#girlfirnd

She feels how i felt when i was thirteen

A hunger for knife with bleeding back

And i imagine throwing daggers beside her

To kill to protect, breath, to kill to protect

Sitting on my knees my hand clasped

All my sins forgiven before i dip in ganges

All my chin slick when i drink her rivers

Told her to run, instead she held my hand

I promised her some solid gold

And if i cant keep the promise 

I'll rot six feet under to make up with my bones

When I tell you he knew what he was doing

A laugh as the ocean enveloped him 

No regret, just love for something so bright

Fuck icarus, take my name

The sourest fruit of eden and I will

Take a hundred punishments to have her

Sunlight and Take me to church 

He is the witness of my yearning

A house set on fire and im burning

Inhales the smoke if she loves grey

Drown in water if she loves blue

Jump in poison if she loves green

I will become love if she loves red. 

Saturn.

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i didnt want to study so i wrote an edgy poem for my girlfriend heh

*time skip to pops*

Bee, vee and Archie were all waiting for you outside of pops. You ran up and hugged them, you had a huge smile on your face. Untill you walked in. You saw your enemy Jughead. You never knew why he hated you so much. And because you are an overthinker, you always thought you have done something wrong. But you never wanted to ask him because you didn't want him to be rude to you.

"come on Y/N let's go sit down" Betty said.

"ok" you said not smile but not frowning either.

"Y/N? Is that really you?" Pop said, as he came to take your order.

"yeah, it's me! It's good to see you pop!" You say happily.

Jughead heard pop say your name, so he looked up to see you sitting with everyone. He stared for a minute before scuffing to himself, and rolling his eyes.

*time skip to your first day of school*

You weren't exited for today, because you have anxiety, and hate being in big crowds of people. Bee and vee were waiting for you by the doors, to walk you to your locker. You got to your locker, and started to put your things in it. Not long after jughead came to his locker to grab something.

"oh hell no" he said under his breath.

You turn around to see jughead looking at you with anger in his eyes. You knew very clearly what it looked like to have someone have anger in their eyes, because of your dad. In a way having jughead look at you angrily scared you, because you didn't want to get hurt.

"O-oh, I'm sorry, I'm in your way aren't I" you ask with a lump in your throat because you're afraid one, he'll humiliate you infront of everybody, or two he'll hurt you.

"Yeah, you are, now move before I move you myself. Hell, just leave the school no one wants you here anyways" he said moving slightly closer to you.

You now had water in your eyes, because when he said 'move before I move you myself' it scared you, you were so sure he was going to hurt you. He looked into your eyes noticing them water, and he could tell you were genuinely scared.

"i-I'm sorry..." You said moving out of the way. You go to the library to try to breathe and calm yourself down. As you left jughead had a bit of confusion and concern on his face.

"hey, why did y/n get so scared of me when I was just messing around... You know, like we always did..?" Jughead went to ask Archie.

"What exactly did you say to her...?" Archie asked cautiously.

"all I said was 'move before I move you myself'..."

Archies eyes got all wide, and ran to find you, because he knew about what happened to you and you're father. Jughead was left standing there wondering what he could have done. He didn't know exactly what he did, but at this point he knew he did something wrong.

Jughead went to follow Archie, as he went to go look for you. Archie eventually found you pacing around the library trying to control your breathing.

"Y/N I'm so sorry, it's ok, your going to be ok" Archie says. As he goes to put his hands on your shoulder to stop you from pacing, you flinch.

"slow down, I'm not going to hurt you, it's ok, just breath" he says pulling you in for a tight hug.

Jughead just stands there watching as you break down in Archie arms. *I did this to her. I am such a bad person* jughead keeps telling himself. He didn't like seeing anyone upset, let alone caused by him. Jughead hits the door frame and storms down the hall. He can't stop repeating bad things in his head.

You hear that jughead hit the door frame. You panic knowing your enemy just saw you in this bad of a state. You can only assume what kind of rumors he's going to spread. You begin to cry harder now, because you think you are going to get humiliated because of jughead.

