Lately i had feel ignored by..alot of ppl (not you sam cus u might think that but no,not you) and well..sometimes it makes me feel unmotived.
Rn i wanna cry cus like now i have 3 ppl that ignores me.
One plays more and when i wanna try talk w them they dont even pause the game or smth,i try to talk w them cus i dont talk w them in long time.
The other is slowly leaving me but i rlly get depressive when i lose a friend so i try to keep talking w them but no,they are busy.
And the other different timezones,i get that but when they are free they just ignore my messages.
Im slowly getting back to my depressive state when i was...idk 10? When i got depressive i just throw everything, cry everytime,i lazy text,im unmotivated wanting to kms,ik there ware ppl that rlly hates me mentioning i wanna die but dang,i just feel everything would be better if i poof.
I mean EHEHEHE,IF I WASN'T ALIVE HE WOULDN'T HAVE THE TRAUMA HE HAVES.
Idk if he still w that shitty ahh trauma.
Ugh i also hate being depressive cus im also short temper and idk.
Ik there might be ppl who will get lazy to read this shit but whatever.