In a world where you could have suguru geto, but suguru geto couldnât have you.
a/n: HELLO! i am uh VERY excited about this! there will also be another one of these at the end, bc i obviously cannot say what i want now bc itâll ruin the fic and we cannot have that. well actually, there are time jumps in the fic, so be prepared for that. anyways, i hope you all enjoy:)
Satoru x AFAB! reader, Suguru X AFAB! reader
word count: 6.3k (woohoo!)
Warnings: cursing, smut (although not really smut but iâm putting the warning anyways), marriage, pregnancy, birth, death, mentions of death, death scene (best way to put it). i would say this is probably pg-13, i think thatâs all the warnings, if i forgot any please let me know!
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Suguro Geto has been infatuated with you his entire life. The moment he first looked into your eyes, he swore he saw the future with you in it. He could show you his love, give you his love. He could give you the Sun on a cloudy day, the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow; but it wouldnât matter. Because you werenât his. You were Satoru Gojoâs.Â
Best friends since practically birth, Sugru swore that he would worship you, cherish you, and protect you.Â
That's why when you told him you were falling for his best friend, Satoru, he had to do everything in his power to prevent it. Not to hurt you, not to embarrass you, not even to shoot the shot himself. But simply to protect you.Â
Gojo was a player. He cared for his best friend, yes, and he also loved his favorite girl and wanted you happy, but being with Satoru would only make you happy for so long. And he couldnât bear seeing you so sad, especially if he could have prevented it.Â
But it was too late, the two of you had declared your feelings for one another before Suguru had a chance to object. He could have prevented this, he should have. Not even now, in the past, he had time after time to confess how he felt, yet he never did, too worried about ruining your friendship or changing your view on him. It would kill him if you thought of him any differently.
If Satoru had known Suguruâs feelings, he never would have gone in, but Suguru is a people pleaser. He could tell for a while that Satoru was developing feelings for you, yet, he had hoped it was just a phase. That it was just one of Satoruâs silly crushes he would get and go away, when gone, he could then respectively get the opportunity to go for you; but.
The phase never ended. It was proven quickly that Satoruâs playboy phase was over, and he was ready to commit, settle, and create.Â
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âI asked what color. As in the dress I wear for Satoru and Iâs date tonight.âÂ
âOh, uh, the blue one. Itâll pair really well with his eyes.âÂ
âYou are so right! What would I do without you Suguru?âÂ
God, you were so beautiful in Suguruâs eyes. Crafted by the Goddess Aphrodite herself. Chiseled by the hands of Michelangelo directly. You were perfect, you were flawless, you were Satoruâs. He needed to get these thoughts out of his head, he needed to push past these feelings. He needed to get over these pent up feelings, he could no longer think about them and feel good about it; happy. Because you were not his, you were Satoruâs.Â
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âSuguru, can I please come over?âÂ
âUh yeah, sure doll. Whatâs wrong?âÂ
You hesitate before you answer, not sure if you want to say anything at all.Â
âSatoru and I got into an argument. He left and I donât want to be here by myself; I canât. Iâm just too frustrated, angry, I canât stand being here right now.âÂ
Suguru can feel the clench of his jaw get tighter, almost painful. How dare Satoru hurt his girl. How did he hurt his girl? Did they disagree on something? Did he insult her? Did he lay with anoth⊠no he wouldnât. But it is a possibility.Â
In fact, it didnât matter what he did. Suguru was seeing red, and in that moment, he wanted to hurt Satoru and protect you.Â
By the time you arrived at Suguru's, you had stopped crying. Your face red and puffy, but also emotionless. Feeling nothing but anger and regret in the moment.Â
Suguru welcomed you in with a hug, so warm and comforting. You stay like that for a moment and breathe in his scent. Menthols and cedar, so familiar and pleasing.Â
He sends you to the couch and goes to the kitchen to grab two wine glasses and a bottle of the wine brand you really enjoy.
