#getting*

I have a dismissive-avoidant attachment style, and it wasn’t until now that I realized how much it has impacted my rp’ing, my blog activity, and my interactions with partners ooc.

This style, I believe, is the root of my paranoia and anxiety, which activates a flight response. This is the reason behind why I’ve left the rpc so many times, and annoyed the hell out of people in the process.

This style also explains my lack of enthusiasm for muses and rp’s, and other things that aren’t focused on myself or my muses.

I am not writing this in an attempt to excuse my actions; rather, I am writing this as an explanation as to why I am the way I am, and to apologize.

Other times it's fucking