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“Got nothing but time” - - #femaletomale #ftmthoughts #laust #time #transboi #transgender #ftm #nonbinary #wanderlust #prettiboi (at The Workhouse - Kansas City Historic Castle)

Sometimes being part of this world becomes a challenge. I have always been a very grounded and strong person, and I have never needed validation from anyone. My actions and thoughts have always been my own. During this process, of transition, demanding, hoping, and pleading for others to use the correct name, and the correct pronouns feels unbearable. It is almost like I am begging for people to recognize the man that I am, the man I have always been... And that most people know. Yet, a great multitude of these individuals and whether or not they are close to me, offer a great deal of resistance. They still call me she, her, hers... What to do? Is it for validation or respect that I fight? Is it wrong to desire to be recognized for who I truly am? I tell myself I am more than a pronoun, and getting upset when someone misgenders me(which happens quite often), is self-limiting. It ratifies their ignorance. Sometimes, being part of this world, is really difficult. Sometimes, I want no more.

Aleksander