#ft.shea

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈

Emily was dressed in just running shorts and a tank top with her black house slippers. She felt like a grandma stepping out but as long as Khai was okay, she’d be okay. Just as she said, it took her two minutes to find him, parking her car and unlocking the door. “Come on hot stuff!” She yelled out the window.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He was just leaning against a light post smoking a cigarette and scrolling through his phone as he pulled up. His head lifting to look as she yelled out the window. “I’m coming” he said, throwing his cig and getting into the car. “I’m sorry, I was so lost. It looks so different at night. But I almost made it.”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily sighed, looking at him and making sure he got in okay. “You were close. But it would have been another 5 minutes of walking.” She said, taking off back towards her apartment. “I see you were smoking. Good for me.” She bummed to herself, pulling up to her place and parking in the right spot, getting out and leading Khai to her door. “Home sweet home!”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “I was” he nodded. Buckling into the seat and looking over at her. “Yeah, lucky you” he grinned. Taking her hand in his. They got to her place and she moved so fast he could barely keep up. Stopping her and pushing  her against her door he gave her a grin. “Slow down” he hummed. Leaning in and kissing her passionately.

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily was just...well okay truth was she looked like trash. Haha. She wasn’t really wanting anyone to see her in this light. Yes it was 2:30 in the morning but they were in the city that never slept. It was the only thing keeping her moving so quickly. She didn’t even realize it until Khai pushed her against the door, hearing his voice and completely melting in the kiss. The taste of nicotine on her lips, making her kiss him back with just as much passion. “I’m- im so sorry i didn’t even realize-“ she said before not even excusing herself. Instead, she connected their lips again.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He just shook his head as she apologized and before he could speak they were kissing again. His hand moving to her ass as he squeezed gently. “Mmm” he hummed against her lips. His other hand resting on the door beside her head as he kept it going.

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily smiled into the kiss, humming into it as she felt him squeeze her ass and she snickered into the kiss before finally pulling away. “I’m really sorry about that. I just- i look stupid.” She admitted to him and wrapped her arms around him. “Forgive me?”’She asked with puppy dog eyes.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “I’ll forgive you if you keep kissing me” he grinned. Kissing her again, slow softly pecks one after the other

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily smirked, leaning in and kissing him again. They were just outside her door and she heard her neighbor open their door, making her laugh. “Sorry.” She said to them, holding Khai still close as she used her hand to open the door, kissing him still and pulling him into her apartment.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He laughed as Emily apologized to her neighbor and kept kissing her. His hands traveling up her shirt as she unlocked the door. “Hurry” he hummed against her lips

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “I’m trying.” She said, laughing as she got them inside, kicking her door shut and pulling her shirt up and over her head. “We really about to not make it to the bed room?” She asked him, jumping up in his arms.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He laughed again as she pushed the door open and he licked his lips as she removed her shirt. Keeping his hand on her waist until she was fully wrapped around him in his arms. “Nope”’he hummed against her lips as he kissed her again. Carrying her until her back was pushed against the wall. “I want you now”

Emily She never had to do anything and she loved it. She literally looked so rough and Khai still wanted her. She connected their lips again, staying wrapped around him as she started to pull at his shirt, nibbling at his bottom lip.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He broke the kiss only long enough to remove his shirt and then reached between them to undo his pants. A soft hum passing his lips as he kissed her again. “How bad do you want me?” He asked with a low sultry voice

Emily “how bad do I want you?” She asked him, raising her brow as she tried to pull her shorts down but they only reached mid thigh. “Fuck...” she paused to look at him. “Finger me and you’ll find out.” She said aggressively, a chuckle passing her lips as she smirked .

