthe boss of the mafia: prostitutes are part of his job however he never approve the conditions the womanwere at the first place, treat like only object of pleasure by men (this hasearned him several beatings, insults and bad treatments with Phil until theDoctor manage to change the opinion of the other man in front of him. Seriously, you think a procurer will let theDoctor let his disagreement withoutpay him his words?). The big change created by the Doctor since hismafia, and he literally imposed it to everyone was therespect about the woman, the liberty for the woman, even if he can’t understand the pleasure of it from the both sides. Another reason for the Doctor can be a real bastard when customers abuse the ladies,hedoesn’t condone rape, he doesn’t endorse women to bebeaten, he doesn’t endorse the huge macho in the community andsometimes, he didn’t agree with the desires of the customers.

For theDoctor, everyone need to be treatlike humans - the fact he communicate directly with the ladies of evening implythe importance of her say, where the Madam was a bit inside his jurisdiction for didn’t only think about herself and herbusiness -. If the men of the Doctor had a mentally a bit changed, understandthe Doctor find a way to apply hisvalues.

Second, hisown darkness. No, the Doctor wasn’t happy to know a bit what hewill become inside his future, a insensible bastard without attachment - nomore wife, no more hope, alone- didn’t even really allowed to feel because hiscondition of reincarnation give him that right to live when his last body - havinga confrontation between the two personalities before the balance come - wasbecoming a total wreck without hope, without wish to life and didn’t evenconsidered himself like the Doctor, take the place for see the world continuethe eternal cycle he had trying to stop with his past-actual incarnation, needto waiting himself for save himself. The Doctor can only be nauseated, alright?The Doctor had created all he had done - his Mafia, Featherine - for givinghimself hope, for giving hope from the future certainly but also for manage forgiving himself a better future than it.

Losing hishumanity, losing his own self for becoming a destructive Concept totally twisted, strongly sick and dying by hisown darkness is a living tragedy and inner torture to which the Doctor must maintain himself, obligated to think about his own incarnationand his futures incarnations.

I really need to do a meme gif about it too! 

Alternate History: Outside of American and Chinese immigration, it's also mentionned that there is now a Cold War between the United States and China, and Japan benefits from the Marshall Plan. And since the atomic bomb was never used, the doctrin of nuclear disssuasion probably doesn't exist. However, oddly enough the narration often references events that occured after the war in ourhistory, making it sometimes ambiguous whether the author is talking about RGD's world or our own. This may or may not be deliberate.

Band of Brothels: That's what Primavera is originally, and remains even after becoming a mafia group.

Bloodless Carnage: Whenever the heroes have a gunfight in 1947 and 1948, you will find nary a mention of blood or anyone being dead, even though there is little else a gunfight can produce. However this is sharply averted on several occasions in 1949 and 1950. According to Word of God, this sudden change of gears in the handling of violence between the first and second half of the story is entirely deliberate, and meant to accentuate the shock.

Cerebus Syndrome: Sort of. For Primavera, you can say that 1947 is "Spring", 1948 is "Summer", 1949 is "Autumn" and 1950 is "Winter". They are called "Seasons" for a reason.

Deuteragonist: While Rose is the actual main character, each time period has one or several co-protagonists; in 1947 it's Leo, in 1948 it's Rapunzel and the Wandering Dogs, in 1949 it's Alan and Keith

Eagleland Osmosis: A very extreme example of this, no doubt − at least in Tōkyō. Season 2 shows that this trope is more limited in other cities.

Film Noir: The story has definitely several elements of the genre, including the time period and mafia-infested setting.

Freeze-Frame Bonus: You can actually read some of the newspaper articles at the end of each chapter if you take a sceenshot.

Gratuitous English: The opening Ai ga omerta contains a healthy dose of it, with gems like "don't know my heart yet but I love you" or "too boring, no can do, man".

Gratuitous Italian: Club Primavera (Italian for "spring"). The song "Maboroshi Ni Shisu" (Death in Illusions) also has Italian lyrics. Who cares?

Gray and Grey Morality: To some extent, since the story still takes place in the criminal underworld. While there are some unambiguously good-intentionned characters, many of Primavera's men follow Rose because she's on top, not because they are decent people. And a few of the characters we are made to root for or sympathise with, like Butler, are quite morally dubious by common standards. In the end, the plot is more about each side fighting to defend their own interests and worldviews than defeating a Big Bad.

Gun Porn: This is a story about mafia after all. The preparation of the 1947 climax is the most notable example though. Between this work and Umineko, Ryūkishi seems to like researching on guns, especially heavy ones.

