#hamgie

"And there you are an ocean away.

Do you have to be an ocean away?

Thoughts of you substine, then I get another letter and I cannot put the notion away."

Quick Hamgelica moodboard/aesthetic!! Kinda historical I guess, but up to interpretation.

✯┊Title: Last First Kiss

✯┊Pairings: Angelica x Alexander

✯┊Summary: Day five of Hamgelica month! Yes, I realized I missed day four I’ll probably make up the ones I miss at the end of the month :’) (Also yes this drew from @cumulowimpus  ‘s amazing 80s hamgie au)

✯┊Warnings: Literally none 

Possibly the most childish thought Angelica had, was that kissing was in all honesty kind of weird. Sure, she kissed boys before, but she still thought it was a weird thing. Maybe because the boys she had kissed previously were bad, or maybe she was bad at it. The world may never know. But that thought had immediately vanished when she kissed Alexander for the first time.

AS - Angelica Schuyler

AH - Alexander Hamilton

"This you will tell me is poetical enough. I seldom write to a lady without fancying her relation of lover and mistress. It has a very inspiring effect. And in your case the dullest materials could not help feeling that propensity." - AH to AS

"If it will give you pleasure, assure yourself that you are as much in my good graces as ever and that you must be very naughty girl indeed before you can lose the place you have in my affection." - AH to AS

"Wherever I am believe always that there is no one can pay a more sincere or affectionate tribute to your deserts than I do—Adieu ma chore" - AH to AS

"Indeed my dear, Sir - I if my path was strewed with as many roses, as you have filled your letter with compliments, I should not now lament my absence from America" - AS to AH

"But I can not, however great my hurry, resist the strong desire I feel of thankg you for your invaluable letter by the last packet. Imagine, if you are able, the pleasure it gave me. Notwithstanding the compliment you pay to my eloquence its resources could give you but a feeble image of what I should wish to convey." - AH to AS

"I confess for my own part I see one great source of happiness snatched away. My affection for Church and yourself made me anticipate much enjoyment in your friendship and neighbourhood. But an ocean is now to separate us." - AH to AS (referanced in Take a Break)

"[Eliza] consents to every thing, except that I should love you as well as herself, and this you are too reasonable to expect" - AH to AS

"There is no proof of my affection which I would not willingly give you" - AH to AS

"I cannot endure that you should be giving such folks, while I at the distance of 3000 miles can only console myself by thinking of you" - AH to AS

"me voila mon tres cher bien amer et la pauvre coeur bien effilge de vous auvoir quitte [he i am my dearest very bitter and with a heavy heart to have left you]. Remember this yourself... May god ever love and protect you, prays your ever affectionate angelica, ever, ever yours..." - AS to AH

“I am sensible how much I trouble I give you, but you will have the goodness to excuse it, when you know that it proceeded from a persuasion that I was asking from one who promised me his love and attention if I returned to America” - AS to AH

" I could not however let the Packet sail without giving you a proof, that no degree of occupation can make me forget you." - AH to AS (this one very well could be platonic, (and almost certainly is) but i like it still especially because in another letter Angie wrote "I sometimes think you have now forgot me and that having seen me is like a dream which you can scarcely believe." )

"Are you too happy to think of us? Ah petit Fripon you do not believe it:—no I am not too happy, can I be so on this side of the Atlantic? ask your heart, and read my answer there.

My silence is caused by dispair; for do not years, days and moments pass and still find me separated from those I love! yet were I in America, would ambition give an hour to Betsey and to me. Can a mind engaged by Glory taste of peace and ease?

You and Betsey in England. I have no ideas for such happiness, but when will you come and receive the tears of joy and affection?

Your devoted

Angelica." - AS to AH (I put this whole letter here, because it's so sweet but also heartbreaking, right down to the "your devoted Angelica")

Imma keep this real short because I'm lazy and it's late but most of the info is taken from "A Fatal Friendship" by Arnold Rogow (mostly the affair stuff), "War of two" by Sedgwick

Anyways, so here's the Hamgie stuff:

First off, there's quite a huge similarity between historical Lams and historical Hamgelica - mainly that Hamilton's son, omitted/crossed out many innuendos in both letters. Obviously, we can only guess what they said, but he seemed to have a knack for hiding his father's affairs lmao.

In 1789 during Angelica's return, from May to November Hamilton paid for many of the places to live for her nearby, which is very sweet of him, y'know, but not nessecarily romantic.

However, during a time in October, when Eliza was away in Albany there's a vacancy in her stay, meaning that there were no bills showing where she lived. Most historians agree on one thing - at that time Angelica stayed with Hamilton, while his wife away.

If there were ever an affair between them, it's believed that it was then. The theory is also supported by the fact that when the stay was over, their letters had a lot, and I mean A LOT of parts taken out my Alex's son (the one who was obsessed with hiding Hamilton's lovers lol)

If that wasn't enough, in that time period Hamilton was seen many times in public, with Angelica on his arm rather than Eliza.

This obviously sparked lots of gossip, many discussed that their public relationship was highly inappropriate, as well as made some late night innuendos between Hamgelica accour. Parties in this time period would go until the early morning, and Hamilton often didn't go home, rather staying in inns. We can only assume Angelica stayed with him, since it's unlikely a rich women such as herself would sleep on the street so many times, and probably stayed in Hamilton's room (since he only paid for one room, not two. Take what you want from that.)

And obviously, town rumours aren't valid sources, but Hamilton was in later life whispered to be a “double adulterer”, given the Reynolds affair.

That, along with the quite sweet and heartbreaking letter from Angie to Alex, right after she had left America to go back to her shitbag husband. (A snippet of which can be seen below)

"me voila mon tres cher bien amer et la pauvre coeur bien effilge de vous auvoir quitte [he i am, my dearest, very bitter and with a heavy heart to have left you]. Remember this yourself... May god ever love and protect you, prays your ever affectionate angelica, ever, ever yours..." - AS to AH

And that's only one of the many lovely & charming letters between Alexander to Angelica.

As some of you may have seen on my previous posts, they wrote pretty sweet stuff to each other, and although putting it all here would make it long & confusing, I'm planning on making a masterpost soon, and I'll link it here then so.

Many people are led to believe that Alexander and Angelica weren't very close in the romantic sense historically, and that Lin Manuel Miranda made it up for drama.

That is simply not true.

-Alexander Hamilton to Angelica Schuyler

-Alexander Hamilton to Angelica Schuyler