#gaslightgallows

Also: 17-yr-old me with a busted ankle & a dr's note was almost fired from a cashier job for asking for a stool to use at the register. Only wasn't fired bc my mother worked for the state Labor department and she had WORDS with the owner. :)

“And you’re nothing without the Eye,” Jon snapped. “It promised you the Watcher’s Crown in return for a ruined world… but you were too greedy. You wanted all that suffering for yourself and your master, but you weren’t willing to pay for it, were you? Weren’t willing to feel the pain and the grief and the guilt—because you can’t. There’s nothing left within you except greed and terror… and that’s not enough for the Eye.”

“It led me to you,” Jonah retorted, his voice rising in disbelief, and so focused was he on the terrifying sight before him that he never noticed the cold, creeping cloud of fog forming just behind where he stood. “It showed me the way.”

“It led you to the Archivist.” Jon’s lips curled back from his teeth, and his viridian eyes were cold even as they cast their hot, sickly light on this now-powerless man who had ruined his life, and the lives of so many countless others. “It led you to your doom.”

In spite of everything, Jonah managed to laugh. “You’re… you’re bluffing.”

“I’m not, actually. You see, Jonah… I’m terrible at poker.”

Jonah frowned and opened his mouth to speak, and at that same moment, Martin suddenly emerged from the Lonely with a blast of salt air and sand, brandishing the garden spade like a club, and before Jonah could turn, Martin smashed the heavy metal blade across the back of his head, crushing his skull and dropping him to the floor like a stone.

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the ungodly smile I just made!!! okay, so - you can watch it on Netflix, if you’ve got an account there - I personally got frustrated by the subtitles and swapped over to Viki.com, which is where I have rewatched it every time since. Viki does let you watch for free though there are ads.

there’s also a fansubs project in the works that I haven’t started watching yet (though I plan to give it a try!), but it’s only up to I think episode 15 at the moment and requires a little more hoop-jumping to track down.

To love is to fear loss 

Loki/Sigyn, from the future of the “Understanding the Storm” ‘verse

Loki gets some news.

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"I have joyful news," Sigyn said, smiling at him with such light in her eyes he could see nothing else at first. Her hand slipped down the front of her gown to lay over her abdomen. "I'm with child."

There was a roar in his ears, in his mind, and he could only stare at her in helpless confusion. "No," he said, shaking his head in denial. "You can't be."

She gave a little laugh. "You were there. Come, my love, you can sense the life, too." She held out her other hand, to draw him near.

He took a step back, instead of toward her, panic clawing at his throat. "No, no, you can't. It's too dangerous." His blood was... damaged, broken, how could it create anything but a monstrosity? Or death?

He couldn't breathe. She could die. This child could kill her, take her from him, and then the child would die, and he'd have nothing. It was a cruel jest, it had to be, to offer him everything and now pull it away.

He turned away, fists clenched, knowing he was ruining her joy and hating himself for that, too, but wasn't that just proof this was wrong? That the Norns were punishing him for being happy and now they were threatening it all?

Her arms slid around his waist from behind and she leaned her head against his shoulder. "I feel your fear," she murmured. "But let it go. It will be well, beloved. This is a gift, not a curse. Eir has already said the babe and I are healthy."

He turned around to hold her against him, closing his eyes and shaking his head against hers. "How?" his voice was hoarse and he didn't know what he was really asking. "How?"

How do I let go of the terror that this love will destroy me if I lose it?

Her hand was soft on his neck, rubbing gently, and he knew she would touch her child exactly the same way. "We're not going anywhere." After a few moments, his breathing settled and the fear, if not gone, had at least faded. She sensed that and took one hand in hers, and laid it on her stomach. "You can sense our child, too, Loki. This is hope made flesh. Feel it and you'll know."

Her hand held his larger hand against the silk. At first he didn't want to look - didn't want to make that tie, as if pretending it wasn't real meant it wouldn't exist - but then... somehow, without any conscious decision, he felt ... a brightness. A warmth. The strands of seidr were knotted right there, beneath his hand, tiny and golden and perfect.

He sank to his knees before her, both hands now covering the tiny light within, and he leaned his head against it, tears slipping down his cheeks.

Her fingers smoothed his hair. "You see? This isn't a threat of loss; it's a promise of life. We made this miracle."

Old reflex wanted to deny that he could have any part of such a wonder, but he pushed it away by concentrating on what he sensed. And it was a wonder, this miracle child of four Realms, to prove none of them were that different. All things were possible now.

There were few times they willingly parted, over the years. It was mostly for safety, necessity, and this time would be no different-- save that everything was different. “Go.” Aziraphale begged him, the same as he’d been doing for the last three months, but now with the added urgency of someone who knows it is entirely too late. “Go where?” Crowley hissed back, stress raising his whisper to something louder. “This place is lousy with you lot-- if I so much as step foot out there, I’ll be discorporated or worse. I know you can feel it as good as I can.”

It was true and they both knew it. There was something in the neighborhood of a hundred thousand humans present, and nearly a quarter as many of the heavenly host.

Continuation: 

Hey, I'm sorry to bother you again, but I just wanted to say another reader found the Jack & Mac fic I was looking for! It was "You Asked For It" by gaslight_gallows, chapter 9 (part of a big collection) :)

Excellent -- we’re so happy you got help to find it! And “You asked for it” by @gaslightgallows is a great place to find ideas about and scenes from Miss Fisher’s world. 

I'm seriously thinking of reupping my account and then just... casually handing out my login info