âSo doll, tell me what happened.âÂ
In which you do. You proceed to tell him how the two of you went out to eat with some of Satoruâs coworkers. and how you didnât appreciate his work wife (her words not yours) hanging all over him, especially in the presence of you. Scooting in real close to him in the booth at the restaurant, causing you to have to sit between two of his coworkers. Then, she would constantly interrupt you every time you had something to say, and would belittle you. The worst part of it all, Satoru let it happen. His coworker, Nanami, said something before he did. Actually, it does get worse, on the way home you bring this up to him, telling him how you didnât appreciate this, and he brushes it off as her normal behavior, which then, makes you think. If this was how she acted when youâre around, how does she act when youâre not? This stirs the pot even more, makes it reach a boiling point, as you begin pointing accusations towards him and it just got nasty from there.Â
You take your final sip of your third glass of wine, signaling Suguru, still on his first glass, for another refill.Â
âOf course, I feel bad for accusing him of such things, but do you blame me? They looked like they were the ones in a relationship and I was one of the coworkers!âÂ
âDonât feel bad. Itâs normal to feel that way, based on what was on display for you tonight and with how you were feeling. You had every right to be upset.âÂ
âI know Suggy, I just feel so bad about it.âÂ
âDo you know where Satoru is now? You mentioned he had left.âÂ
A moment of calm before the storm.
âWait. What if heâs at that bitchsâ house. What if heâs over there laughing with her about how oblivious I am. What if heâs already fucked her, rolled over and said goodnight-â
âY/N stop. Thatâs not happening and you know it. He could be at the gym, even sitting in the car. Have you called him ?âÂ
âNoâŠI donât want to talk to him, right now.âÂ
It sucks. It really does. Being stuck in between the disputes and fights between your best friend and the love of your life. Conflicting on what side to be on, having to choose between your brain and your heart.Â
âOkay, maybe Iâll do the talking. Iâll call him and check in to make sure heâs okay. Whereâs my phone-âÂ
Maybe it was the wine talking, actually it was the wine talking. You would never do this sober. You loved Suguru, but not like this. This was out of spite. Out of anger. Nothing but pure venom behind this.Â
Suguru knew this. He dreamed of this moment every night, but not like this.Â
He knew this was wrong. He knew you didnât mean this. He knew he couldnât enjoy it. You were tipsy, he was not. You were in a relationship with his best friend. He couldnât.Â
He gently pulled away and looked at you, tears now slowly cascading down your face.Â
âI know. Iâm sorry. I shouldnât have done that, I donât know what I was thinking.âÂ
Thereâs silence, followed by a knock on the door. A familiar knock. The knock only Satoru does.Â
âSuguru. I messed up. Can I come in?âÂ
The tears fall down your face even more now. Guilt taking over.Â
âThis never happened, okay?â Suguru speaks up, heading towards the door. He wants it to keep happening. He wants to keep kissing you, properly. He wants to make you feel better, to make you forget the events of the night, ever happened, but he knows he canât. Â
Suguru doesnât open the door until you respond with a faint âokay,â acknowledging to never speak about what just happened.Â
Satoru walks in, explaining, just how you did, what had happened. He then says he wasnât at the gym, wasnât at her house, but that he was just out. Walking around, clearing his head, feeling so stupid. Feeling so shitty he hadnât done anything, feeling like he needed to do something to make it up to you, he just didnât know what. Thatâs why he was here at Suguruâs. You, not yet noticed by him.Â
When you are, Satoru's eyes pop out of his skull, relieved. He was worried you were at home, alone with nothing but your thoughts and his harsh words. He left you, which was so selfish of him. He should have stayed there and talked it out. Apologized with his words and his mouthâŠ.and tongueâŠ.and handsâŠ.Â
He trusted Suguru with his life. He knew that the two of you had been friends forever. Even before the two of them met in middle school. He had nothing to worry about. He knew you had seen Suguru as a brother, and from what he was told from Suguru, that you were not his type and nothing but a friend to him. He trusted Suguru to comfort you and be there for you when needed, so seeing you at his house wasnât surprising at all.Â
What Satoru didnât know, though, was that you had kissed Suguru just mere moments before he arrived.Â
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The statement catching you off guard, you choke on the noodle you were slurping.Â
âW-what?
