#ginnight

Ok, I disowned Facebook and Instagram because I could  not cope with the images and posts of things like hashtag “gin night”, hashtag “friends forever” ,hashtag “blessed life” because behind everyone of those damn posts was lies and if not lies there was worse, there was ignorance. Karen with her “gin life” actually has an “alcho life” and hates her kids. Debs “friends forever” is that actually it should state “back stabbers” because they slag you off to anyone, every damn chance they get. Lastly “blessed life” Shirley your blessed life is your husband shagging your best friend and everyone knows you are in piles of debt to get them cars and furniture in your house......... where are all the hashtag “real people” ...I’m sure I left them somewhere but it feels like I left them back in 2007 when I was 20. 

So here’s a little back ground about me I’m 33, I have 3 kids, my eldest child has a number of mental health issues due to her bio dad being a psychopath and treating us like we were things instead of humans. I have a gorgeous husband, I am overly over weight for my height. I have NO direction in life apart from knowing I want to help people...in someway.

I am no writer as you can see. I laugh at inappropriate comments, I swear so much and so often and I don’t even realise I’m doing it until people give me ‘the look’. You’ve seen that look right that wow she just went there on the school playground in front of my 5 year old precious son look....yes carol I said shit. Bloody hell.

Ok, so why tumblr? I’ll be honest I was watching the documentary about Elisa Lam and they talked about tumblr and I was intrigued. Also I love social media I think it’s great to connect to random humans, anywhere. To be able to connect on a fuck carol level with someone that lives in America or new Zeland is awesome. Everyone loves to connect no matter how much they deny it. I hate people because I haven’t found ‘my’ people. I feel like in this world crazy is the new norm and I wanna know that my feelings of crazy is someone’s norm. 

You relate right, I’m not alone ....someone else in the world wants to tell “carol” to fuck off?