#gentlementx

a thin layer of dust sits on my memories. i breathed it in too deep, so now it coats my lungs. now every breath feels like the last one, my heart keeps time in this repetition. everything you've ever loved and ever lost fits into the palm in the wet concrete outside the house that we grew up in. it's still pulling at your feet. i remember water towers perched on rooftops, filling me up with hope until i started to choke. and i don't remember when i became such a burden, but it feels like i've been since birth. i've ruined dreams, and all because this bullshit image of a family came clean. i can feel my heart turn upside down in a sad attempt to pour this sickness out. but i told you so, i am poison in the water. i told you so, i am poison in the water.