"I said, marry me.âÂ
âWell obviously not now, the courthouse is closed. Tomorrow we can. Weâll go shopping for our wedding attire then head our way down and officiate our love.âÂ
âSatoru, I would love to marry you, but donât you think-âÂ
âThink what? That this is all too soon, so sudden? That Iâm crazy? No darling I donât think such things. I think that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. That I want you to have my last name, to become mine, officially. I want you to walk around when youâre shopping with Shoko and flaunt off the ring on your finger, showing you belong to me. I think that I want you, forever, and that I am so impatient I simply cannot wait to marry you. I want to see you all dolled up for me, in a beautiful dress, telling me how much you love me in front of whoever comes. I want you, forever-no, I need you forever. So, Iâll say it again. Marry me,âÂ
âYes Satoru, Iâll marry you.âÂ
He places his hands on your face and pulls it closer to him. He then pushes your hair behind your ear and leans in so close, breath fanning on your lips.Â
âPerfect. Weâll make it happen, tomorrow.âÂ
He then ends the sentence by finally capturing your lips with his. Fast paced and sloppy at first, but then slowing down to more sensual, passionate kisses, Before things become to heated, you pull back and confront him:Â
âHowever, in the future, when we are rich, you owe me my dream wedding. A live band, a 10ft tall wedding cake, a beautiful gown,-â
âDeal,â Satoru says, kissing you again. âAs long,â kiss, âyou marry,â kiss, âme,â kiss, ânow.âÂ
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âWhat did you get y/n for her birthday?âÂ
Suguru chuckles. The two men sitting on the couch of yours and Satoruâs shared apartment playing Mariokart. You went out with Shoko for the evening so Satoru took his opportunity to discuss birthday ideals.Â
âWhy? Do you need ideas on what to get your loving girlfriend for her birthday?â
âWHAT! Of course not. Sheâs just been naming a lot of things she wants for her special day, and I want to make sure you didnât get her anything I did, because otherwise one of us is gonna have to return it.â
Satoru didnât like that and attempts to run Suguru off the track, but to no avail, fails. Suguru retorts by throwing a banana peel on the track, which in turns, makes Satoru fall off the track.Â
âIâm in third place now you better catch up..âÂ
âI amâŠâŠgonna be first, just you watch.âÂ
Silence consumes the two, the only noises being from the game and a couple of frustrated sighs and groans.Â
âHow the hell are you first Suguru?âÂ
âIâm just that good.âÂ
âBullshit is what it is.âÂ
âOh and would you look at that, I win.âÂ
âA winner is what I am Satoru.âÂ
Satoru rolls his eyes and hands his friend a five, the rightful bet for the round.Â
âThis isnât over, I got plenty more coming.âÂ
âAnd you wonât have anymore coming once the night is over.âÂ
Satoru gets up and heads towards the kitchen and grabs two cans of that soda they like so much. He throws one to Suguru and the two of them drink it in silence before Suguru speaks up:Â
âOh, and to answer your question, I got y/n that blanket and house slippers she really wanted.â He chose to go a safer route, didnât want to get anything too intimate, like the perfume you really wanted.
âIn her favorite color?â
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âYou know it. What did you get her?â
âI got her that perfume she really wanted, as well as some snacks, and drinks she really enjoys. I also got her that huge stuffed animal she wanted, the sweaters, and that dress.âÂ
âSheâs gonna love it.âÂ
âI hope so. I donât want her to think I overdid it. She deserves all of it, and I want her to know that, too.â
âShe will. Donât overthink it.âÂ
And the conversation ends with perfect timing, as you walk into the door with multiple bags in hands. âIâm back! Did you miss me?âÂ
âAlways dear,â Satoru greets you, taking your bags in hand and giving you a kiss.
