#gogotea

Just what is living? is the 23rd seed while Honey Diary is the 42nd seed.

I feel now, I can say!

Today's featured song is: "Escape" by Gogotea feat. Lily!

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「明日なんて来なけりゃいい」とひとりごちて 静寂と虚しさの群れに喰らわれる毎夜 三弦が切れたギターとペン　悴んだ手 微かな電球の灯りだけが　唯一の温みだ Thinking to myself “I hope that tomorrow never comes,” every night I am engulfed by a cloud of silence and emptiness. Alongside a guitar with three broken strings and a pen, with hands growing numb from the cold, the light from a dim bulb is my only source of warmth. 昔つるんでいた後輩のあいつは 家を建てて子供も産まれたってさ 墓石と酷いにおいの六畳間 売れない音楽の腐乱死体に足を取られた未来 I heard that the underclassman I used to hang out with has built a house and had a kid. In this six tatami mat room with a tombstone and a terrible odor, my future is tripped up by the rotting corpse that is my unsold music. 僕らは人生の落第者 後悔ばっか上手になる日々だ もう死ぬか　軒先の椿も直に散るから 寸暇も惜しんで綴るこの歌に 惰眠以上の価値はないだろうな　その対価が今か We are life’s flunkees, getting better and better at living each day with nothing but regret. Will I die soon? The camellias on the eaves out front are going to fall before long, too. This song I composed without sparing so much as a minute for anything else probably isn’t worth any more than idle consideration. Is that all it’s good for right now? 夜の星がうざかった そう思うのはきっと僕が汚れすぎたからだ The stars at night were irritating. Surely I thought that way because I had been sullied too much. 「眠るのだって怖いんだよ」とツレに言うと　 怪訝な顔をしやがったから酒を傾けた 帰りの駅　ロータリー前で歌うバンドマン 客も金もからっきしではあるが眩しくてしょうがない “I’m too scared to sleep,” I told my companion. But they made such a disbelieving expression, I turned to the alcohol instead. The band member that sings in front of the traffic circle near the train station on my way home has clients and cash aplenty, but they’re so brilliant, there’s nothing for it. 終電を待つホームで派手に吐いて 通りかかるやつらの視線が超いてぇ そりゃそうか　昔から変わんねぇや 夢に敗れて腐ったやつに延べられる手はない The looks I get from the people that loudly exclaim as they pass by while I wait on the platform for the last train are super painful. Isn’t that right? Nothing’s changed at all. No one extends a hand to rotten people who failed to achieve their dreams. 最低な人生でありました 自前の絞首台に吊るすアニマ もう止めだ　醜い翼でも足掻いた夜鷹 こんな暗い歌じゃ誰一人救えやしねぇもんな もうだめだ　凡庸な僕らは It was the worst possible life. This anima¹ of hanging yourself at the gallows of your own efforts-- just stop it already. Though its wings were ugly, the nightjar struggled. This gloomy song can’t save so much as a single person. There’s no hope for the mediocre us. 今がこうも辛いなんて そう思うのは僕が僕を過信してたからだ Living like this is so painful-- I thought that way because I was overestimating myself. 非凡なやつの足蹴にされ　泥水啜ってベソかいて 自嘲、自傷にも慣れちまったよ だけど僕はいつか見返したいよ かっこつけてももう遅ぇよ　 白けた面した満月に吠えろ 希望に満ちた言葉は今更出てこないけど それが自ずと歌になる Being pushed around by extraordinary people, my head down in the mud, on the verge of tears, I’ve become accustomed to even self-deprecation and self harm. But someday, I want to be the one to look down on them. It’s too late to put up a good front. Howl underneath the whitening surface of the full moon. Words full of hope won’t come forth anymore, but that in itself becomes a song. 人生の道半ば 後悔だって生きた証明だ まだ死ぬな　正しくあろうとして無茶をするな でも向き合わなくちゃな もう選択の余地もないもんな Throughout life, you may have regrets, but they’re proof that you’re alive. Don’t die yet. Don’t push yourself too hard trying to do what’s right. But we have to face them. There’s no room to choose anymore. さぁ歌え　人生の落第者 負け犬にお似合いの遠吠えだ なぁ誰か　これが聴こえていたら応答願う こんな暗い歌で誰かしら救えると言うのなら それだけの為に生きたいや Now, sing, all you life’s flunkees! It’s a howling well-suited to us kicked puppies.² Hey, somebody, if you can hear this, please respond! If this gloomy song might save someone, then for that alone, I want to live. 「夜の星が綺麗だ」って そうは歌えない僕らも悪くはないかもな “The stars at night are so beautiful” For we who can’t sing, they might not be so bad. ¹This word is literally “anima,” but in this song it probably refers to “soul” or “spirit.” I also can’t help but wonder if it's intentionally “mania” spelled backwards in katakana. ² 負け犬 means “loser,” but its literal meaning is something like “dog that lost a fight.” The word “howling” was used in reference to this meaning, so I used “kicked puppies” in an effort to preserve this connection.

Talent, or anything like that is the 27th seed while Kanden Sasechau zo is the 38th seed.

Beast Dance is the 2nd seed while Comparison Syndrome is the 10th seed.