Jan 14, 2018
“learn to drive!”
“get a job and an education!”
“lose some weight!”Â
“get some help!”
my broke dysfunctional ass:
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“learn to drive!”
“get a job and an education!”
“lose some weight!”Â
“get some help!”
my broke dysfunctional ass:
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older neurotypical adult: don’t worry, x will go away when you’re older.
me: sure, jan
older neurotypical adult: hey why don’t you believe me? that hurts! I was just trying to help. :(
me: I know you were but almost none of the things my elders said would go away when I got older actually went away. I’m 22 and I’m still fat, still depressed, still autistic, still have low self esteem, and still can’t function worth a penny.
me: And because I believed them, I was hopeful that it all would go away and the the ugly duckling would turn gracefully into a swan and I would be happily accepted in society.
me: But no. I’m still the ugly duckling as I was in my childhood and for years, I hated myself for not being able to become a swan. I’ve only just now begun to accept myself and society and even my own family hates me for it.
me: Now I would’ve been fine with “x will go away as you get older, but if it doesn’t, it’s okay.” Because at least then I wouldn’t be stuck with as much self loathing as I had to suffer and still do.
me: I’m sorry you’re hurt that I don’t believe what you say, but it’s believing statements like this that partially caused me to hate myself in the first place and I just can’t let myself fall into that trap again.
#growingupdysfunctional
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Being told you’re not trying for years bc of bad grades thanks to executive dysfunction.
#growingupdysfunctional
Mom tells you to brush your teeth and you just. Can’t. Do. It.
#growingupdysfunctional
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