âHey Suguru!â You finally spot the black haired man and give him a hug. He inhales your scent, quickly, and smiles.Â
âHey doll. Did you have fun with Shoko?â
âSo much fun. Actually, you two sit down, Iâll give you guys a little shopping haul!â You squeal with excitement.Â
And the two men sit down as you take the bags back from Satoru. You then proceed to show them everything you got. From the hair clips, to the graphic tees, to the..
Oh. You managed to purchase everything you wanted for your birthday.Â
âLooks like weâre both gonna have to return what we got her,â Satoru whispers into Suguruâs ear, which manages to make him laugh.Â
âWhatâs so funny?â you ask, faking a hurt expression as they interrupted your haul.
âNothing love, continue.âÂ
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Suguru couldnât believe his ears. He never wanted to imagine this, and even if he did, it happening so soon, while the two of you were still so young.Â
âI donâtâ... I donât know how to tell Satoru. I donât even know if he wants kids, weâve never talked about it, really, before. What if heâs angry? Or scared? What if he leaves me?âÂ
Tears begin falling down your face faster than you are able to wipe them off.Â
Suguru has always wanted kids. Especially if they were with you. He knew, in that moment, that if Satoru refused it, he would help you.Â
Except he knew Satoru wouldnât refuse it, nor would he leave you. He would be so happy. He loves kids, and heâs wanted to be a dad, probably, much longer than Suguru wanted to be.Â
âAnd, knowing our families, who knows how theyâll react. They could be angry, sad, happy, or worse, disown us. Oh Suggy, Iâm not ready for this, I canât do this.â
ây/n, relax. Breathe. Itâs okay. For starters. Satoru will be beyond happy. I can guarantee you that. I know him just as well as you do, so trust me on that. I know you're scared, and I know it all is happening so fast. But thatâs okay.âÂ
âTo hell with them. If they arenât happy, if they arenât bursting with joy at the fact that you are carrying their grandbaby, then forget about them. You know that Satoru and you will have mine and Shokoâs support and love. You also know that my family will love that baby like it is their own kin and spoil it more than it needs to. Again, I know itâs all so sudden. I know itâs happening so fast. But, itâs okay. Itâll all come together in the end.âÂ
âThanks Suggy, I donât know what I would do without you.âÂ
You embrace him in a hug and begin crying softly, but this time with happy tears. You know itâll be okay.Â
âYou know Iâll always be here for you doll.âÂ
âI know, I love you Suggy.âÂ
âI love you too.â And he really does. But he needs to stop.Â
You were, now, carrying the child of his best friend. He needs to overcome these feelings, it isnât right. It isnât fair. But he canât stop.Â
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âAbsolutely no peeking at all. You understand me?âÂ
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âYes maâam,â Suguru and Shoko both say, the pair also doing a little hand salute.Â
You and Satoruo had planned a little surprise for the two of them. They knew you were pregnant, they just didnât with know how many, So once you had left the OBGYN appointment, the two of you began planning your surprise.Â
âCan we look yet? I can feel my forehead getting sweaty with this blindfold.âÂ
âNO Suguru, LEAVE it on.â
âSatoru-âÂ
âNO ifs, ands, or butts. Weâre almost done. Be patient.âÂ
A very long, dramatic, time later, you then announce to your two friends that they can take their blindfolds off.Â
There is a moment of silence once they are removed and the two of them look at you and Satoru, confused.Â
âErm doll, what are we supposed to be looking at?âÂ
Satoru had a sweet tooth, so when he saw the candy bars he had come up with the perfect idea.Â
You handed a Hersheyâs bar to Shoko, with the HER colored in.Â
âItâs a girl?! Ohmygod!â she jumps up and gives you a hug, tight, but not too tight afraid she may hurt the baby.Â
âDonât celebrate just yet,â Satoru says, handing another Hershey's bar to Suguru, this time the HE being colored in.Â
