#ghostwalker headcanons

as promised to @luri-isa and @sokkas-fan-lawyer and honestly anyone else who's down to clown with my loves.

There is a ton of pop culture that Ava is not aware of, due to her upbringing (or lack thereof,) once he finds this out, John makes it his personal mission to get her into as much as he can

John is a HUGE Star Wars fan, he sets out to make her into one too (she is instantly taken by it too. He won't shut up about it for WEEKS. Bucky wants to smother him in his sleep after the 23405th time he hears about it)

John is (dare I say canonically) touch starved. He loves to be hugged, touched, kissed, hair played with, you name it. He just feels like he isn't worthy of that kind of love. Ava loves to meet him on his level and be a touch away for him.

John is freakishly good at braiding hair. Ava loves that he will do her hair before they go on missions, he says its to keep her hair out of her face so she's safe, she says its because she likes looking pretty while she's killing people,

John loves cooking. He also loves cleaning and organizing and stocking, and shopping. mundanes if you will. It gives him something to do with his hands. Ava leaves messes everywhere she goes. she's not used to staying in one place for too long so she isn't used to tidying up either. Que her making a mess and him behind her cleaning it and bitching about her being sloppy.

Oh back on John loving cooking. He starts to try and teach her how to. She sucks at it. So she has decided to watch him and keep him company while he cooks. the countertop is her favorite spot to watch him work.

Nose kisses. enough said.

Once they are established as a couple, they don't leave on a mission without giving each other a kiss, and tapping their foreheads together, whispering the other to stay safe. They never know when it's going to be their last time, they are scared to admit that one day it will be.

When Ava got her bob, John looked at her then said "that's a fuck ass bob," and locked himself in his room. He was devastated to lose her hair. (she was like "tf????" but eventually realized it was because he thought he couldn't fix her hair anymore. so she started sending him cute short hair braid ideas.)

Ava got John his hat. it was a joke at first, but once he started wearing it like it was a crown she felt a small part of her warm deep in her chest.

Ideal date night for them is going to a game (See my other HC for them from my soccer night) or parallel play. Ava loves to do those adult coloring books and John is a big reader. The others will come in and find them sitting half on top of each other, John knee deep in a book and Ava coloring, her pencils everywhere.

When they fight, its bickering and then resolved. The one time they got into a full blown fight it was yelling and screaming and it ended with Ava storming out. John locked himself in his room and ugly cried (read he had a breakdown) because he thought he lost her like he did Olivia. the second Ava caught wind of that she phased into his room and held him, waiting till he was calm to tell him she'd never leave him. That's the last time they ever fought like that.

They don't sleep alone anymore. It makes dealing with nightmares so much easier, plus, John loves falling asleep feeling her by his side.

Ava will, from time to time, just watch him. The way he moves, how he laughs, the things he says, and she's mesmerized.

She is the most powerful and intelligent woman he has ever seen. He is the most beautiful and emotional man she has ever laid her eyes on.

Ava lives in fear that he will one day die and there will be nothing she can do to prevent it. He attracts danger everywhere he goes. All she can do is follow and hope she moves fast enough to pull him away.

They have two matching tattoos. one is one they got on a whim (it's just RBF in small typewriter font on their inner wrists) and the other is each other's birth flowers.

This is Ava's first relationship; everything is new and exciting to her. And for a first, John is strangely a total gentleman. This is John's only relationship outside of Olivia. He hasn't done any of these firsts since freshman year of high school. And for her first time, Ava is one of the easiest people to make smile.

Ava is (lowkey) obsessed with John's eyes.

John will do anything (literally ANYTHING) to get her to smile at him, if she laughs it's even better.

Ava is big spoon, John is little spoon. I don't make the rules.

as he gets more comfortable around her, his southern accent starts to slip, and he finds himself talking to her like that more often than not. she LOVES his accent.

They agree not to have kids. John loves his son but feels like he is going to fuck him up if he tries to be closer than he is now (he gets there don't worry, eventually he is comfortable being around him and he's a great Dad) and he feels like he's not ever going to be stable enough to try again. Ava doesn't want to have kids, she has her reasons but they all boil down to her feeling she isn't fit for that life.

