I do need to be more responsible so that I can be a positive role model but alas
I’m not a leaderÂ
I don’t know most thingsÂ
And I’m definite not wise enough for that
I don’t want to be a leaderÂ
But to my little brotherÂ
And his adorable friendsÂ
And to my younger cousinsÂ
I am ... something, I guess, as the oldest
Because I’m not an adultÂ
I don’t carry the authority and judgement adults wield Â
I’m one of them and we fight the same battles to an extent
But I am older
So I can give them the support they sometimes needÂ
And I can give it to them for freeÂ
Without wanting their obedience in returnÂ
And they look to me, not for guidance, but they do look to me
And I do want to set a good exampleÂ
But like I said, I don’t know ... almost everything really
I know more than the climate-denying adults thoughÂ
I’ve been thinking a lot about age and generation dynamicsÂ
And I understand that my age doesn’t give me wisdom, not really
Wisdom comes from experience, empathy, and unfortunately, painÂ
And everyone has their own experiences and has their own painÂ
The best thing I can giveÂ
That anyone can giveÂ
To the younger ones I think
Is freedom to find their own meaning in their experiencesÂ
The support to be empathetic of others’ lives
The encouragement that they can get through painÂ
I’m in this liminal spaceÂ
Where there’s nothing adult about meÂ
But there are so many little kidsÂ
That want to see some kind of role model in meÂ
I know I’m a shitty role model thoughÂ
As much as I know I should be braverÂ
But if I can encourage these kids to look for answers themselves
To think for themselvesÂ
To participate in democracy themselvesÂ
To look for kindness and justice themselvesÂ
Oh gosh that would be great










