how much guilt do you think oscar would feel if he ever wanked thinking about landoβs new body? (referring to your fic, just to clarify)
you might find out in the chapter after the one I'm posting today π
that scene won't be very long so I can already tell you he's trying very hard to mentally explain it away to himself under the banner of having had a crush on old/male Lando as well. he has a nagging feeling about it that he doesn't address whatsoever. and once he DOES get off to her and explains it away to himself I can guarantee you without it being written into the piece that he's having his evening wank on race weekends occupied by the most current outfit she wore to media day. I would dare to say that he gets almost a little too obsessed at times and waits to go to sleep just so he can imagine it a second time and get off to it. But around others he'd never ever ever talked about being attracted to her at all. He's incredibly intent on being a role model for how to treat her.
so like the guilt is there but it's more like a thing of "this is at odds with me trying to be a perfect team mate to a woman and respect her" β full moral dilemma that he's just...trying to ignore in "this will work itself out somehow" fashion π«£
In the small scene that does exist in an upcoming chapter you will literally see the two wolves inside his head. the voice of reason vs the fuck it we ball voice.