Historical-Domain Character: Even in this setting, Douglas MacArthur is still the Supreme Commander of the American occupation army. Film director Elia Kazanalso makes an appearance in a rather weird digression about the Red Scare in the US in Season 3.

Insistent Terminology: They are not prostitutes, they are ladies of the night. Granted, not all the girls in Primavera are sex workers.

Leo Shishigami Is About To Shoot You: With his finger, but still.

Lighter and Softer: Considering we're talking about the author of the When They Cry series and Higanbana No Saku Yoru Ni, the mood is certainly much lighter (although it does get darker at some point). The story setting is still kind of depressing though.

Meaningful Rename: After the disaster and the loss of the war, most Japanese in Tōkyō started to go by a Western second name, apparently to forget about the war and start anew.

Noodle Incident: The event that kick start the plot actually. It's never really explained what the "Great Disaster" was, only that it apparently destroyed the entire Japan.

Once per Episode: Every time, the climax of the year is preceded by a quiet scene with the sound of a single spotlight flash, along with the date, hour and details of the weather.

Pirates Who Don't Do Anything: It's sometimes very easy to forget that the Primavera family is a mafia under Rose's rule. Some characters lampshade in Season 3 that people rather see it as some kind of charitable organization, and that it can actually be a handicap when other mafia groups are involved.

Time Skip: The story is divided in 4 years (from 1947 to 1950), with a time jump in the middle of each Season after the first. The Seasons in the manga, somewhat more logically, follow the time jumps though. It's likely that the author had originally planned a "1 season = 1 year" structure but Season 1 ended up being too long, so he had to go for mid-Season time skips instead.

Title Drop: … Kinda sorta. The climax of the 1947 part is a battle named "the Night of Roses and Guns". The actual title is dropped at the beginning of the final chapter.Rose: Yeah, let's start this. The ending tale of these days of roses and guns!

True Companions: The Wandering Dogs rapidly become this.

Unproblematic Prostitution: Played variously. Primavera is a high-class club, so the "ladies of the night" can work in relatively decent conditions (although it's not like they all chose this job eagerly), and there are bodyguards to take care of the problematic customers; those working for the mafia probably aren't so lucky. By Nina's case, it seems being legal isn't even a requirement to work in Primavera.

Values Dissonance: Invoked multiple times in the story, notably between Japanese and Chinese conceptions on various matters.

War Is Hell: The few flashbacks of the frontlines never describe anything pretty.

Women Are Wiser: Not quite explicitly stated but several female characters serve as a voice of reason to reign in a male one, beat some sense into him or just make him a better person (notably Zel to Oliver and Meixue to Alan; and Rose to Richard, kind of). One scene also compares the vision of women to a "radar" (able to vaguely sense a danger from far away) and the vision of men to a "microscope" (more prone to analyse the threat in detail from close up).

You ALL Look Familiar: It seems there are like ten mafia mooks in Tōkyō. Although admittedly, there are surprisingly many different sprites for nameless characters, which is an oddity in itself for a VN.

You Gotta Have Blue Hair: Richard, Stella and Miguel are literal examples of this trope.

I seriously need to create a meme of gifs with them 8D

Affably Evil: She is completely indifferent towards the suffering of everybody else, but she sure is polite.

All Witches Have Cats

Ambiguously Evil 

Antiquated Linguistics

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The Dreaded

The Fog of Ages: Living for so long has left her with such severe memory issues that she needs a special device to keep her memories and avoid insanity.

God Is Evil: Averted, though just barely. She's not so much evil as she is uncaring of how she achieves her goals... though given the things she does do in the story (and apparently before it), you'd be forgiven for thinking it was played straight.

It Amused Me: The main reason she doesn't fit into God Is Evil instead. Physical Godliness and lack of a Freudian Excuse notwithstanding, she's still a Witch at heart and will do whatever it takes to keep herself entertained.

Lack of Empathy

The Man Behind the Man

Manipulative Bitch

Mysterious Watcher

Offscreen Villainy: Bernkastel, the cruelest example of a witch so far seen, finds her a hundred times more horrific than she could ever be. The evidence is suggested at, but never concretely shown. Featherine may be callous about lives ruined or lost in her pursuit of amusement, but she always appears to reward generously those she could've controlled by force, and shows mercy to opponents she's defeated.

Overly Long Name: Several characters have trouble with her full name; in the case of Bern though, it's more that she doesn't bother to remember.If that's long, try adding her title and home to it: "Lady Featherine Augustus Aurora the Great Witch of Theatergoing, Drama and Spectating's Noble City of Carefully Selected Books."

