#gon explode

yk, I was feeling better after talking abt things that have been bothering me, but then my mom just. aughghghhghghdhsj

me, going up to her trying to get her attention for a joke

she suddenly puts her hand on my shoulder to put on her s l i p - o n sandals (I nudge her hand off)

I give her a look

suddenly, she : "yknow, I have a feeling that if my life was in your hands, id die."

uh. yeah. no shiz. I am your youngest disabled child. what would I possibly do. (I didnt say that, but. ehh)

she: "you cant just be mean to someone then get mad at them for being rude. thats not how the world works." (many people would disagree, I think)

well. cool, fun. amazing. im gonna go stare at old positive reaffirmations from my moots now