Tw: SA mentions, nudity, and technically a vent/rant, and slight eyestrain art
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I haven't wanted to say anything for so long. But I just. I can't. Everything. There are so many content creators that have been called out as groomers, abusers, etc. To think anyone I know, or myself, could have been that person.
Now, getting personal here, as someone who was abused, and so close to getting past the sa line, I feel so bad for the people that went through that. I'm proud of each and every person that has been brave enough to say something.. And if you're someone who's been through situations like that, or worse, I'm so sorry. Genuinely, I am. That's not something anyone should go through at all.
.. Before I continue to rant, there was some art I made, just as a vent thing, I don't make this kind of art often, but I'm somewhat proud of it, due to more "realistic" aspects of it
This was made because of events I said and my next rant. I would also like to say, this is my persona, not any fictional character.
As another heads up, I will be going into personal stuff here, so please. Just be nice abt it.
Everyone says to be yourself. Except for some. Because if you're gay, you're delusional. Insane. "Just haven't found the right person".. And if you're trans? No one will see you for who you are. They see you for your body. Even worse if you're a woman.
Being a Trans male.. It sucks. Because I have such a feminine body. There's no way for me to look like a guy unless I spend thousands of dollars. Even then? I wear make-up, my face and body type are that of a woman.
And being afab sucks! Because all people see are just your parts. Yes, I know not everyone, but specific people. And those specific people.. Was one I grew up with. The moment I became a teen and had a female body? It's like I wasn't even a kid to that man anymore. He used me as something he could mess around with. Did he actually do anything past sa? No. But it was damn close. What he did is not something a 15 year old should be seeing from an adult.
All of that, being trans, and gay? I feel like I'm not safe at all. On top of! Being a system. Do I have D.I.D? Nope. Osdd1b. Is it professionally diagnosed? No. Which gives so many people a reason to come after us, fake claim us, call us insane. And you know what? I might be insane, but oh well.
God I had no specific point with this rant, but there's so many things going on in the world, where I live, that I just can't. The YouTubers, the election in the us. And just so much..
If you did read all of this rambling, I appreciate it, thank you /gen