Physical God: One of the Creators described in Episode 4's TIPS.

Really 700 Years Old: By far the oldest witch in the series.

Retired Monster: Given what Bernkastel and Lambadelta say about (and to) her, this is heavily implied. Featherine herself personally thinks she's much worse.

Rewriting Reality

Put a word in my ask and I will write a Headcanon about it for my Muse.

A smallhubbub along very slightly, yet this part of the building was carefullyisolated. The case was closed and they were able to prevent a feud on time,even it’s wasn’t a reason of sadness could start it, but only the power: afterall, how the others Families inside the city could surrender to the Doctor’sFamily without any guarantee for their place? The Big Boss, as soon as he had heardrumors of fights between Families, between two glasses, in the street, heunderstood that war were soon to begin between them. It wasn’t something abnormal;after all, the power of his organization was disturbing for small Families wherethey would have to win to drop them from the surface.

It was onlycontempt from the other Family, which, of course, had heard of the terror theDon from the other Family could create, but he didn’t take seriously. How a mandressed so totally burlesque with a vegetable attached to his jacket, offeringa very strange color around the darkness around him, he could be dangerous,ruthless and prepared to destroy with bombs at once by a single gesture? Theirfirst thought was that they were making fun of them.

Then… thehead of the Family had received a strange call that a man he didn’t know, whoseemed ready to devour them orally, but that would just kindly to thediscussion for a meeting. The problem was that nobody had given a way to jointhem, with the ambition to annihilate The Doctor’s Family in secret than exposethe ambition. Did that mean? It was impossible that one of the men from the MafiaCricket Boy could have gotten his information… there was no traitor in their Family or he would have known, the man who would have given the phone numberwould have the new statement and gave his opinion… suddenly there was astream of cold air throughout the room.

A silenceof fear.

The man hehad contact was the Don himself, who obviously took things alone. If he had managed to provide their phone number withoutanyone suspect anything, without denouncing the eyes… what would he do ifthey were seeking to kill him in his back? Each had redesigned the rumorsbefore, and this time they were forced to recognize that it was true. It wasserious.

Reject the proposalwas impossible. When the time comes, everything was even more impossible andsome scary somehow: the Doctor himself, just with a few close of his men ontheir guard and visibly didn’t fooled by the unhealthy ambitions of another Family, hadinvited them to discuss with a drink, and annihilate any misunderstanding ontheir goal. It might well have decided to kill them immediately for being athreat to them, the another Family having almost expected to be decimatedthere, but it wasn’t that: the Doctor wanted a compromise. The other family wasaware of what was The Doctor’s Family, and that was the thing he didn’t expectto receive from them: have a share of the booty.

Then begana long conversation about the clear exchange of ideals, where the Doctor didn’tbother to go to the end of his thought, while being indifferent, drinking,smoking, attentive to their every word and trying to find the small flaw tofall back on. This became in an almost philosophical conversation while keepingfeet on the ground: the Doctor in front of them knew what he was doing and hadinformed on them sufficiently enough to know where their interest. If the Family next door kept his ambition of war, she lost any future possible benefitfor her.

The Doctor willabsolutely didn’t hesitate to destroy them from the landscape if they tried to think witharms rather than with their heads. And each had a family, a future to buildmore personal ambitions … and the Doctor was aware in evoked, not just to theneighboring Don, referring also to the lower branches to his small kingdom ofwomen. All he had to do was to join them, to be part of their Family, to cancelany plans for war… of course; it symbolized the end of the beginning ofhatred between them. There would be no possible treason. There wouldn’t be attemptedmurder.

Everyonewas a winner anyway.

Phil lookedat his boss, his hand on his cheek, looking thoughtful, drinking again, probably his twentieth, having drunk so much he had already forgotten. Everyonewas already gone to the bar to celebrate the new alliance and new friendshipsfuture is going to create them, their opinion has already changed. Phil had togo too, but obviously, the Doctor was going to remain a little time alonebefore joining. As usual. As usual, only the Doctor was able to understandhimself.

“ You don’tcome, Boss?”

“Justa little time. Go, Phil. I will come" 

Was the mere response from theDoctor.

Theconcerned didn’t take long for go and have fun on his turn, where the Doctorgently stretched, watching the paper’s newly signed contract with all the termsand rules of the Mafia had been fully accepted. An amused smile tucked his lipsa few minutes before becoming much larger and much happier where a gleam in hiseyes becomes darker. He took out his mobile a few seconds after, calling verycheerfully Turlough, not hiding his satisfaction in his voice: