#girleating

"I seriously love this! You're the best!" 

The pain in your legs when you are forced to rest shows you just how much damage you are doing to them. View the pain as a good thing because it means healing is going on.

Eat first, then you can go to bed. :)

Have you worked with someone who can help you separate yourself from the rituals? I have heard great things about CBT therapy.

I am lucky to work with a great treatment team (I just emailed my T my post)- I have found CBT to be helpful for short-term pieces of work previously but am now doing  "schema therapy";  a longer-term "untangling" of my eating disorder....it's not as clear-cut and behaviorally focused as CBT which can be frustrating (it's hard to measure progress or  tangible "change") but I think  it will be overall, more beneficial.

Put the Iists away and maybe focus on one fear food to conquer next week!

Good idea.

I have relaxed a bit, watching Portlandia for the first time.

Tomorrow I will wake up and my thoughts will be less scattered. I have decided my life needs to include more cake. Next week, I will address this!

One step at a time.

I also want to change my breakfast now and again- just to have the freedom to do so. i discovered how much I like some other things. It just is overwhelming right in this moment- but it's 11:30pm and I don't need to think about it right now.

It's time to unwind and sleep.

Tomorrow, I will see what the day brings.