#futurefears

It's been a while, but I finally have a new video!

she has lollipop fingers

her mother's skin never wrapped

tight her skull inside a warm belly

but they love each other

and I bring small flowers

set them on the dinner table

from my shoulders she balances

scab knees and counts tops of corn stalks

even as a baby she is gentle

scratching the ears of old dogs

I teach her how to hold a shotgun steady

we learn together the names of galaxies

when she is older I fear

words will escape her mouth breaking

my heart the way no lover could've

telling me I was too hard on her

telling me I should have let her help

birth the foals and hold more money

what will I say to her then as she takes

wedding bands and fills her own hips

that I was afraid to see her fail

my own short comings mixed

blue colored bruises in my heart hoping

she would know more than me in the end

will she look at faces in my past

and wonder if any of them could have been

her mother first, my predetermined pick

will she listen to my stories and think

less of the soul I wandered into

encourage me to apologize more often

for now she has bubbles and chalk

splattered on her handmade dress

at my feet she asks the names

of all the caterpillars navigating tall grass

and she giggles when I kiss her mother

she is curious about my anger and my dreams

did the ship builders in rome later regret

having thought the earth so flat all those years

can I compass her the same kind of safety

walk slow enough to remember what its like

tiny in the trust of big decisions