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ Of course his body was in the way of getting her shorts off.  But that was okay, because he fully obeyed her request. His fingers trailing over her folds as he felt her and then pushed his fingers deep into her. Fingering her slow as his thumb rolled around her clit. His lips moving to bite at her jaw

Emily Emily tried to balance herself, her shorts literally sitting mid thigh as she was wrapped around Khai, moaning as his fingers pushed into her. “Oh fuck!” She called out, arching her back as she relaxed to his touch. “je t'aime et tout de toi.” She smirked, biting her lip as she pulled on his hair.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He was kissing and biting at the soft skin of her neck as he continued to finger her. His strokes pushing faster and deeper as she spoke. “What?” he chuckled. “آپ کو وہ بچہ پسند ہے؟” he moaned

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Baby...” she moaned out as his strokes were deeper and faster. “I’m gonna cum...fuck.” She couldn’t even move her legs. That was the worst and best part of it all. It felt so good to her, she whined. “I- I said...” she couldn’t even get it out, cumming right into his hand, trying to catch her breath. “I said I love you and everything about you. But what...what did you say?”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ Hearing her words he moved his hand faster, pushing harder and deeper as he twitched his fingers inside of her. His thumb pressing firm to her clit as he worked on making her cum hard. “‘Mmm I love you too” he moaned softly after she came in his hand. Kissing her lips as he slowed his movements but kept going. “I asked if you liked it baby” he said softly against her lips. Kissing her slow as he kept fingering her.

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily was not able to really keep still, her eyes of desperation as she was practically trapped against the door and him with her shorts holding her legs captive. “Take then off.” She whined, her nails digging into his shoulders as he continued to finger her. “I like it but...i wanna feel you closer.” She whined, rolling her hips against his fingers as she kissed his lips again.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ She was so sexy, and the fact she couldn’t move. It really turned him on. He shook his head no and hissed as her nails dug into his skin. “I’m gonna drive you crazy.” He said with a low tone. His fingers picking up pace again as they continued to kiss. “You like it... I’m right here” he moaned against her mouth. His tongue licking against the roof of her mouth as he twitched his fingers inside her again. “میرے لئے بچے آو”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily groaned, not really hating it but this did restrict her from feeling him against her, making her body quiver once more. “Fuck!” She hissed again, kissing his lips eagerly as she used her teeth to pull at his lips. “What did you say?” She asked him, throwing her head back again as her legs started to tremble again, feeling herself about to release again.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He was loving the way she bit at his lips. Moaning against her mouth as he kept going more and more. “I said cum for me baby” he growled. His lips moving to her chest as he kissed up her neck and bit against her jawline. “Fuck you’re so wet” he moaned. Pulling his fingers from her and turned her around to lean her over the couch. He slapped her ass as he pushed his pants down and lined himself up with her. His hands moving to hold her arms behind her back as he pushed into her. “میں تمہیں اتنی مشکل سے بھاڑ میں جا رہا ہوں”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily was so spent by Khai, it was not even funny. They literally were having some very eager sex. The cravings were so hard, making Emily easily cum into Khai’s hand right on command. Finally, he pulled her off the door but they only made it to the couch, her knees still parted as far as her shorts would let her. As soon as his hand made contact with her ass, an evil laugh emerged from her. “Fuck me daddy!” She groaned, lulling her head back into him as he slammed into her. “Ohhhh my fucking god you feel so good.” She groaned, breathlessly. “Please daddy. Tell me what you said.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He was so fucking hard for her his cock practically twitched inside of her. His body slamming into hers over and over. His wrapped his arms around her as she lulled back against him and he grabbed her breast. Squeezing and pinching at her nipples as he continued to bite at her neck. “Fuck baby” he growled against her skin. His body leaning back slightly for a deeper angle. “I’m gonna fuck you so hard you’re gonna squirt all over” he moaned. Pushing her forward again as he aggressively rammed into her round after round.