When she gets plastered, John is her guard-dog. In the Tower, out at a bar, wherever they are, she can get drunk and she is not afraid of the repercussions because she knows he's watching her the entire time (and everyone around her. Plus he takes a sip of each of her drinks to make sure she's never roofied when they're out)

They fight over Coffee vs Tea every fucking morning.

John knows when she's having bad pain days, those mornings she finds meds wherever she goes, hot packs at the ready and soft blankets on every seat. She never mentions it, but she does kiss his cheek each time he walks past her.

They get to the point of closeness where they can converse with their eyes. It pisses everyone else off.

Everyone knows everyone's triggers, but Ava is the only one who can pull John out of an episode without getting hit (he always feels like shit when he hits the others, so they've decided to just leave it to Ava since she has the magic touch.)

Ava has some way of knowing when he's spiraling and doom-scrolling. she'll make up some task he needs to help her with, only to take his phone and hide it.

The Hoskins adore Ava. They loved Olivia, sure. She was one of Lemar's friends too. But the way that John lights up the second Ava walks into a room? He never did that with Olivia.

John looks at Ava like she hung the moon and stars. (Yelena will often tell him he looks like his brain exploded when he watches her.)

John and Ava are left handed (this is just because I am)

With an appearance from a lot of Winterghost, Yelena and Bob and a sprinkle of Ghostwalker.

All of them are based on a RP, I've got with friends, so yeah we don't just play happy ending with one pairing but like to see them fight and suffer, cause the MCU didn't traumatize us enough with that :'D

Gifs used aren't mine, so a shoutout to the creators <3

Also, trigger warning, mentioning of SA and death!

AVA

She was snapped and when she came back she found out that Bill was dying and that there was no cure to save him(HC was created before Hannah talked about her thinking that Ava survived the Snap)

After Bill's passing and the Pym's being otherwise occupied, she tried to find a cure for herself or at least a way to get more stable. That's how she met Valentina and ended up working for her.

Almost all the missions she did for S.H.I.E.L.D weren't really in the name of S.H.I.E.L.D, but Hydra was behind almost all of them, Pierce had a special interest in her powers.

While growing up in the lab prison, she was SA'ed by Hydra Agents.

In her shame room, she saw the death of her parents, but also her first kill. She was just 14 back then.

Due to her abilities, she has an extremely high metabolism, but she's also extremely sensitive to foods and often reacts with cramps, especially after eating when she has been uncontrollably phasing for too long.

She suffers from chronic pain, thanks to Valentina's help after the New Avengers were founded, but also the Pym's she can more or less manage it. On a scale from 1 to 10, she's now a days mostly at a 4.

She loves cats and after Bucky brings Alpine to the tower, she wants nothing more than have a cat on her own, even if Alpine likes her more than other people.

One of her guilty pleasures are over the top teen dramas, never been able to experience all of that and a normal first love herself, she likes those cliché movies.

She's easily overwhelmed by too many sounds and people, making her struggle a lot with her new role and ends with her often fleeing from public engagements and Valentina's parties.

Yelena and Bob are her best friends and the trio has a knack for getting in trouble.

Ava likes to scare people by just appearing before or behind them, her victims are mostly Walker and Mel.

Besides acting all annoyed by it, she secretly loves that Alexei treats her like another daughter.

She can't cook to save her life. If she's ever in charge of making food, the others have the poison control on speed dial.

If she can't sleep, she likes to sit at the roof of the Watchtower, pretending she's able to see the stars fron there or just watching the city that never sleeps beneath her.

She likes to read and spends a lot of her downtime with her nose buried in a book and avoiding social interactions, still not really used to constantly having people around that care for her.

WINTERGHOST

They met around 2008 when Ava was around 20 years old and did some missions together

Besides Bucky being controlled by Hydra back then and not remembering who he was, he became protective of Ava, leading to him attacking an agent who touched her inappropriately.

He was punished for that and wiped, with her having to watch and him having to punish her(I'm aware of the WinterWidow similarities)

Pierce still send them out together cause their combined abilities brought him even more results than sending them on their own, giving him even more power.

The part of Bucky that was still Bucky fell in love with Ava and she fell for him too.