âWait, itâs a boy?âÂ
âWell yes, technically the both of you are correct,â you say, waiting for the two of them to piece it together.Â
It takes a little bit, watching the two of them trying to connect two and two together, but eventually Shoko yells out, âTwins? YOuâre having TWINS?âÂ
âYES! More babies to spoil!â Shoko then engulfs you and Satoru in a hug, The three of you jumping around in a circle.Â
Suguru, although happy for you two, is sat on the couch in shock. His heart aching, He should have been the one announcing along with you that you were having twins.Â
âCongratulations you guys. Iâm really happy for you.âÂ
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Satoru watches you as you stare at yourself in the mirror. Your hands on your belly, eyes darting back and forth between your growing stomach and your face.Â
âLove, whatâs wrong?âÂ
You hesitate, and of course Satoru sees as your face changes between upset to content.Â
âNothing!â you smile.âÂ
âDonât lie to me. I know when something is up.â He gets up from the bed and makes his way behind you, snaking his arms around you and his hands, now resting upon your stomach. âTalk to me.âÂ
âI just-â you begin crying. Tears pouring out slowly. âI feel so different. I look so different. My body is changing and I donât feel beautiful anymore.â The tears more rapid now
Satoru turns you around, your face now laying directly in his chest. His arms tighten around you, engulfing you.
âYes?â you ask, lifting your face up to look into Satoru's eyes. They were so beautiful, so captivating. Entrancing you.Â
âYou are so beautiful, just as beautiful as the day I first laid my eyes on you. Just as beautiful as the first time we made love, when your skin was slick with sweat and hair all matted in a mess. You are just as beautiful as you were the first time you were hungover, sick as hell, throwing up everywhere. And just as beautiful as the day you said âI do,â and we married. You are beautiful, and you always will be. You are growing our children. Do you understand how amazing that is? You are so strong, stronger than me. I could never do something like that. You are nurturing and doing everything you can to ensure that our kiddos are safe, healthy, and well nourished. I donât understand why you are feeling like this, and I probably never will, but just know, to me; I know you are beautiful. And I love and appreciate the fact that you are doing this, holding our babies everyday.âÂ
âI love you Satoru.âÂ
âI love you too, y/n,â and with that, Satoru picks you up, with haste, and carries you to the bed. Where he spends a majority of the evening showing you just how beautiful you are, and how much he appreciates you.Â
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You answer the phone, taking a break from decorating the nursery.
You, Satoru, Suguru, and Shoko had all been painting, putting furniture together, and getting everything ready for your unborn babies. Satoru had left to pick up lunch about an hour or so ago, so the three of you had resumed working until he had returned.Â
You were about seven months along at this point. Belly growing bigger everyday as you provided a nurturing environment for your babies to grow and develop in.You were glowing.Â
But you always were in Suguruâs eyes.Â
You begin looking pale, eyes bubbling with tears. Your hand, banded with a wedding ring, turning white as you are gripping the phone so tight.
ây/n, whatâs wrong?âÂ
Shoko comes up to your side placing an arm on your stomach, meant to comfort you but it makes you feel sick.
Suguru stands behind you, preparing to catch you in case you collapse.Â
âI-, I understand. Iâll be there shortly.âÂ
In which you hang up the phone and the tears officially fall. Sobs escaping you, and eventually you do fall, not hard, just to your knees. Suguru and Shoko follow suit with you, both pairs of arms are wrapped around you.Â
âThat-that was the hospital,â you begin.
Sobs become more uncontrollable as you try to compose yourself and explain what you were just told over the phone.