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Holy shit, Khai!” She moaned out, gripping at the back of his hair as he slammed into her over and over again. Fuck, he was so sexy and the way he spoke to her, he knew he owned her body. Her hands followed his, feeling him touch all over her breast, which made her reach down, rubbing at her own clit. She knew he would punish her for this. She wanted it. As she hit the couch, her hands gripped the back, grunting as he pushed into her, feeling herself about to cum again. “Fuck, right there baby. Don’t you fucking stop! FUCK!”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ This was probably the hardest he had ever fucked her. But he wanted her to know how intense he could get. She needed to know! She reached down to touch herself and of course he slapped her ass again. This time much harder. “Don’t fucking do that” he growled. She was already sensitive from cumming twice so he knew it was a struggle for her to not cum yet. He watched her grip the couch and he reached down to wrap his hand tightly around her neck. Cutting her air off completely as he squeezed her neck. “You gonna cum baby” he growled. His hips thrusting into her as he started to bottom out on her

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Ah!” She yelped, loving the sting of how hard he slapped her ass. He was rough. Very rough. But she was so turned on and craved him That much more. She wanted him to keep doing that so she moved to touch herself again but it was cut short. He soon was gripping at her neck, causing her eyes to roll into the back of her head as her body started shaking and she squirt right on him, gasping for air. The feeling was exhilarating but she fucking loved it, her body convulsing as he fucked her. “God I fucking love you so fucking much daddy!”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ The way he body shook and convulsed against him caused his own cum to shoot out of him. Growling through his gritted teeth as he pushed all the way into her and let his cock twitch out every last drop. He let go of her neck and leaned against her back. Kissing the back of her shoulder softly. “Are you okay!” he asked with a satisfied smile. Kissing her shoulder again before breathing out against her skin. “I love you too baby girl”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Am I okay?” She asked breathlessly, her body starting to relax as she felt his kisses against her skin. “I think...that was the best sex...we’ve had.” She said to him, her head still hang into her crossed arms on the back of the sofa, then turning her face to kiss him. “I’m fine baby. Thank you for checking.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He wrapped his arms around her as he kissed her back and lifted her from the couch. Pulling out of her to turn her around and kiss her again. His tongue slowly caressing hers a he hummed softly. “I’m glad you think so. I love fucking you” he moaned.

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ She winced as he pullled out of her but let him turn her around, leaning in to kiss him back, humming with him. “I love when you fuck me.” She said back to him, kissing him soundly again as she let her tongue slide into his mouth before she pulled away. “That will at least tithe me over until you get back which is....when?” She asked him.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He closed his eyes melting into her kiss until he was pulling away and his forehead pressed to hers. “I’ll be back tomorrow night I do believe. But I have dinner plans after. So I guess Tuesday”’he said softly. His hands trailing up her sides as he leaned in to kiss her again. “God, you’re so intoxicating”’he hummed. Picking her up and setting her on the back of the couch as he pushed his body between her legs

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Okay. Not so bad after all.” She said to him, not asking any further questions. Trust. That was what this was all about. And she felt she was off to a good start hoping this made Khai happy. “I want a date.” She told him. “Like ice skating!” She smiled, moving up to the back of the couch, cupping his face as she continued kissing him. “Mmmm your lips today....I can taste the nicotine.”(edited)

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “Not so bad” he repeated softly. Kissing her again. “Okay, we can do that”’he nodded. His hands moving up to push her hair back as he looked down at her. He knew she was being so strong right now, and honestly? It was a real turn on. Of course he knew he shouldn’t be making dinner plans or kissing other people. But he had to get any thoughts of anyone else out of his head. He had to! Maybe now wasn’t a good time to tell her about Shea, but he did promise he would tell her if he kissed or hooked up with anyone. “You like it?”’he asked humming against her lips. “I could use another right about now” he smiled