Jughead's POV

I can't stop thinking about what I've don't to y/n I mean yeah I don't like her, but I didn't mean to upset her. I was only really just trying to mess around. We used to do that to each other before she left.

"hey... Uh Betty.... Is there something I don't know about y/n..." I ask Betty because I'm really concerned now.

"wh-what do you mean..." She asked as if she's trying to hide something.

" I was only trying to mess around with y/n, and then she got like a fear in her eyes, and they started to water. She stuttered and walked away with hitched breathing. I told Archie and he immediately ran to go check on y/n. I followed him and saw her crying, and she couldn't breathe. I left because I couldn't stand to see her that upset... because of me" jughead said with a really concerned voice.

"what exactly did you say to her...?"

"move before I move you myself..."

Betty's eyes shot up to look at me, in kind of a disappointed/worried look.

"she's going to hate me for telling you but-"

She was cut off by the school bell.

"I'm sorry I have to get to class, I'll tell you later..." She said walking off.

Back to 3rd person POV

While jughead was in class, he couldn't stop thinking about what happened. You arrive to the class jughead was in. The only seat that was available was one that was right next to jughead. You let out a sigh and go sit down. You begin to bounce your leg because you are anxious. Jughead noticed and he feels bad. He doesn't want to touch you because he doesn't want to scare you.

"we have a new student today, why don't you come up here and tells us about yourself?" The teacher says to you.

Everyone turns to look at you. This sends you straight back to a panic. You are now breathing heavily. The only thing you could think about is what your father has done to you. and you hated talking in front of people. You see people whispering, and you know it's about you. You begin to get shaky. You look around the room with water in your eyes. Jughead sees. You get up and leave the classroom trying to make it to the bathroom to calm down. But your panic attack has gotten too bad. You end up falling on the floor because you are too shaky to walk. Back with jughead he sees you leave, and he knew you were having a panic attack. He knows how to help someone calm down, so without thinking, he goes and follows you.

Since you fell in the floor you kicked yourself up against the locker, your knees to your chest crying, shaking, unable to breathe. You feel a hand on your shoulder.

Jughead finds you and places a hand on your shoulder.

"hey, hey, hey, shhhh, it's going to be ok. I got you, I won't hurt you. Listen to my breathing" he says pulling you into a very tight hug.

It was surprisingly comforting. You forgot about what happened earlier. So you just stayed in his grasp. You finally begin to calm down. Your breathing is back to normal but you are still shaking, and crying.

"wh- why are y- you helping m-me...?" You ask as you remember what happened earlier.

"y/n listen, I'm sorry about what happened earlier, I didn't mean to upset you. I was just messing around with you. I didn't mean it... Can you tell me what's going on please...?" He asked genuinely concerned.

"I- I just have social anxiety, I hate talking in front of people" you say trying to avoid his real question.

"y/n you know what I mean... Why did what I said effect you so strongly...?"

You get a flash back.

If you ever tell anyone what is done to you, I will kill you. Better yet, I'll tie you up, stop feeding you, and watch you suffer, a slow agonizing death.

Out of flash back

"i- I can't, I'm sorry. But... How do you know how to deal with panic attacks so we'll...?" You say trying to get to a new subject.

He just stairs at you for a second. "... Well, my mom and dad would get in huge fights. And my little sister Hates yelling, so she would come to me having panic attacks. So I would help her, I'd put in music on headphones, as high as it could go, lock the door, and rub her back, letting her know everything was going to be ok... That's if I wasn't involved in the argument"

You just look at him, now feeling bad for him and his sister. "How- how often is this...?" You as now worried for him and his sister.

"... usually on a daily basis... But don't worry about that, it's ok, I know how to deal with it. I promise. But should we get back to class? Are you ok to go back?" He asked in a soft tone.

You sniffle "I'm sorry that happens to you, but yes let's get to class"

You guys both head back to class. (You aren't crying or shaking anymore)

TIME SKIP TO AFTER SCHOOL

You were sitting on the bleachers outside crying looking at a necklace your mom gave you before she passed away. Jughead come up slowly once he saw you crying.

"hey... Y/n..." Jughead asked cautiously.

You quickly wipe your tears, hide the necklace and look over at jughead.

