#h;p

"Hyunnie. I know you probably aren't into the whole Valentines day thing this year. I mean, I don't remember you ever being that big about holidays. Even though I know this.. will you still be my valentine?

Actually, you have no choice. You're mine. Now sit back and relax while I give my valentines day speech.

We've been through hell and back, that's for sure. We'll most likely go through hell again at some point because that's life but.. through it all, I'll never stopped loving you. I don't believe it's possible for me to ever stop loving you. You've always had a super special place in my heart and that'll never change no matter what happens.

You're my family. An important part of my family. You, Aiden and I are family. I used to hate that word, because I hate the family I was born into, but I've learned that a family is more than who you are related to by blood. Your true family are the ones you love and care for the most and who love and care for you the most.

I love and care for you. I care about the things you're fascinated by. I care about your job, your health and wellbeing. I care about your dark thoughts, good thoughts and naughty thoughts. I'm here willing to listen, willing to take care of you. Like when you miss your mother, I will drop everything and drive your ass across the country to see her. I care about you that much. I care enough to realize you still have so many struggles you're facing and a lot of them.. you need to face alone. I also care enough to help you when you need it. To comfort you when you need it.

I've also changed for you. Not in a bad way at all, trust me. I used to be obsessed with a fake reality. The one where we get married and live happily ever after. You know, like in romance movies and novels. I wanted that with you and I chased it so hard for a while. You made me wake up and realize that it wasn't realistic.

I've changed in the sense that I don't want that fake reality anymore. I've stripped that unrealistic romanticized thought from my heart and mind and guess what's left... you. Just you and guess what else... you're all I need and want. Just you. Maybe someday we'll tie the knot but it's not a priority.

Our relationship isn't defined by a silly label. It's defined by us and what we make of it right now. Our priorities are very simple.. to love, trust, care for and listen to each other. Now that we've got a.. third (?) shot at this, I promise to do my best to make us work because...

...It's just you and I against the universe and...

I love you to the moon and back, and to infinity and beyond.

( rkhxra )

it’s been months since hailey joined royal entertainment. her stomach doesn’t turn uncomfortably every time she enters the building anymore and nor does she gets lost in the hallways as much. she’s gotten used to the routine and how things worked around that. she doesn’t feel the thrill she used to in her first months - though that doesn’t mean she became bored or unhappy. hailey is simply comfortable now, royal schedule becoming her own. even though months have passed, she still held the title of hoobae to every other trainee but now she hears that new trainees are coming and she can’t be more excited. 

some of them, she’s especially excited about. hara is one of them. she likes the younger female a lot, finding her very adorable and immediately put her under her wing when she got to know that she got a contract from royal. the trainee knows that things aren’t especially agreeable with her parents - they never were and that is something she can relate to - so despite her excitement, she feels like she’s tiptoeing around hara. she wants the other female to know that she’s there for her in case she needs anything and that she cares. but sometimes, hailey feels it’s hard. hailey herself doesn’t feel comfortable to open up about family matters - or any personal matter - so she knows where hara is coming from. 

( seulgirk ) 

hailey stands in front of the christmas tree which marks the entrance to the festival, warm cups on her hands and jaw trembling, teeth clashing together. it was already late and hailey forgot to pack an extra layer, failing to predict the cold breeze that was blowing on her face. she wishes her company for the night could make it soon, so she could finally warm herself with one of the drink she has in hands. her face is partially hidden by the scarf she’s wearing and her chin is buried on the soft fabric. she would usually stay at royal in a day like this, but she needed a distraction aside the crazy training she’s been on lately. 

the trainee offered to treat a girl and she loved the idea of the festival, so hailey just assumed it was the perfect opportunity. seulgi, as she came to know, rescued her cat from the cold streets one night and gave him back to hailey in safety. therefore, hailey can possibly never stop thanking her - and such a good feat must be rewarded. so she called the other female a few days ago and they decided to meet. the older has been spending so many extra time in royal - for no reason since she’s not participating in the gayos - that she saw no problem in cutting her instrument classes for the day. 

( rkjazzeun )

the training hours end and many trainees are ready to go home, the tiring routine weighing in their eyes as they drag their feet through the hallways of royal entertainment. there is a certain trainee, however, that doesn’t show to be as tired. well, of course she is - you can see hailey doesn’t have sleep for some time as dark circles show on her pale skin even under makeup. these days, she doesn’t have a lot of reasons to be excited or happy, but the girl is great at pretending and finding herself distractions. and since distractions were needed and even when she exhausted herself to a breaking point she could barely get an hour or two of sleep, hailey thought of investing in a project she had even before she joined royal as a trainee. 

one of her fellow trainees, who she got to know prior their contracts, helped her and inspired her. surely, hailey was never great in any manual job, but she is willing to try. and after a few tries, the girl was finally able to produce a wearable piece of clothing. she is so excited about it she could barely wait until training was over to run to jieun and show her what she made. and now, after a very quick change of clothes, she ran through the hallways, searching for the familiar face. 

hailey has her teeth digging to her lower lip. it was the last day they had some free time and those other days she hasn’t mustered the courage to step up and go to aiden’s grave. she knows she has to go, because something pushes her to do so. aiden was one of the most important people that ever crossed her path. he taught her to appreciate the little beautiful things about life and to be patient and never lose faith in herself. he also taught her heartbreak and utter despair when she saw him losing himself and there was nothing she could do to pull him from his addictions. 

she rarely talked about him. partially because she still felt the pain of the lost and partially because she still felt guilty over her inability to help him when aiden helped her so much through her struggles. but being in la, it was almost impossible not to talk about him - not to think about him - when a lot of places and streets were stained with his memory. she wishes she could visit her mother-in-law but there was no time for such thing. instead, hailey agreed with herself to visit aiden at least - even if that meant mentioning him to her senior.