Hello :)

I really had to think hard about this because it has been my online nickname forever, lol. It is derived from my various nicknames at school like this:

Tabea (my actual name) -> tabse -> tabsola -> tabsolania. And then I swapped the i for a y because... I thought it looked cooler, I guess 😄

I'm sorry there is no deeper meaning behind my URL 😅

Hi & thanks for your ask! :)

what is your style aesthetic.

Right now it is jeans and a very soft blue-grey coloured hoodie, because I had about four hours of sleep last night and it’s all about comfort today. ^^

I like soft garments and layered clothes and I tend to wear a lot of shades of blue and grey. I recently bought a red dress and it practically shines like a beacon between my other clothes. ^^

Also how did you get into Bernie in the first place?

It was by the - maybe a bit unusual - way of a Star Wars wlw story by potofcoffee on ao3. They wrote a truly wonderful fic I still come back to from time to time named ‘there’s a feeling you give me, an everglow’. After they finished posting, I had a look at their other works and found a GBBO (baking, yay!) themed fic called ‘wheat kings and pretty things’ that was about a wlw ship named Berena I knew absolutely nothing about, but found interesting.

Thanks!

germany 🇩🇪 : do you like bread?

I mean what sort of question is that? Yes, give me allllll the bread

scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 : do you prefer summer or winter?

Summer weather, but not a fan of the university holidays being super unstructured, however that’s no longer going to be a problem for me after this year 

italy 🇮🇹 : currently in a relationship?

nah

sweden 🇸🇪 : have you ever been to ikea?

It will be three weeks on Friday since I’ve been and I’m getting withdrawal symptoms

iceland 🇮🇸 : if you could chose one thing to be in your future, what would you choose?

living without any regrets.

norway 🇳🇴 : do you prefer wearing trousers or skirts?

Definitely trousers, and i prefer dresses over skirts. 

romania 🇷🇴: morning or evening?

Evening 100%. I am NOT a morning person (it’s not even that I prefer to sleep in, it’s just whatever time I wake up, I’m not happy about it)

Well, it was a gradual process.

I always liked him, right from when I started watching. I thought he was cool, I liked his aesthetic and his dry humour. (“The only thing worse than people with baggage, Ms. Karnik, is people with baggage who insist on oversharing” will forever be iconic. And is also the line that first made me think “oh, hey, this dude’s totally autistic” tbh, because like, Big Fucking Mood. I mean I got the Vibes from him right off the bat, but that was the line that really did it, lol.)

Then the Fredrik stuff kicked off not long after, and I was rather intrigued by that and found Henrik’s dynamic with him fascinating.

And then Group Animal happened and I think it was that and the aftermath that really cemented him as one of my faves. (Sidenote: I wasn’t really that interested in Ollie before Group Animal either. Imagine me liking Henrik and Ollie a normal amount. Pre-GA was a strange, strange time, in hindsight.)

What can I say, seeing him go from the cool ice man with the snarky comments and the troubled relationship with his son to… *gestures vaguely at first-few-months-after-GA Henrik* that, with such ease on the part of the actor, hooked me. It not only tugged at my heartstrings, but made me realise what an interesting, complex character he actually was.

(It was around this point I started watching older eps too. Hanssen/Hemingway was one of them, and that helped as well, lol.)

Ollie was still my fave at this point. But then he left. So Henrik became my de-facto favourite character.

However, I stopped watching for a bit not long after Ollie left. But then I got back into Holby when the Sacha depression ep came ‘round, and I watched a few eps before that too (I think it was Keep Your Friends Close that I started watching again with?). It was probably One Man And His God that elevated Henrik even higher in my view, and made me realise just how much I could relate to him. Plus I found his relationship with John very intriguing, so there was that too.

Then I went back and watched all the stuff I’d missed over those few months, then later decided to properly watch all his pre-S19 stuff rather than just a few eps here and there. And that made me realise “oh god, oh fuck, this guy is basically me, what the hell”.

I see what you did!  😏 For the Fic Meme. Thanks for the ask!  🥰

(I’ve already answered P and R...)

A: How did you come up with the title to [insert fic]?

I feel like someone said that coming up with titles is either feast or famine and that is super true.  Either the title clicks quickly, or I agonize over it until pretty much time to post!  Since there’s not a specific fic you’ve asked for I’ll tell you my favorite titles of my own fics: Green Eyed and Territorial, A Thin Veil, Echoes of Always, Page Turner, The Dawn of Redeeming Grace, Well Read, and Coming Home.  

 T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?

The only thing I can think of is when a character is infantilized in fandom. Otherwise there might be tropes I don’t particularly care for but they usually have a place in someone else’s fandom enjoyment!

 I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

The trope of ‘secret relationship revealed’. I can read about a secret relationship being revealed to friends and family over and over and over again (and have).  

 C: What member do you identify with most?

I wonder if this question had to do with a specific fandom.  I just enjoy finding friends in fandom—other people to squee with!!!

 K: What’s the angstiest idea you’ve ever come up with?

he is so beautiful. i wonder if he can cook

oh he absolutely can!! apparently his signature dish is kedgeree, which is this:

🥀 last time you cried?

last week. i cried about the state of my country, and our world. and then made some donations.

🌸 what is your favorite flower?

i love flowers, and bend down to smell or touch nearly every flower i see, but i have a particular fondness for tulips. after visiting iceland, i've fallen in love with the scent and texture of lupins, too.

🎁 when is your birthday?

april! i'm a taurus, babyyyy.

🐰 do you believe in soulmates?

that's sort of a complicated question, but the short answer is: not really. i believe that some people might fall in love with just one person and it might be forever, but i don't believe it for myself, and i certainly don't believe it for the majority of people. i fall in and out of love with every change in the wind, and i believe that friendship is the only thing that really stands the test of time, so i know that a "soulmate" wouldn't be possible for me.

💤 date someone younger, older, or same age as you?

1. Why did you choose medicine as a profession?Curiosity, I just had a pull towards it and did some shadowing, some volunteering and knew it was what I wanted to do 

2. When did you know you wanted to go into medicine? I knew for sure in the summer just before i applied, when i was 17, but i’d thought about it since being about 14/15 maybe? 

8. Favorite medical fun fact?All of my favourite facts probably couldn’t be classed as “fun” for non-medics. Oooh actually one I discovered recently is that the word bulimia is from the greek bous and limos meaning “hunger of an ox” (which is of course an inaccurate description because it’s not about hunger but that’s how doctors described it) 

9. Funniest/weirdest thing that happened in one of our classes/rotations?It’s a toss up between:

the lecturer who in one hour managed to discuss how to weigh testicles if they are still attached to a human, how raspberry leaf tea makes “a baby shoot right out the vagina” and how it is inappropriate to yell “oh my god you’re an actual dwarf” at someone with dwarfism

and the 80 year old professional patient who came prepared for a respiratory examination and whipped her top off, no bra underneath and declared to the first year guy examining her “don’t worry love, I’ll move them out the way, this is what happens when you’ve had three kids so don’t be under any illusion.” and just kind of casually flicked her breasts off to the side. The student was bright red and kind of stuttered through the rest of the examination

10. Surgery or internal medicine?Internal med if i could only pick one of those two

15. How do you handle failure/bad critiques/mistakes?Eat. Then just work harder if i can to make sure it doesn’t happen again

16. Favourite hospital movie/TV show?Holby city (not in it’s capacity to accurately represent medicine. It has hot doctors) 

20. What do you like to do when you’re not in school/hospital/studying?knit, watch tv, spend times with my friends.