ā Ā i might as well be covered in blood or sewage, Ā the way people treat me. Ā ā Ā Ā maybe he is blood - covered,Ā the way he radiates death as if heās the Ā very sourceĀ of all of it. Ā sheās lucky,Ā he thinks -- Ā the aura is there, Ā exceptionally easy for someone like him to sense, Ā but not nearly to the degree of the fear he induces. Ā he canāt help but be Ā jealousĀ of that. Ā ostracization due to Ā stigma alone ...Ā itād be a large difference. Ā even those who Ā wantĀ to be close to him canāt seem to find the courage. Ā Ā (Ā i want you to be an exception,Ā his father told him as if he hadnāt damned his bloodline Ā )Ā Ā Ā ā Ā but itās not their fault completely, Ā and iām not going to wallow in all my stupid Ā self pity.Ā Ā and you shouldnāt be so angry about people avoiding me either --- Ā itās how it is. Ā i've gotten used to it. Ā ā Ā Ā / Ā @hamamele.
