God, everything is getting on my nerves. First of all, my nerves are literally acting up and have been for weeks and I feel random twitches in my body and yesterday I started feeling this static pain in places that weren’t even being hurt or strained in anyway. It sucks so bad and I can’t even explain how frustrating it is to have your body constantly twitching in random places 24/7. And one of my grades still hasn’t been put in so I don’t have access to Federal Work Study in the school system because I’m not yet meeting criteria for my GPA until they put it in. So I can’t even apply for a job and I need to do it soon because the freshman and everyone else are going to come in when school starts and take all of them. And because I can’t get a job I can’t get a SNAP card so I still can’t buy my own food and I have to keep asking my parents for money just to fkin eat. I can’t buy any of my wants because I’m constantly having to buy needs and I’d feel guilty if I spent any money on some stupid trinket when I’m not even making the money myself. And I have horrible insomnia to the point where I can’t sleep even with 10 hours of lying down. Life was going so well and I thought I was getting better, but now all of this is giving me anxiety again and I feel depressed and I’m having ideation again because I can’t stand the way that my body feels. It feels like I’m being tortured and I can’t do anything about it. I’m so tired.