âSatoruâs there. He-he was in an accident. A bad one. They-âÂ
You begin sobbing even harder now. Shoko wraps her arms around you, even tighter, lending her shoulder to you, so you can cry on it.Â
Suguruâs face is blank. He doesnât want to assume the worst. He doesnât want to assume the worse not only for you, as he knows the pain and torture it would cause you, the emptiness you would feel, but he doesnât want to assume the worst for his best friend.Â
Heâs known him for years. His brother, his idiot, the love of his girl's life. His comedic relief in the dark points of his life, his moral compass, his Mario Kart partner.Â
He knew that if he lost Satoru, he would lose you too. He would lose himself. Things would be different. The stress it would cause you too, wouldnât be good for the twins.Â
Satoru was strong. The strongest he would call himself. He could pull through, he had to. For you, for your babies, for Suguru. He needed his best friend.Â
âLetâs get down to the car. Weâll head that way now,â Suguru says, picking you up and carrying you towards the front door. Shoko follows suit, grabbing yours and hers bag, just in case.Â
And just like that, the three of you head towards the hospital, as fast and legal as possible.Â
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He looked so peaceful in the bed, Satoru did. The doctorâs, now, certain that he wouldnât make it. The injuries from the accident just too severe, they did everything they could, they really did.
Satoru just lay in bed. Not being able to do anything. Which leaves all that is left to do is say goodbye. You and Shoko had already said it. You taking a good few hours before you left his side, but the doctors and Shoko both agreed that you should take a break, The stress and pain not being good for the babies. You promised him you would come back. Whether it be when he is gone or not yet, you would come back.Â
Now just sits Suguru and Satoru, alone in the room.Â
Satoruâs still body is a different atmosphere than Suguru is used to. Heâs used to Satoruâs banter, his quick jabs and silly jokes. His video game rage and loud belches. The silence, he didnât like it.Â
âPlease, Satoru. Make a miracle happen.âÂ
âYour babies need you. Y/n needs you. I need you. Youâre my best friend. Please. You can make it.âÂ
This time there is something. A hand twitch.Â
âSuâŠ.SuâŠ.Sugu..Suguru.âÂ
He stands from his chair, tears brimming in his eyes. Not yet allowing them to fall, he canât. If Satoru somehow makes out of this, the tears need to be shed from joy, not sadness.Â
âYes Satoru?â Suguru then places his hands on top of Satoruâs.Â
âI.. I need you to promise me something,â his voice raspy. So faint and dry.Â
âPl,,,please take care of my love for me. And our babies. Protect them, make sure theyâre okay, like you used to.âÂ
âPromise me. My babies need a good father figure in their life, and you can fill that roll. Y/n is strong, so strong. But I need you to be there for her when she needs it. I need you to be there for her when she doesnât feel beautiful, to be there for her on her birthdays, on our kidsâ birthday. I need you to be there for them, because I wonât be able to. Can you please, promise me that you will do that?âÂ
Suguru couldnât hold back now, crying full time now. He wasnât supposed to see his best friend go. He wasnât supposed to take on the role of his friend. He loved you, yes, but it wasnât his place. You were Satoruâs, not his.Â
âYes Satoru, I promise.âÂ
âOh and one more thing, before I forget.âÂ
âDonât let my kids grow up without knowing who I am. Make sure they know how cool, awesome, talented, and amazing at Mario Kart their daddy was.â he attempts a laugh at this, but it turns into a fit of coughs.Â
âI would, but I wouldnât want to lie to your children. If anything you were mediocre at best.âÂ
Satoru attempts a fist, followed by a âbastard.âÂ
And for about five more minutes the two of them talk and say their goodbyes, until Satoru takes his last breath, as soon as you walk in too.Â
You run to his side and begin crying. Shoko, behind you with a hand on your back, with a few tears falling down her face too. Suguru is on the other side, staring at his best friend. With no more tears left to cry, he just stands there emotionless, in shock that he really was gone.
He had a job. A job that he had sworn to for his whole life, but now, it became much bigger. He promised his best friend, and he never intended to break it.Â
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He opens one eye, trying to make out who, or what was trying to get his attention.