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Can i ask who the dinner plans are with?” He owed her That much. She really needed him to be honest with her. She didn’t like this whole taking a few steps back after she had just got him. But this was part of proving to her if he really wanted to be with her. “I do like it.” She told him. “I have an ash tray in my bed room if you want to use it.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He nodded his head and pulled back to kiss her forehead. “Okay, hold on. Imma grab it” he said. Pulling up his pants and going to grab the ashtray and his cigarettes before coming back. He pulled a Marlboro black from its pack and placed it between his lips before lighting it up and sitting on the couch. “Come here baby” he said, reaching for her as he took a drag. Letting the smoke exhale he looked into her eyes. “I’m having dinner with Roman. But it is not a date.”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ She fluttered her eyes shut as he kissed her head, waiting patiently for him to come back as she pulled her shorts off and just pulled up her underwear and threw her shirt back on. As he came back, she listened, leaning into him and then looked at him. “Okay. Anything else you need to tell me?” She said to him, giving him the opportunity to be honest. “Khai if you hook up with him....I’ll never forgive you.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He continued to smoke on his cigarette and leaned back into the couch. Placing the ashtray on his thigh as he looked over at her. “Yeah” he nodded. Taking another drag to calm his nerves as his other hand rested on her leg. “I kissed Shea” he said softly. Ashing his cigarette before taking another long drag. “Hooked up with him?” he said as he breathed out the smoke. “When would I have even had a chance?” he asked. A little surprised she said she would never forgive him.

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “I don’t know Khai. He’s the guy you’re still in love with.” She shrugged. “I know you want me to trust you so at this rate, I’m putting my trust in not just you, but Roman too.” She raised her brows and then pushed her face into her hands. Kissing shea? Really? “Khai...” she said, her leg shaking as she tried to think. “No comment.” She said shaking her head because if she said anymore, it would turn into an argument and that’s the last thing she wanted. But it hurt. He did exactly what she was afraid he’d do.

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “I’m always gonna love him, Emily. I think that’s a little unfair.” He knew she was hurt but he didn’t say anything more. He didn’t wanna fight either but he knew this was what he had to do. He needed to get these other people out of his thoughts and off his radar. “I’m sorry. I just really wanted to” he said honestly. “I love you though. Not him.” He took another drag before putting out his smoke and moving the ashtray. “Emily, I told you I would never cheat on you, and I know this is hard. I do, I get it, and I hate myself for it. But I’m fucked up. I’m trying to be what you want but I can’t do that as long as I’m bottling up what if’s.” Sure that probably didn’t help his argument.  But he wanted to be so honest. He was used to open relationships and he was happy with the freedom. It didn’t mean he wanted her any less. In fact he wanted her more

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily listened to him. Khai was no fool. He knew when he would hurt her. He knew when she was happy and he sure as hell knew when she was sad. However, what he just said: that was what she had been waiting for. That raw and open honesty. She barely got this last night at the hospital and it was likely because of the drugs. He knew how hard this was and he was actually understanding her position in all of this. “Khai.” She said lowly, and crawled into his lap, wrapping herself around him so tightly. “Thank you. That’s all I needed to hear.” He was trying. He was finally proving what she had asked. Pulling back, she kissed him passionately, and then smiled back at him. “I know you hate saying it but damn it, Khai. I love you. I really love you.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He wrapped his arms around her as she crawled into his lap and he kissed her back slowly and intimately. Pulling back to look deep into her eyes. “I don’t hate saying it. I love you too” he replied. Leaning his head against hers and he breathed deeply. “Please don’t say you won’t forgive me. I need you”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ She pressed her forehead to his and then chuckled. “Ok my bad. Saying it so much.” She laughed, getting serious as he kissed her back and she looked right into his eyes. She knew there was not a bone in her that couldn’t forgive him. No matter if she tried. Cupping his face, she nodded. “I’m sorry. I was...In my feelings. I should not have said that.” She told him honestly. “You have my heart, Malakhai Ozera. I’m yours and I can’t wait to be your girl again.” She said happily, kissed him again, passionately before turning around and picking up another cigarette. “Shot gun?”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “Don’t ever apologize for that” he said softly. Kissing her again before looking into her eyes. “I know, it’s okay. I just... I don’t wanna lose you. I know it’s hard to be with me right now. But you are my girl. You’re the one I come back to every time.” He watched her grab a cigarette and chuckled softly. “You wanna shot gun a cig?” he asked with a raised brow. “You sure?”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily nodded, loving that he was finally understanding her stand point. She was starting to wonder if he ever would. “It may be hard Khai, but I’m still here. No matter how mad you make me, you can ask loren, I never let go. Loren, he praises us all the time and keeps me in line. He sees the love between us. So i know what we have is real and it’s strong.” She said to him, biting her lip. “You’re my person, Khai.” She teared up, smiling. “Like, you’re all I want in a man. Flaws and all. You’re mine.” She covered her face, trying to stop the tears and cleared her throat. “Ehemm yes.” She said, pointing to the cig. “I wanna try it.”(edited)