"y- yeah, I'm in your way again I'm sorry, I'll leave" you say grabbing your stuff to leave.

"hey, woah, no, stay your ok. What was that, that you were holding?" he asked with a slight smile.

"oh uhm, its- it's a necklace my mom gave me..." You said tearing up again.

"oh that's cool! Uhm I know we didn't have the best of time meeting again earlier, but, if you want to, you can come back to my place...?" Jughead asked. You would have expected his offer, but just then you remember you are supposed to be home by a certain time. If you weren't, your dad was going to beat the shit out of you.

"I'm so sorry jughead, I would, but I seriously have to get going!" You say nearly running after grabbing your stuff.

Leaving jughead just watching you leave. He knew this time he didn't say anything wrong, so he didn't know why you just ran off like that. So he decided to just go home.

Time Skip To When You Get Home

You are walking up the stairs of the run down trailer you live in. You hesitate to open the door, because you know what's going to happen. You open the door, and immediately see at least 5 bottles of alcohol just sitting around. You knew it was going to be a long night.

"HEY, YOUR LATE, AGAIN, YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS YOU BRAT! GET OVER HERE!" he screams slurring over his words because he is drunk out of his mind. You walk over there looking down.

"HEY LOOK AT ME WHEN IM SPEAKING TO YOU, YOU FUCKER!" he yelled grabbing you by the hair so you look up at him. You wince in pain while looking at him.

"I'm sorry" you said softly.

"I didn't hear you say sir after that! REPEAT YOURSELF! he screams, his grip tightening in your hair.

"I'm sorry sir, it won't happen again sir" you said, on the verge of tears.

"now for your punishment. You are not going to eat anything here, or at school for a week and a half!" He yelled, nearly throwing you across the room. You trip and hit your back on the wall, knocking a picture down, and it shattered.

You look up in fear. You see him coming at you. He grabbed you by your arm and threw you down on the floor. "YOU FUCKING ASS HOLE! YOU MAKE A MESS IN HOUSE AGAIN AND ILL KILL YOU!" he screams. You now crying in pain on the floor.

"DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?!" he yells.

"yes sir" you said struggling to speak.

"I didn't hear you!" He said in an angrier tone, but a bit quieter.

" YES SIR! IM SORRY SIR, IT WON'T HAPPEN AGAIN SIR" you yell crying, because you are scared and in pain.

He throws a bottle of alcohol at you, and it shattered. A piece of glass ricocheted off the wall, and slammed into your arm, making you wince in pain, once again. Now crying harder.

Suddenly you hear the door open, and see your dad being held up against the wall by someone. That "someone" had a knife at your dad's throat.

Jughead's POV

When i was on my way home. I heard yelling and things breaking in a trailer right by mine. First thing that came to my mind was that it might have been construction...? No it couldn't be, why would there be yelling. I then realized that it was a scream crying. So i went to go see if everything ok, because I didn't want anyone to get hurt. Iay be rude verbally, but I'm not going to let anyone get hurt.

I went to the trailer where the yelling was coming from. I looked through the window, and saw y/n on the floor, crying, blood dripping from her arm, and her dad hovering above her, yelling at her. I had enough of seeing this. I kicked down the door, and pushed Y/n's dad against the wall, holding my knife at his throat.

"Did you tell him what I've been doing to you?!" Her dad said looking at her. I put my knife closer to his throat.

"n-no i- I didn't t-tell any- anyone" she said studdering over her words because she was having a panic attack, and couldn't breathe.

"What have you been doing to her!" I yelled in her dad's face.

"haha, I knew she was a slut all along, your probably her boyfriend aren't you" he said. Which really pissed me off.

"ANSWER MY GOD DAMN QUESTION! WHAT. THE. HELL. HAVE. YOU. BEEN. DOING!" I yelled applying more pressure to his throat.

"isn't it obvious, I've been punishing her. She got home late, broke a picture, and then didn't obey what I have told her to say" he said with a devilish look on his face.

I dragged her dad outside, and tied him to a chair so he couldn't get away.

Third person, pov after everything that just happened

Jughead ran back inside, and dropped to his knees to care for y/n.