Ever since Satoruâs passing, Suguru had left his apartment to move into yours and Satoruâs, which was the smarter choice since the nursery was already set up. He had moved into the old office, obviously no longer used.Â
âSuguru, wake up. Itâs important.âÂ
âWhat is it?â he sits up, rubbing his eyes and stretching his arms out. He looks to his right to see the alarm clock which reads 4:45AM.Â
âOh.â Suguru says. Yawning and stretching some more. âOH. NOw??? ITâs so Early!? WHy didnât you start off with that?? WHY didnât you just bust through the door screaming that?!â
âNo time to question that, we need to head to the hospital, like, now.â
âRight.âÂ
In which he hops out of bed and grabs the hospital bag heading towards the car. Following suite, you, carefully, rush down stairs of the complex, and get into the car. Sugru, now much more awake, ensures you have everything and that you are safely strapped in, and that both car seats are in the back seat. Once he completes the internal checklist, he straps in himself and heads towards the hospital, this time, in a not so legal manner.Â
On the way there you manage to get ahold of Shoko and she promises to be there the same time as you, so she is there when the babies are born.Â
And when they are, it is 6:08 in the morning. Suguru and Shoko being there for you the entire time, a hand to hold each as you pushed each one out. And they were so beautiful.
Although Satoru wasnât physically there with you in the room, you knew he was there in spirit. You could feel him. Feel his smile, feel his presence, and feel the tears of joy he cried from his babies being born.
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It had been about three months since the babies were born, Shoko and Suguru wanting to give you a break for the day, took the twins. You decided since you had the day off you would visit Satoru.
âI promise, Iâll bring the twins to meet you. Itâs just so cold, I don't want them to get sick. They arrived a bit early. Just so eager to meet us.âÂ
The rain now turning into a slight drizzle.Â
âThey are so beautiful Satoru, Megumi and Tsumiki. They both have a mix of our features, however they donât have your eyes like I hoped they would. But, they have your smile and your nose, and the same attitude you had too. You would have loved them so much. And they would have loved you.âÂ
The rain picks back up again, but just for a moment, then it turns back into a light fall.Â
âSuguru and Shoko have been great, amazing actually. Theyâre actually watching them today. Shoko insists on watching them a lot, she says it because I need a break and need to rest, but I think we all know it's because she loves being an auntie, and she loves spoiling her niece and nephew. I swear, they have more clothes than you ever did, and thatâs saying something.â
There is a bit of silence as you sit there and just stare at his grave. Scattered around the grave are photos, you and him, him and Suguru, group photos of the four of you. Vases of flowers lined around the grave and his favorite pair of sunglasses sit on the very tip of the headstone. Itâs as if he decorated the grave personally. It was him.
âOh! I brought you something! Or rather, some-things.âÂ
You reach around behind you and grab the bag filled with goodies for Satoru.
âFor starters, this.â Itâs a framed photo of you in the hospital bed, just mere seconds after pushing the twins out. You look exhausted, but Satoru would have thought you looked gorgeous. To each side of you is Shoko and Suguru, both of them holding one of your babies, a huge smile plastered on both faces. You take the photo and place it on an empty spot near the headstone.
âI brought these too, just so you can have a piece of them with you.â And you pull out two beanies, the exact ones that were placed on your twins head when staying in the hospital. No need for it anymore since they have grown out of it. You then place those next to the sunglasses. Little weights holding them down so they donât blow away.Â
âAnd finally, this. I know you will love this.âÂ
Itâs a trophy, one that was found while looking at the flea market with Suguru one day. The two of you saw it, laughed, gasped, and immediately bought it. It was perfect. A trophy that reads âworldâs best MarioKart player,â you place it directly in front of the headstone. It was so specific, why it existed, you didnât know, but you were glad it did.Â
As soon as you placed the trophy on the grave, the rain cleared.Â
âWell, as much as I donât want to leave, I have too. I enjoyed my time here today, Satoru. I love you.âÂ
You get up, dust yourself off and head back towards your car. In the time it takes to get there, you look up towards the sky and see a rainbow, faint, but visible.Â
âOh Satoru, youâre so beautiful.âÂ
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You and Suguru had the apartment to yourselves today. Shoko took the kids to the zoo for the day, and then would keep them for the night as well. She didnât get to see them that often anymore due to her new job, so she took every opportunity to see the kiddos to the extreme, and would steal them for a few nights.Â
It had been about five years since the twins were born and Satoru had passed. They were about to start school, so all of you were trying to get the last bit of fun in before it would be âunknowingly sucked away.â (As Satoru would have said).Â
So with the house to yourself, you and Suguru sit on the couch, watching, who knows what movie, while eating takeout and sipping on some wine, except yâall werenât sipping as you were already on the second bottle.
