Almost A Fairy tale
*Insert “White Horse” by Taylor Swift*
“I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale”
Like what the lyrics say, I’m not a princess and I’ll never experience having a Prince Charming because I’m not Cinderella. I will never have a Prince Florian because I’m not Snow White. And lastly, I will never have a brave,loyal, and kind Prince Philip because I’m not Princess Aurora. This ain’t fiction. This is a real world.
I once dreamed to have my own Prince Charming... SOON. But I didn’t expect he arrived so  early. But, hey! It’s just a puppy love. Is it? Nope. ALMOST.
I once met this boy named “Mel” (not his real name, actually). He’s known for his incredible moves when he dances, talented fingers when he plays piano, God-fearing personality, and his looks. He adores Trevor Wesley’s songs so much and loves to watch “Naruto”. He also has a brain. LOL. Of course that’s the first thing I will make sure my crush should have. Me? Just a typical high school girl who loves to read books and also has a brain. LOL. He’s popular and I’m not. He’s known by everybody in our school and I’m just like a normal student. But one day, everything changed. This popular boy met this very demure,modest, “Maria Clara” girl.
Mel and I became friends and I won’t deny that we want to be more than that...SOON. He’s also the first boy I’ve entertained. He liked me and I liked him too. Remember, “LIKE”. I still don’t want to go beyond that situation and that’s the reason why my friends call me “Maria Clara”. Not showing too much feelings. Though I’m showing it, but just secretly. The fact that we’re still in high school and still doesn’t have a stable job to fulfill our needs, it’s not good for us to be in a relationship. And also I came from a very strict family. We’re not suppose to have a boyfriend/girlfriend unless we now have our jobs or when we’re now 26 above in age. It’s enough for me that he’s acting like my inspiration in my studies.
Being old school never go out of style. For me, I prefer letters than gifts. I like to experience “Harana” than having sweet messages. I want actions than flowery words. And of course, courting should done for years not just days. Not through cellphone but personally. Though we didn’t think about that because we’re still young and its really creeping me out whenever I hear that thing. It’s like “courting” is not yet in my vocabulary.
For me, it’s really important to wait. It shows how serious you are to have that thing. You want to wait for it because you’re really into it. For you, that thing really worth the wait. Same as I. I wanted him to wait for me until we finish college and have a stable job but it didn’t go as what I wanted it to be. Maybe because we’re still stuck in being “friends” even though we’ve been years being in a “We like each other but we’re not suppose to go beyond this” situation. Of course because education is more valuable than that thing. But I didn’t expect he will get tired. He likes someone now and it’s not me. It’s someone else.
I always asking myself, “Am I not worth the wait?” and of course I always answer myself, “No, maybe he just don’t deserve me because I’m too good for him.” (SELF-COMFORT) The thought that he doesn’t want to wait for me anymore is not my fault. He’s just pursuing me. We’re still in high school. I shouldn’t think about that. (SELF COMFORT AGAIN) It’s just all depends to the man if he will be accepted by the girl. The only thing we, girls want is the boys’ patience. So, when he gave up on me, I didn’t care that much. But of course, I won’t say I didn’t get hurt at all.
Now, we’re doing great. I severed our ties. Ironic? Let me, please. I just don’t like to have a connection to him anymore. It’s enough. I’ve been hurt too much. Though I didn’t care much about our “more than friends” feeling last time because we’re not suppose to give it an attention unless the right time comes, as a girl, it really hurts. He WAS always at my side. He always makes me feel happy. It’s like “Tinaas niya ako ng sobra tapos bigla nalang iniwan sa ere” feeling. He ALMOST became my puppy love. He ALMOST became my Prince Charming I’ve once dreamed. I ALMOST gave my heart. It was ALMOST a fairy tale.
But, yeah. Just because we don’t know our destination, it doesn’t mean we should stop moving forward. Move on. We still have many things to do in our life. It’s just a memory of my 2017. Another year is about to come. I’m just 15, it’s okay to be hurt.