Y/n was having a really bad panic attack, and in severe pain. She was shaking, so unbelievably much. And she literally couldn't breathe. And the crying she was doing, wasn't help the situation.

Jughead pulled her into his lap, and hugged her tight. And eventually it did help calm her down. Once she was able to breath a little better, jughead picked her up, taking her over to jughead's trailer, to get the glass out of her arm, and so she would hopefully feel safer.

Y/N'S POV

I was still crying and shaky, but I could breath a little bit better after getting the comfort of jughead. Once he carried me to his trailer he placed me on the counter. He put on gloves and put some numbing lotion on my arm were the glas was.

I was surprised he knew how to do all of this. But I was glad he did know. He pulled the glass out of my arm, and bandage's it up.

At this point, I wasn't crying, but I was still shaking.

He carried me to the couch and places me down gently. He went to the kitchen, and came back with a snack, water, and a few selections of movies.

This made me smile. I accepted the water, and the movies, but I didn't feel like eating. He helped me put the movie in, and he was about to leave.

"w- wait, jughead, where are you going? I can't just stay in your house..." You say

"it's fine y/n, you can stay here. I have to take care of something, but make yourself at home, please!" He said with a faint smile. So I felt warm inside, and a little happy.

I had a feeling I knew where he was going, I think he was going to go deal with my dad. I know it's wrong to think, but at this point, I didn't give a shit what happens to him.

While watching the movie, I drifted off to sleep by accident.

The next thing I knew, I was in a bed, all tucked in. I realized it wasn't my house. I slowly got up, and looked to see what was going on, because I had forgotten what happens last night.

I walked out in the living room to see jughead sleeping on the couch. I felt bad because I had technically just taken his bed. But I didn't necessarily want to leave, because I knew he would have been worried, if he went to go check on me and I wasn't there. But I also didn't want to wake him up, so my only option was to go back to sleep.

The next morning, you woke up, late for school. So in a panic you shot out of bed. But not long after I was stoped.

"woah, you aren't going to school today, and neither am I, just go lay back down, you need rest" jughead says.

"but jughead, I can't just keep you from going to school, I don't want to be the reason that you are behind, and possibly in trouble-" you were cut off

"this was my choice y/n not yours, I want to stay home, and watch over you. And there is no getting out of staying here" he said getting up and walking you back to the bathroom.

"ok, I suppose I could stay hom- here today, I am quite exhausted, but I'm not going to take your bed again, it's your not mine" you say leaving the bedroom.

"ok, of that's the only way I can get you to stay, then I'll agree to that. By the way, you don't have to worry about your father anymore, he's taken care of, and you are staying with me and FP" he said

Knowing that I didn't have to deal with my father anymore, gave me a smile, and I was kind of happy to live with jughead, and I don't know why. But I have no idea who "FP" is.

"are you sure I can live here? I'll get a job and everything to help pay for rent! Also who's "FP"" you ask.

"first of all, you don't have to do anything to live here, you just have to be safe. And we already paid the trailer off, so there is no need for that. FP is my dad. Don't worry, he doesn't drink anymore, and if he decides to come home one day drunk, I'll take you to the whyte whyrm (I don't know if I spelled that right) where all my buddies will look after you. I have this all under control, you don't have to worry about a thing" he said

Him saying that made me really happy. I smiled a big genuine smile, I don't think jughead has seen my actual smile before.

"thank you jughead, this means a lot to me, a lot more than words could ever say" I told him.

He just smiled back at me, and went back to whatever he was doing, and I fell back asleep.

Y/N'S POV

After I woke up, I rethought about what happened again last night. It made me genuinely happy, so I smiled to myself.

"Someone woke up in a good mood this morning, how'd you sleep?" Jughead asked.

"I slept good, I felt... Safer..." I say

"I'm glad you feel safe here" jughead says with a smile.

For a while I just lied in bed, really just thinking. About all sorts of things. I finally decided to get up. I go down stairs and get some breakfast. I just made a bowl of cereal.

"hey... Uhm... Y/n... Can I ask you something...?" Jughead asked, almost scared.