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ Khai’s eyes started to tear up as he watched her. Her words meaning so much to him. That’s all he ever wanted, someone to stay and not leave him. He wanted to be enough and he was trying to be. It was never about double standards or hurting her for him. He was honestly just a mess. He leaned in and kissed her again before nodding his head. “Okay,  but don’t say I didn’t warn you” he smiled.

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily saw him tear up which let her know he understood every word. It was in these moments, not much more needed to be said. They had a bond That could not be broken. Smiling, she kissed him back and then she nodded. “I’ll choke. I’m sure but let’s try it.” She snickered. “I’m ready.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He put the cigarette in his mouth and lit it up inhaling deeply. Using his finger he motioned for her to come closer and he blew her a shot gun right between her lips

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ She inhaled, a little sharply but not trying to do it like she would weed. Weed it was a lot easier. However, this stung. She leaned back, coughing a little bit smiling as she blew the smoke out. “Wow.” She laughed, tucking her head in the crook of his neck. “I liked it.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He watched her and smiled as she coughed softly. Wrapping his arm around her as she tucked her face into his neck. “Yeah?” He asked. “You looked so sexy” he complimented. Kissing her head before continuing to smoke the cigarette

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ She could lay like this forever. Right in his hold. She brought her arms up, wrapping loosely around his neck as she watched him smoke the cigarette. Damn he looked so good. “If there’s one habit I don’t want you to kick, it’s this.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He laughed looking at her and shook his head. “I don’t think you have to worry about that. Or weed” he said honestly. “I’m too addicted to the burn”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ She pulled her face towards him, looking up at him with her big brown eyes. “And I’m addicted to your kisses because of it.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “Oh that’s why huh?” He asked with a chuckle. “Here you finish it” he said handing her the half smoked cigarette

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily looked up at her lover, and then at the cigarette. Could she even do this? She was such a rookie. But she brought it to her mouth, taking a hit and blowing out the smoke, smiling up at him as she finished it off and sitting up to put it in the ashtray. “Done.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He watched her with a smile until his phone chimed in his pocket. He pulled it out and looked at it sending a couple texts back and forth before putting it away. “I should probably go” he said. His eyes looking a bit sad

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Is it Landon?” She asked, knowing they were looking to meet up soon. She took a deep breath and crawled out of his lap. It sucked to see him go but she knew hed be back soon. “Have fun.” She said with a light smile. “I’ll miss you.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “No, it’s not” he said shaking his head. “I just need to get some sleep before I meet up with him.”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “I mean...do you have to leave now?” She asked, her eyes growing sad. “Can’t you just...sleep here?”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ He looked at her with his eyes tearing up. “I’m sorry” he said shaking his head. “Yeah, I can. I just need a minute.”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Khai what is it?”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “It’s nothing... just... Roman. It’s fine” he said. Clearing his throat and swallowing back tears. “It’s fine. I’m sorry. I’m gonna stay. Okay”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Emily pulled khai’s face to hers. “Hey. Talk to me. What’s going on?” She knew how much roman meant to him so she wanted to be there for him.(edited)

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ She pulled his face to hers and he just lost it. Pressing his forehead to hers with his eyes closed as his tears fell. “It’s fine... really” he choked out

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ “Khai, I know how much he means to you. You can talk to me. Look at how upset you are, baby. What’s wrong?” She held him, rubbing his back. “I’ll just listen. Talk to me.”