âThis movie is boring, Suggy.â Hiccup. âLetâs watch something else. Or do something else.âÂ
âLike what doll? Neither of us are in a state to drive.âÂ
âHmmm-â you begin but interrupt yourself with a fit of laughter.Â
âHey you! Whatâs so funny?â Suguru joins in with you with laughter, jabbing his hands to your side and tickling you.Â
âHey STOP!â Your laughter now becoming more uncontrollable.Â
The tickle fight-or rather tickle assault since you havenât been able to get your hands on Suguru- comes to an abrupt stop as you fall off the couch, bringing Suguru down with.Â
You lay on the floor, with Suguru hovering on top of you. His hands holding yours over your head. Breaths are shaky and uneven. The two of you staring into each others souls, not daring to break the contact.Â
Heat rises up to your cheeks, but that was because of the wine. Right? Definitely not because you are feeling some way about Suguru, no. You loved Satoru still, you couldnât.Â
But, it had been so long since you felt good.Â
And as if he had read your mind, he placed his lips on yours, but in a way that was so soft. It wasnât sloppy, it was perfect. So passionate, so needy.
Suguru had wanted this forever. An actual kiss. It felt so wrong, but it was so right. He needed this. Satoru told him to take care of you, but he never specified on how.Â
Every thought of guilt being pushed further and further into the back of his mind.Â
The wine giving him courage? Maybe, however he would have never done this if he had thought you wouldnât reciprocate it back. He had noticed for a few weeks now the way your stares towards him had become more longing and more sincere. The touches you gave him on his arm or back, even the way you wrapped your arms around his neck, became longer and more heartwarming. Even if this was a one time thing, a moment of selfishness, pleasure, and lust, he was going to make it worth it. Make it the best moment of his life. He was going to make you feel good, gonna make him feel good.Â
âLetâs move to my room, doll.âÂ
The run towards his room is fast. You donât think youâve ever seen him move that quick before. Quickly, he lays on the bed and pulls you on top of him, where now, you are straddling him.Â
A few more kisses are exchanged before Suguru is pulling your top off, no bra on as the two of you were just lounging around the house.Â
He stares, hard, although he doesnât mean too. The stare now making you feel nervous and small, causing your face to shift. Of course, Suguru notices this.âÂ
âYou are so beautiful, y/n.âÂ
Suguru did fulfill his duty to make you feel good. It was more than good, it was the best you ever feltâŠ..in a while.Â
And in that moment of climax, shared between the two of you, Suguru was yours. You had him. Youâve always had him, but then. You really had him. You had officially seen him when he was most needy. Seen him in a moment of pleasure, ecstasy.Â
But, Suguru didnât have you.Â
No matter what he did, how he made you feel, you would never be his. You were never his.Â
You are and always will be, Satoruâs.
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a/n: wow! and here it is. i am actually really proud of how this came out. now, onto what i needed to say. iâm thinking of writing a bunch of different side stories about this, like reader telling Gojo theyâre pregnant, Gojo and readers first date, Gojo before the fatality, maybe an alternate endingđ if that is something you guys would be interested in, lmk and iâll start writing. thanks for reading<3 highly appreciated đ„° sorry for the pain i may have caused, if it makes anyone feel better i got v emotional writing this!