#godlight

“To know me is to hate me, is to hate what I've become. It's to watch me as I'm falling from that ladder's last rung. It's to feel bad, like a secret you can't keep in. I'm not the way I was.”

2. Let Down

“Such a pretty house and such a pretty garden. No alarms and no surprises (get me out of here).”

You can find the masterlist to this ongoing series here. Also, PLEASE ignore that I said Central 2 and then Central 1. Didn’t realize till after I posted it and I will not be editing it out, thank you 🙂‍↔️

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If anyone is in the same delusional boat, I might actually write this with more detail 🫡

There’s no way out of an angry crowd

Without steppin’ on some toes

They’ll scream your name ‘til the lights go out

Then they’ll feed you to the wolves

It’s hard to say who you’ll be

When they let those big red curtains close

You know this ‘cause you told me so

Ryland Grace writing a paper and making a comment that got him kicked out of the science society, without being able to go back into the field he worked so hard to be in

What is he supposed to do now?

I bet you forgot, black heels in the summertime

Dad’s bad cookin’, though you’d be polite

Honey, now you got a look that I don’t recognize

You pulled me aside and you said

Forgetting his potential in the process of becoming something new

“To know me is to hate me

Ryland Grace that stands by what he wrote

Is to hate what I’ve become

Ryland Grace, who now teaches at a school

It’s to watch me as I’m fallin’

From that ladder’s last rung

Going from everything to nothing

It’s to feel bad, like a secret you can’t keep in

I’m not the way I was

I’m not the way I was”

Ryland Grace Scientist vs Ryland Grace Teacher

Were you freed within? Did you leave your skin?

Are you tethered in your doubt?

Have you breathed it in ‘til it’s medicine

That you cannot live without?

Standing by what he wrote, but that being the same thing that stripped him of everything he once was, and now having to get used to the reality of what he now is, just a Teacher

‘Cause you came back home a fuckin’ alien

And we’re stuck here on the ground

Call your mom back, kid, before the high comes down

Ryland Grace falling in love with teaching and trying to be the best of the best for his students

‘Cause you forgot, black heels in the summertime

Dirt road, smoking on a Friday night

Honey, now you got a look that I don’t recognize

You pulled me aside and you said

Feeling secure in the normalcy that has slowly built around him only to be opened by Stratt letting him be a scientist again. Watching a glipse of what he used to be

“To know me is to hate me

Ryland Grace, who loves teaching kids

Is to hate what I’ve become

Ryland Grace going back to being a scientist

It’s to watch me as I’m fallin’

From that ladder’s last rung

Going from what became everything to something that became nothing

It’s to feel bad, like a secret you can’t keep in

I’m not the way I was

I’m not the way I was”

Ryland Grace Teacher vs Ryland Grace Scientist

But to feel it, to see it

Going back to the confidence of knowing he is good at what he is

The look in all their eyes

Is to breathe in, to be in

The good grace of that godlight

His kids, what he wants to figure everything out for

It’s to have it in your hands

The one thing you wanted all your life

It’s all mine

Being something small inside something big that will make a difference

It’s a hole I can’t fill

It’s a curse I can’t break

Having the knowledge he has when everything goes wrong, and they lose the people for the mission

And I gave my soul to it

And I cannot be reclaimed

I was younger then

I was younger then

I was young

Ryland Grace being forced to go on a mission he doesn’t want to go on

To know me is to hate me

Ryland Grace, who didn’t want to be part of the mission

Is to hate what I’ve become

Dr. Grace, who doesn’t remember anything

It’s to watch me as I’m fallin’

From that ladder’s last rung

Being Earth’s last saving grace (everything) while just wanting to go back home (nothing)

It’s to feel bad, like a secret you can’t keep in

I’m not the way I was

I’m not the way I was

Ryland Grace, who died on Earth so Dr. Grace could live in Space.

But to feel it, to see it

The look in all their eyes

Meeting rocky and having the same mission, not being alone

Is to breathe in, to be in

The good grace of that godlight

It’s to have it in your hands

The one thing you wanted all your life

It’s all mine

Completing the mission together with Rocky, having a chance to go back home

And to feel it, to see it

The look in all your eyes

Having to choose between Earth (no longer anything) and Rocky (everything)

Is to breathe in, to be in

The good grace of this godlight

Sending everything back to Earth, but not going along and hoping he will make it to Rocky and Rocky will be fine

It’s to have it in your hands

It’s the one thing I wanted all my life

Reuniting with Rocky

It’s all mine

Silver Sleeper

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When Remus walks in, James greets him with congratulations. “We’re not getting a repeat of last year, right Lupin?”

“Of course, we will” Remus grins at him, after taking a sip of water which makes Sirius swallow heavily while he watches the two talk. Post-race Remus Lupin is a problem for Sirius. All sweaty, the lines of his balaclava still on his cheeks and the expression of victory on his face. He takes another sip and when he licks his lip, lingering on the lip ring for a little longer than necessary, Sirius has to look away before he starts drooling.

Fic: Godlight - @badhairred 🧡

Yea … let’s just say that because of my dearest friend (who wrote this fic) i am insanely obsessed with F1 again … which I am more than happy about tbf

And the most amazing part is that I get to create something for my friend INCLUDING F1 and the Marauders … if thats not a win i don’t know what is 🫡

… I am pretty happy about the results and based on my friends reaction…. the drawing was approved hahah

I also thought about opening a Patreon or Etsy… but are people interested in it? …. If you’ve been reading until now: (thanks first of all)