Early Established Relationship Shouta & Reader, but they havenāt talked about having kids yet and Reader just found out sheās pregnant. Sheās worked herself up in anxiety over how Shouta will take it. This is not helped by him coming home from teaching, having had a hellish day and grumbling about āproblem childrenā and thankful that he only has to deal with kids for a few hours.
Hearing that, Reader just⦠hides everything. Thereās ice in her chest as she tidies up the bathroom, takes out the trash, washes up to start on dinner just. Mind blank, but her usual smile on her face (well honed practice from years of mistreatment due to having an āunacceptableā quirk) as she tells him to go clean up. Sheāll make a fast dinner so he can sleep and then wake him later for patrol. Heās too tired to notice anything off, thanks her with a loving smile, the soft ones only she gets, as he goes and showers, changes for a meal and a nap with his favourite girl.
And thatās how it goes. Day in, day out, feeling sick is just a bug, just extreme reaction to allergies, just bad food, etc. She kind of disassociates a lot, mind unable to process as somewhere in there sheās coming up with a plan. Obviously he wonāt want to be with her, right? She should cherish these days before she starts to show. So she does.
For about two days, no matter what he says about kids heās run into or his class ā though a small voice tries to remind her that Shouta is excellent with kids, even the ones that act out and he doesnāt hate them no matter what he acts like, she knows this, but itās drowned out by the words sheās heard him say while tired and grumpy ā she cherishes the fuck out of spending more time with him. A little needy, maybe a lot, but she loves him with everything she has to give. Everything but what she keeps held back for their her child.
And then one morning Reader wakes up, showers and notices a slight bump that she knows wonāt be going down. Thereās ice in her chest again, but she canāt have the same reaction as last time. It wonāt be good for the baby, especially if she disassociates. So she plans out her week carefully; makes a grocery list so she can make all of his favourites, makes a list of what she needs to stock up on for herself, what she can pack quickly and sensibly, looks up apartment listings so Shouta wonāt feel caged or that he has to leave because itās his apartment after all, budgets her upcoming checks and what she has in her accounts.
But she gets careless, tires out far too early, doesnāt even make it to lunch, and leaves an apartment listing ad and pregnancy clinic check-up assessment on the table as she unintentionally drifts off on the couch. (Her iron levels are a little on the low side.) On the schoolās half-day, where Shouta only needed to go in for meetings and would be back by lunch. Her stealthy as fuck boyfriend, who she never hears come in, but certainly sees her wearing one of his shirts and having fallen asleep in the middle ofā¦..something. It doesnāt look like one of the analysis notebooks she uses for her freelance job as an analyst. Huh.
Heās curious, nosy maybe, but thatās a hero trait. You wouldāve made good hero, if everyone hadnāt made it nigh impossible for you before you broke away from your past and headfirst into analysis. You arenāt bitter, but he can be so enough for both of you. You deserve the best, in his eyes, but heās selfish so heās going to keep you for himself. Now if he just steps closer to get a look at whatās on the tableā¦..
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Hey so I made myself go full on fucking ugly crying and decided to share for anyoneās thoughts or added writing contributions. :D
All I can think of to add is that:
Shouta is not letting Reader get away from him, from this misunderstanding no matter how he has to do it. (Heāll probably start by shredding that apartment add with his bare hands, though.)
Shouta feels like the biggest fucking idiot for missing all the signs and not taking better care of you like you deserved, kid or no kid behind it all. (TBH youāve been carrying their family ā not that either of you have said it but thatās what you have ā since you moved in. If it was left up to him the entire building wouldāve somehow collapsed.)
Heās gonna add some more bitterness to the āmy girlfriend couldāve been a heroine but people are assholesā fund because she managed to hide a whole ass pregnancy from him completely for who knows how long while other Pros canāt even hide their favourite colours. (Most canāt even hide their lack of genuine civilian safety oriented tactical knowledge, which is just sad, in his opinion. Then again, he is very judgmental of other heroes abilities.)
He may or may not quickly realize why Reader hid the news. And may or may not feel even worse. Because having a kid with you? Thatās a dream he didnāt want to let himself have, not yet. Not until after he proposed and settled into his teaching job more, at least. (Better find a ring soon. Even if itās a Studio Ghibliās Catbus themed one ā itāll do.)
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Oh God. Oh God, wait. Option 2 though, right? My brain wants more angst, go figure.
Ahahah this gets a little sad, sorry. But my contribution is under the cut ā¤ļøāš©¹
Warnings: panic attack, mental breakdown, pregnancy, medical