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “I don’t... I don’t wanna... talk about it” he hyperventilated. Just holding her and trying to relax

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Okay she wasn’t going to force it out of him but it broke her heart to see him this way. “Come here baby.” She said, lying down with him on the couch, holding him close and pulling a blanket over them both. “I’ve got you, okay. I don’t know what happened but I’m here. I love you.” She told him, kissing his forehead, and wiping his tears as she pressed her forehead to his.(edited)

ღ 𝕂нαι ღ “I don’t wanna... be this upset. I’m really sorry. I am” he said laying against her. “I’m just... I’m never... enough for him” he cried more. “Fuck... stop it Khai” he told himself. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”

❈ Ⲉⲙⲓ𝓵ⲩ ❈ Oh that hurt her. Not her but to hear him say something so silly about himself. She cupped his face and looked him dead in the eye. “You listen to me Malakhai. You ARE enough. Do you hear me? That’s his loss. Not yours. You will ALWAYS be enough. Remember what I just told you? You are everything I want in a man. You ARE enough for me. Your flaws, your pros, your cons, your smile, your laugh, your cry. You ARE enough. If he turned the cheek, that’s on him baby. That’s not on you.” She kissed his forehead, pulling him close. “I’m so sorry Khai but don’t ever talk like that. I love you.” She would say it a million times to let him know how special he was to her.

Loren. Loren walked into Jace’s room not even bothering to knock. He figured there wasn’t anything he hadn’t seen before and knowing he was alone definitely helped. “Hey, bb” he smiled softly as he sat on the bed beside him. “What’s up?”

Jace he took a deep breath. “This is some hard ass shit were going through.” He finally spat out. “Like I don’t feel like myself.” He said to him, turning to look at his ex. “I hate this”

Loren. Loren was staring at Jace like it was the last time he would ever seen him. He was fully expecting him to say  he wanted to be with someone else. But the words he said shocked him. “I feel the same way” he said honestly. “I just don’t want to keep pushing you. Especially after the other night. I just... I miss you.”

Jace “i don’t feel pushed. I just feel lost.” He said inhaling sharply. “Shea and I kissed.” He said out loud. “And I want you to know that because I’d rather you find out through me than someone else.”

Loren. Hearing his words made his heart sink. Even though he had half expect it, it hurt a lot worse than he thought it would. “Okay...” he forced out before standing up again. “Is that all?”

Jace “no! No.” He said to him, looking up. “It happened really fast Loren. I didn’t really see it coming.” He told him truthfully. “But I have liked him and I would lie if I said I didn’t like it? But it was just that: a kiss. We haven’t done that or anything else since then.” He shrugged.

Loren. Loren just stared at him. He really didn’t know what to say or how to feel. He pressed his lips together and shifted his eyes away for a moment to try and gather his thoughts. “I don’t know what you want me to say, Jace. That it’s okay? Cause it doesn’t feel okay at all.”

Jace “I never thought you’d be okay with it.” He told him truthfully. “I just wanted you to know before finding out some other grimiest way.”

Loren. “Well good, because I’m not” he informed. “Is that what you wanted to talk about?” He was trying so hard to stay calm and not show how upset he was by everything that had gone on.  But it was hard and he knew Jace could tell he was about to lose it.

Jace “no.” He said looking up at him. “I also mean us Loren. I feel pushed into this break up.” He sighed, hanging his head and cradling it in his hands. “Please don’t yell at me. I know you’re mad.”

Loren. “Yeah, we kinda just jumped the gun and I was stupid. I thought I wanted... you know what it doesn’t matter what I thought because like I said.. I’m stupid. Sometimes things happen in life that force you to misread situations. Or maybe I just don’t really know how to be a good friend. I don’t know, Jace. But you’re the one I’ve always been in love with, and I’m so fucking sorry I took that for granted. I’m nothing without you.. but you kissed him. You like him, you said so yourself. So now what?”

Jace “I know what you mean.” He sighed and then turned to look at him. “I don’t know but I don’t like this. I don’t like being without you.” He looked up. “I liked us. Loved us. We were gonna be married.” He nearly sobbed. “I just- I’m so broken.”

