#fuzzed up

"I am trying...oh how I am trying to pretend like I'm not phased easily...that change doesn't bother me one bit, or that I don't miss you every moment you're gone. When did this become the "in" thing to do? Just to simply smile and pretend like we don't care? I want to shout how much I care...but then...I've been told the barrel will be empty and there are no more surprises...nothing left to give them..."take it slow so you guys don't get bored of each other"...but I'm never bored with you...I just always fear you are.