I do need to be more responsible so that I can be a positive role model but alas
Iām not a leaderĀ
I donāt know most thingsĀ
And Iām definite not wise enough for that
I donāt want to be a leaderĀ
But to my little brotherĀ
And his adorable friendsĀ
And to my younger cousinsĀ
I am ... something, I guess, as the oldest
Because Iām not an adultĀ
I donāt carry the authority and judgement adults wield Ā
Iām one of them and we fight the same battles to an extent
But I am older
So I can give them the support they sometimes needĀ
And I can give it to them for freeĀ
Without wanting their obedience in returnĀ
And they look to me, not for guidance, but they do look to me
And I do want to set a good exampleĀ
But like I said, I donāt know ... almost everything really
I know more than the climate-denying adults thoughĀ
Iāve been thinking a lot about age and generation dynamicsĀ
And I understand that my age doesnāt give me wisdom, not really
Wisdom comes from experience, empathy, and unfortunately, painĀ
And everyone has their own experiences and has their own painĀ
The best thing I can giveĀ
That anyone can giveĀ
To the younger ones I think
Is freedom to find their own meaning in their experiencesĀ
The support to be empathetic of othersā lives
The encouragement that they can get through painĀ
Iām in this liminal spaceĀ
Where thereās nothing adult about meĀ
But there are so many little kidsĀ
That want to see some kind of role model in meĀ
I know Iām a shitty role model thoughĀ
As much as I know I should be braverĀ
But if I can encourage these kids to look for answers themselves
To think for themselvesĀ
To participate in democracy themselvesĀ
To look for kindness and justice themselvesĀ
Oh gosh that would be great










