#grimbound

they are not exactly lost, at least that's what eunwoo would like to think, but there aren't exactly that many people she can even hear at this point to be considered at a safe place. yet, she isn't exactly bothered by it. lucas is great company, he has proved it many a times and she has reached out to him on numerous occasions. it only seemed that their sensors for each other were getting just that good, because she is still impressed he managed to find her while she was mildly moping around near the lake. she was there because.

1. she wanted some peace and quiet 2. it was one of the few open spaces where she could watch the stars

it just so happened that she was moping around, quiet and dark, just enough to keep her away from any crowds, yet, lucas somehow finds her. 

"you put a tracker on me or what?" were her first words as soon as she clocked it was lucas that had found his way to her. but anyway, that was how they ended up keeping each other company.

to an extent, eunwoo thinks its scary how much her and lucas's moods overlap ever since they met. its like the universe had a mind of its own and decided it was for the best to always keep them together whenever something in their life goes so messed up. they end up in the same place, regularly. it started with eunwoo apparently taking up his space, the publicly available staircase behind the library that no one ever used because it looked dodgy and gloomy, but after months of catching one another in not so pleasant mindsets, sharing one too many cigarettes, things shifted.

it is a regular occurrence nowadays, to meet up there, arranged or not. lucas brings the cigarettes and food, eunwoo brings the lighter and drinks. she's come to like his company. the honestly and rough round the edges talks they have had over the months this has been going on. it's lifted a weight off her shoulders that, funny enough, she isn't alone in some of the ways she feels. its nice to have a shoulder to lean on and provide one in return. and yes, lucas has seen her through some of her rougher patches, a lot of the good ones as well. though, she doesn't think he has ever seen her like this.

she's not exactly running late, though she knows lucas would be at their spot, for a while now, food probably getting cold. not ideal when she was the one that actually messaged him, asking if he was free for their usual get-together, but it took her great strength to actually get out of bed and out of her room. she's tried to make herself look presentable, pjs forgotten the first time in a few days, she's actually dressed up appropriate for the weather - shorts and a tank top, because despite the chosen hour to meet up being late in the afternoon, the summer heat never fully left. 

eunwoo rocks up, dark circles and blood shot eyes, maybe a bit worse than usual, she was hungover just yesterday, but the bag of sojus and beers is jingling softly as she makes her way down the steps towards lucas. nothing entirely new in that regard. her hair however, short, a bob barely getting past her chin and not ideally cut. not that people could tell, it wasn't styled so it looked fine, but a stark difference to her usual long hair she had just a handful of days ago. then again, she felt fine a handful of days ago. 

the decision to break up with lucas was easy. and maybe that’s one of the things seoyun regrets; the fact that it’s easy for her to leave.

lucas is nice. a little bit mischievous, but he’s nice. he remembers her order at sweet corn without fail, he listens to her when she talks, he is all around a good and nice boyfriend.

but it feels too familiar in a way that makes her stomach hurt. she was already a difficult woman, shouldn’t she just be happy that he likes her? isn’t that enough?

so breaking up with him was easy. sad, but easy. the relationship was only meant to be two weeks long anyway, just something small for the sake of healing her own ego.

what she didn’t expect was him to get attached. for him to hold onto her when she hugged him one last time, and for her to have to be the one to gently push him away when the hug lasted one second too long.

in a moment where she’s not sure if it was self-hatred or just pity towards lucas speaking through her, her last words to him were “you’ll get over me.”

and now seoyun finds herself in sweet corn, waiting on her order and trying her hardest to ignore that her ex-boyfriend of two weeks is only a few feet away. the relationship had been over for a few months now, but she didn’t exactly know how to approach him after all of that (if she even should.) she was lucky enough that they never had to interact regularly with their wildly differing majors and clubs in the first place.

but with the crowd of fellow students waiting on their orders, she has to make move over and make space for other people to grab their drinks… which leads her even closer to lucas. they’re basically standing shoulder to shoulder now.