Loren. “I don’t like being without you either, Jace. But I can’t do what you did. I can’t sit on the side line and pretend it’s okay that you might wanna be with him. I told Emily that too, that you’re a lot stronger than me. But you know damn well if you’d drop him I’d be right here waiting.”

Jace “you ARENT listening. At all.” Jace said turning to look at him. “I am saying that he kissed me. It just happened. You’re main focus is that it happened but how do you think I felt when you desperately Needed emily.”

Loren. Loren sat back down onto the bed when Jace rose his voice to him. He hadn’t really been talked to like that.. well, since Dom. It kind of shook him a little but it was also kind of hot to see Jace take control like that. “Okay, you’re right. I’m sorry” he nodded slowly. “I’m listening. Just tell me what you want baby. Because I’m already yours.”

Jace “I don’t know.” he said falling back on the bed. “I felt so pushed. I liked being  open. But I don’t like not being able to be with you”

Loren. “Yeah” he sighed. “Just do what you want, Jace. I’m not here to keep you from being with anyone. But if and when you do want me. You know exactly where I am.”

Jace “you literally just don’t get it- I want you loren. Idk how many ways I have to say it”

Loren. “No, I get it, and I said if you want me you know where I am. The only person keeping you from me is you.”

Jace “what the fuck? How?”

Loren. “Because you keep saying you want me and you don’t do anything about it. I was throwing myself at you the other night and you said you needed space. I’m trying to give you space. But I’m right here. I’m right here Jace. Do something about it.”

Jace “do I have to have sex with you in order to prove how bad I want you?”

Loren. “What? No. I didn’t say that at all” he scoffed. “I’m just saying, if you want me I’m right here. I don’t know how else to say it. All you need to do is tell me what you want. Open relationship? Closed relationship? Sex only? A break? Whatever it is you need to tel me cause I’m right here. I love you.”

Jace “I don’t like the break. It’s sucks” he sighed. “I love our sex.” He said to him. “I liked it open.” He admitted and then turned to look at him. “I just want my boyfriend back”

Loren. “Okay, then you have me” he said simply. “But I don’t want him here and I don’t wanna know shit about it either.”

Jace “okay loren. Damn.” He rolled his eyes, swallowing hard as he sat up on the bed. “Thanks for talking”

Loren. It wasn’t that Loren was trying to be harsh. It just hurt him to the core even thinking about Jace being with anyone else. “I mean, he can come for the party of course. But, I’d rather not think about you two doing it in here” he said honestly. It was bad enough he had to think about Emily and Nick in her room. “I’m just ready to settle and when you are let me know.”

Jace “so you’re done...with everyone?” He asked him. “No one else?”

Loren. “Yeah, I’m done. No one else” he confirmed.

Jace “no one else? Then what was going on in the hot tub?”

Loren. “That was nothing. I thought you were moving on so I was trying to as well. But I couldn’t go through with it. You’re the one I want Jace. You’ve always been the one.”

Jace “I get kissed by one guy and suddenly I’m moving on...” he shook his head. “You know me better than that, Loren.”

Loren. “I didn’t know what was happening, Jace. Hell, I didn’t even know he kissed you until just now. But yeah, my mind went to the worst possible scenario and I freaked out. I’m sorry, I just, I don’t know how to be without you.”

Jace “so I’m here now.” He said to him sternly, trying to wash the pain out of his face. “If you want to be open and do that, okay. But if not, it has to stop”

Loren. “I’m here too. I’ve always been here” he said honestly. “I don’t want anyone but you. But it goes both ways.”

Jace “you keep saying that like I’ve done something.” He raised a brow. “I’m telling you I’m here.”

Loren. “No, baby. I believe that you haven’t. I’m just trying to make sure we’re both on the same page. No one else but each other. Just us.”

Jace he took a deep breath. A long one. And nodded. He knew this was best for them. It just still hurt they had even come to this. “Okay” he said to him, nodding.

Loren. Loren moved closer to Jace as he let out a deep breath. It was obvious that everything that had happened between them since their trip, hurt them both immensely. But Loren was willing to put in the work to get them back to where they needed to be. “I love you” he said softly as he cupped his hands around Jace’s face. “Always, my beautiful boy” and with those words he leaned in to kiss him soundly.

