I've never been good with my judgements. I'm indecisive as fuck and I look back and regret almost half of all the decisions I made. Something always makes me feel there must be something, somewhere, or someone, that is better. Whether it's about what shirt to buy, what food to eat, where to go or whom to be with. I'm not sure whether it's the 'what if's' that's holding me back, or the desire for something better. See, I can't even decide on what to blame.

The thing is, I try to find the logic in everything. Which almost always leads to my illogical decisions and regret. A game of push and pull, looking for adventure but being scared of the unknown. But growing up, I realized I won't be able to discover what my heart truly desire unless I look for it. Good thing you found me, trying to let my toes kiss the seemingly harsh waves of the ocean while I'm safely standing at bay. You held my hand and ran with me and I let go of all the worries. I wonder how you did it but it doesn't matter now. I just want you to know, and you deserve to know, that you won the tug of war, by pulling my rope of do's and don'ts from the middle, gaining balance and control over me.