On the one hand, it’s making me tear up because Sugimoto’s main issue is that war changed him so much that he couldn’t go back home because he thought Umeko wouldn’t recognize him. So yeah Asirpa is like a light to him...

However, on the other hand... damn, this is just not something that Asirpa should have heard or that Sugimoto should be pushing onto her shoulders anyway. ://

Besides, it sounds so purely selfish: it’s not about Asirpa having blood on her hands and this traumatizing her or going against her wish never to kill, it’s because it’s helping him feel “saved”. So he’s just on the same level as Ogata wanting Asirpa to kill him just to prove that she was no better than him...

...except that Sugimoto is the one who wants her to remain “pure”, not for her sake but for his. 

Poor Asirpa... This little girl has been living for idk how many months pursued by grown-up men who want to use her to get their hands on huge piles of gold, mostly for war’s sake. So, to most of the cast, she’s a way to money and war, a reason why men are ready to kill each other. 

And now her partner, the one person she’s hoping doesn’t see her only as a way to the gold, the man she kinda has a crush on is making it about him, not about her. :///

Seriously, when is the last time we have seen Asirpa looking happy or relieved, when is the last time she said “hinna” or acted like the child she’s supposed to be?