#gabrilearnelle

And another thing happened and made me super happy that week: I hadn’t made up even ¼ of my missed classes when I woke up to my friend calling me bcs the test had been rescheduled for that morning and I had like 2 hours till the due time. My primary defense mechanism is denial, so I obviously went to our class group to ask "WDYM THE TEST IS DUE IN TWO HOURS?” and to my absolute surprise, a bunch of them offered me help, gave me the answer to some questions, made themselves available to assist me… I thought they didn’t even know my name, and they were DMing me, asking how they could help me out… I was totally shocked and SUPER grateful. Thanks to them I could finish all of my compulsory subjects and finally graduate!

Home for the first time in a year 🇮🇪🍀

Gabrielle oh my gosh you’re the absolute sweetest!! Thank you so much for your kind words and I hope you know that I hope the same for you too and I’m always supporting you with all the things that you decide to do!! I am so proud of you for everything you’ve accomplished and will accomplish. You’re honestly such an angel oh my, thank you once again! I’m grateful to meet you here! ✨

ahhhhh thanks!!!! sailor moon is the best! im glad you like it ^^

send me a warm ask! ❅

At 8 am on March 1st, my birthday, I finished writing my thesis. I sent it to my advisor [even tho I doubted he was going to read it on time] and tried to sleep a little, before I had to come back to my parents house. What happened with my thesis I already shared here: I sent it to the committee before my advisor could answer me, had a breakdown over it, anxiety crises, but the important thing is that everything worked out in the end.

I need that kind of record for the next time my anxiety tries to trick me by saying that the only reason I could make it is bcs it was easy or bcs I was in a good mental health condition. But I also need it bcs it shows how strong I was, how I kept trying despite things weren't working the way I originally idealized. I want to remember that everything worked out in the end, how I was able to be with my family, how my dad is doing much better now, how I was praised in my thesis defense, how I got an A for it, how professores were excited to keep contact with me bcs of my work. I want to remember myself how capable I am.

Still in February, I was trying my best to catch up with my thesis work. One of the things that really helps me is the Pomodoro Technique. I use 50 min work and 20 min rest; 30 min is the long rest. There were days were I managed to complete 8 cycles! But I had to make adjustments bcs I noticed I was doing 2, sometimes 3 or 4 productive cycles in a row, skipping meals and pauses for bathroom. The solution I found was to set alarms for meals which were indeferred, so let's say everyday at 7 pm, no matter what, I would have to take a break for dinner.