#full_of_wonder

There are things that as much as we want keep holding on to - dreams that we want to fight for; people we would never want to let go - we must give up and move forward to a new chapter. You see, it hurts our pride to give up on something or someone. It pains our heart. It torments our mind. But the thing is, there are times that the dreams we are dreaming of aren't really meant for us. And there are times that the people we badly want to keep in our lives aren't really destined to stay. The more we hold on to something or someone that is not for us, the more that we are drifted away from what is really dedicated for us. It is indeed lonely and difficult to give up but our courage of doing so will one day reap its fruits. We are not seeing the whole picture yet. Giving up on that certain thing or person doesn't mean giving up on life completely. Sometimes, we must lose what is not for us to gain space for what is for us.

You’re so cold yet so colorful. You’re so warm yet you still have those same colors. 

I still miss you. It’s not like we had that special kind of a relationship but I just miss you. I miss looking at you while you smile and laugh. I miss staring at your  face while you seem stressed and tired. I miss waiting for you every morning to arrive. I miss it all.

We have all been broken inside. We have all experienced pain. We all have this chaos inside of us. You see, the world makes us believe that it is a shame to feel broken, hurt, and troubled. It’s as if everyone is expected to be perfectly complete individuals. Don’t be a hypocrite. Whether you accept it or not, it is true that somewhere in  your life, you felt the longing for something; your heart has been shattered by the people and by this world; your thoughts turned into shambles. As humans, it is expected for us to experience these things. We are all imperfect and flawed individuals. But, it is my hope that as we ponder on this truth, we will also see the beauty and wonders that life has for us - that despite of all the big and small cracks in our life, we can still be whole and new again.