Lame.

How fucking dare you. How FUCKING dare you make me fall in love with their love for five FUCKING SEASONS, and then DESTROY IT. How did we come from puppy Ian with the adorable crush on Mickey and the indifferent, scared Mickey to Mickey so in love it hurts and Ian throwing him away like he never fought for him at ALL. You can't just build up this wonderful love story, make us fall in love as well, and then say, nah just kidding. It happens. People change. Ian was a lot of things but he was never fucking CRUEL. HE COULDNT EVEN LOOK MICKEY IN THE EYE FOR MOST OF THE SCENE! Mickey is IN prison because he was defending his partner. Because he loves him. And said partner is throwing it back at him. LIKE YOU GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT SAMMI, IAN!! MICKEY HAS DONE EVERYTHING IAN HAS EVER ASKED OF HIM. He was perfectly fine in the closet, just fucking around with Ian. But Ian pushed and pushed until he forced Mickey to return those feelings. He did EVERYTHING for Ian. He kissed him, he tapped into his emotions, he became himself, HE SAID I LOVE YOU, FOR FUCKS SAKE! And now all of the sudden, THATS NOT FUCKING GOOD ENOUGH?! I hate this so much. I am fucking CRUSHED. I cried through the rest of the episode. I laughed a few times but went right back to sobbing because it hurt my so bad. My heart was in ACTUAL pain. I can only stayed dry eyed for a few minutes before I end up sobbing again. There were so many solutions to Noel leaving without completely shitting on a love that we've ALL fought so FUCKING HARD FOR! I just want my Ian back. That is a big part of why I'm still going to watch this show. Because I've seen that Ian is supposed to grow as an individual and deal with his issues this season. I need to see the Ian that I haven't seen since the end of season 3. I miss him so fucking much. As for Mickey, I honestly want to see him happy more than ANY other mother fucker on this show right now. Just seeing him listed as a special guest start in the beginning credits made me tear up. He doesn't DESERVE this! He deserves the Ian that would have, without doubt, waited for him. Would have been there as soon as visiting hours had started. That would love him no matter what. That would stay faithful. It's amazing how faithful I am to this show, because I am so fucking disgusted right now. But I love it too much to get rid of it. I just want this show to end with them having found their way back. They belong together, and even if it is a long break, I just need to know that they will find their way back into each Others arms. They said that this may be the time that Ian takes some time and eventually realizes how much he needs Mickey. Make it fucking happen. Because I have not fought alongside these boys to see them turn away and be forgotten in the end.

I started shipping Destiel long before I started watching Supernatural.

this is impressive and really sad