He was her first love and she never forgot about him, even after they separated them in 2013, cause they've gotten too unpredictable and had tried to escape together.

Ava was made to believe that he was dead and that it was her fault cause she had made him a liability.

After S.H.I.E.L.D fell and she found out he was still alive, she tried to find him, but couldn't. Also, her pain got too bad to get too far away from her safe house and Bill.

A part of her still hoped she would find him again, especially after everything that happened in Vienna in the aftermath of the Sokovia Accords, but he basically vanished of the face of the earth again.

Then the Snap happened and after she got back and he teamed up with Sam, she realized that they both had chosen different paths she gave up.

Till they met again when Bucky tied them up in the abandoned gas station, she wasn't even sure if he remembered her at all. Not after having witnessed him being wiped in the past.

But after her seeing that one of his shame rooms was how Pierce forced him to torture her, she knew that he at least remembers her partly.

After everything has settled down, she tries to talk to him, with him avoiding her, driving her crazy, ending with her phasing in his room and screaming at him in the middle of the night.

This ends with him shutting her up by kissing her and finally letting out all the emotions they've both had bottled up over the years being apart.

The next morning, they wake up with Ava's head resting on his chest, his hand running through her long hair.

But it also the morning ends the way Ava doesn't want it to end. "We can't do that again, Ava.. we shouldn't have done that..." His voice is emotionless, the complete opposite from the night before, when he had told her he had missed her and needed her. "Why? We're free now, Bucky... we can be together, we don't have to fear anyone punishing us for it.." She wants to hit him with his pillow, feeling frustrated by him trying to push her away.

Still, he's determined that nothing can happen between them again. That only their past was the reason for what had happened.

And over the next months, it keeps happening over and over again, with Ava waking up more mornings in his bed than her own.

Until Bucky told her that it was a mistake and they're just trauma bonding and that they shouldn't be together. Not like that. Not with her having never really been with anyone else.

But the truth is that he thinks he doesn't deserve her and her love. Not after all the things he has done in the past, not with all the blood on his hands, not after what Hydra forced him to do to her. Even if he loves her, he thinks she deserves so much more and better.

After that, she starts to give him the cold shoulder, giving him the distance he wants, which doesn't sit well with him. Especially not with her getting closer to Walker in the process.

It takes Bucky all of his willpower not to strangle the blonde super soldier, but he gets his revenge by training Alpine to pee into Walker's shoes.

He still ends up night for night before her bedroom door, wanting nothing more than to step in and have her in his arms again, but he knows he fucked that up.

GHOSTWALKER

They get closer after Ava's relationship, if she can call it that, with Bucky ends and when John's divorce is finalized.

They spend the night emptying Alexei's stash of Vodka, both complaining to each other that love is nothing but a lie and overrated.

After that they go from constantly getting on each other's nerves, to almost being civil with each other, but still sending jabs at each other, like Walker criticizing Ava's breakfast choices. "You're choices are really questionable, Starr." – "So is your existence Walker and I still have to deal with you on a daily."

The first time they kiss is after a night out with Yelena and Kate when Ava gets overwhelmed and starts to hyperventilating and him having read once that kissing someone during a panic attack helps them regulate their breathing.

They're dynamic changes once again after this, them getting closer once again, this time on a more intimate level.

Slowly, they do fall for each other, but they still both aren't over their first loves. Him still thinking about Olivia and their son and her still thinking about Bucky.

So they decide to keep it just as a fwb situation for now, at least until they're both ready to move on from their past.

Right now this are all my and my friends HC for Ava, Winterghost and Ghostwalker.

I only put the Ava HC here and the Winterghost and Ghostwalker ones cause Ava is my character in the RP and the pairing ones with their permissions.

It isn’t Ava who freaks out on their wedding day.

it’s John.

night before he is a mess. We’re talking panic attacks out the wazoo, crying himself into throwing up, considering running away kind of mess.

morning of, he is completely ignoring everyone’s attempts to get in contact with him, and when it doesn’t work they send someone to go and try to talk to him.

Evermore from beauty and the beast is VERY John

I won’t say I’m in love from Hercules? VERY Ava