"yeah, of course, anything" I say with concern on my face.

"So, uhm- I- I know we started off on the wrong foot... I apologize for that. I never should have just assumed, and made fun of you. I don't want you to think I'm taking "pitty" on you, because I'm not, I know you don't like people who do that. I guess what I'm trying to say... Y/n... Will you be my girlfriend...? Jughead asks, fidgeting with his fingers.

I stand there trying to process everything he just said.

"Jughead i- I don't know what to say... I don't like commitment... But- I trust you" I say

There is a long pause

" yes, I'll be your girlfriend jughead" you say finally

He smiles, runs up, and kisses you. A long hard kiss. It was just as much your kiss as it was his. He held my face after the kiss, looking deep in my eyes. And I lean back in to kiss him. This time, it was a lot more lustful, and passionate.

Heart touching birthday wishes for girlfriend: I have seen so many people so excited to celebrate the birthdays of their friends with a similar excitement as they would celebrate their birthdays. And if it’s a birthday of your’s someone special then it has to be celebrated with a big bash. Here we collect some of the emotional and heart touching birthday wishes for your girlfriend to forward on her birthday.

Heart Touching Birthday Wishes for Girlfriend

I will never be tired of loving you. I wish you the brightest and most colorful celebration of your birthday. I love you!

I am happy that I have a girl who is smart, beautiful, funny and crazy enough to go out with me. Tonight out will be special for you my baby.

My cutie pie, here your boyfriend is wishing you the most special and memorable birthday for you. Happy birthday! Stay happy and keep smiling.

Today is the perfect day to tell you that you’re a wonderful girlfriend. Happy birthday! I wish you all the best on this day and throughout the year.

You ignited a fire in my heart and the flame has been burning bright since the very first day we met each other. I am lucky to have you. Happy birthday!

On your birthday, I want to express my gratitude that you entered this life and crossed paths with me. You are the best thing to happen in my life and I want to never let go. Heart touching birthday wishes for girlfriend!

I wish your Birthday to be full of joy and happiness and that the day to be as beautiful as you are. Dear heart beat, happy Birthday.

I can’t imagine my life without you and am so desperate to make you mine forever. May God bless us with a married life next year on your Birthday.

You spark my life with your smile, and so on this lovely day, I urge God that you will remain as great and beautiful as you are. Happy Birthday!

So good to have you in my life as you are the source of my happiness and positivity. And this is the day I am grateful for to the Almighty. Happy Birthday!

Heart Touching Birthday Wishes for Lover

Happy birthday, honey! May every single one of your wishes come true. Many happy returns of the day.

On your birthday, may happiness and peace be your gift. May you always be led to things that make you smile. Happy birthday, sweetheart.

I always long for your birthday as I long for my next meal…that’s because it’s a special day to me just as it is to you. Have a Merry Birthday, Dearest.

You can tell me what your heart desires because I am going to bring them to your feet today. I will do everything to make you smile. Happy birthday!

Baby, when I look at you, my heart skips a beat. You fill me with desire and admiration. On your birthday I want you to know just how special you are to me. Happy Birthday, Girl! Heart touching birthday wishes for girlfriend!

Happy birthday to a special person who brings so much joy and happiness to my heart. I’m grateful for each moment we spent together. Happy Birthday, darling! Heart touching birthday wishes for girlfriend!

Heart Touching Birthday Wishes for Special Person

Happy Birthday to the girl I am deeply in love with. May this special day bring you all the happiness and joy.

I am so fortunate to have you in my life and so your birthday is extra special for me. Happy Birthday to my heartbeat!

In this world full of so many souls, yours is the one my soul feels attached to. May you get all the happiness in life. Happy Birthday!

You know my love for you is as immense as the universe is. And with all that love, I wish you a lifetime of happiness on your Birthday.

A very happy and blooming birthday to the girls who filled my heart with lots of love and romance. May I keep wishing you till we breathe!

Are you ready for your special birthday gift? I am on the way with your surprise and till then, keep smiling as my love is already with you.

I am sending you all my hugs and kisses on your special day, my sweetheart. Keep rocking, keep shining, and keep moving forward in your life.