Jace the minute his lips touched Loren’s Jace completely crumbled. He was so heartbroken by the fact they had broken up That this was the first time he’d actually released every ounce of pain he had. He was so strong but in this moment, he felt weak. He tried to kiss loren back but barely could as the tears finally broke free from his eyes.

Loren. Jace was a lot different than Loren. He would hold in all his hurt until he quite literally couldn’t anymore. But Loren on the other hand would just wild out and take his pain out on everyone around. Seeing Jace break down though, it hurt him too. He pulled him into his arms and just held him. Rocking him back and forth as he kissed his temple. “I know baby” he said softly. “But I’m here and I’m never going anywhere ever again. I promise.”

Jace he was used to people leaving. This is what they did. And here loren was about to do that. And what sucked was having to see him. Having to watch him just meters away from him doing something with someone else and trying to play like it wasn’t bothering him. He lied down next to loren, resting his face against his chest, trying k steady his breathing as he gripped on to loren like it was the last time he was going to be able to be held like that.

Loren. It wasn’t like Loren was out there intentionally seeking to hurt Jace. He honestly felt like he had lost him, and he let his jealous get the better of him. He didn’t want anything like this to ever happen again and he would spend the rest of his life making sure that it didn’t. He kissed the top of Jaces head as he held onto him tightly and he felt his own tears trail down his cheek. It was so hard for him to grasp that he has actually hurt the person he loved this badly. It made him a bit weary about whether or not they would actually be okay. But he loved Jace, and he was willing to do whatever he needed to in order to keep him. “I’m so sorry, baby. It’s over, it’s all over. It’s just us. Just like it was always meant to be.”

Jace “I b-believe you.” He said softly, still trying to grasp everything that had happened in such a short amount of time. “I’m sorry too.” He finally breathed out, keeping his eyes shut as he stayed cradled by Loren, trying to wipe his own tears

Loren. He wished so much that he could take all the pain away. That none of this had ever happened to them and that they had never broken up. Hell, they didn’t even do that right. “Jace...” he breathed out as he used his thumbs to dry his lovers tears. “Marry me? For real this time. You’re the only person I want for the rest of my life.”

Jace "Y-you still want to m-marry me?"

Loren. “More than anything in the world.”

Jace "Okay." he said softly. "Fuck yeah, i'll marry you."

Shea Shea kept his drums in the garage space he rented on the first floor of his apartment building. He told Khai to meet him there and made his way down. It was a typical garage band space and the lights flickered if they played loud enough. He left the door opened until Khai arrived and flopped down on the couch to scroll through his phone while he waited.

𝕂нαι As soon as Khai arrived he knocked on the open door. Popping his head in with a smile and his hands filled with bags. “Hey babe, I brought you breakfast for dinner. Hope you’re hungry.”

Shea Shea sat up when he heard the knock. “That looks like a lot of food for breakfast, damn,” he said and got up to grab a bag from him. “Is this take out or did you cook it?”

𝕂нαι “Yeah, it is” he laughed. Handing Shea a bag and following him inside. “I made it. It’s an English breakfast. Bacon, fried eggs, sausage, mushrooms, baked beans, cheese toast, grilled tomatoes, and some butter  tea.” He took a seat on the couch and opened one of the bags before pulling out a bottle of butter tea. Shaking it as he smiled at Shea. “Don’t worry. My dads a chef. Taught me everything I know.” He’s probably said that before. But right now he couldn’t remember.

Shea Shea opened the bag to peek inside as he followed Khai to the couch and sat down next to him, making a 4 with his legs and opening the food while he shook a bottled tea. “Holy shit,” he muttered. “And here I was expecting like cereal or a muffin. But then again I think Emily mentioned you were a little chef. I wasn’t aware that’s what you’re father did...” he looked at Khai. “Maybe you said it and I was too drunk and stoned to remember. He’s in England right?”

𝕂нαι He watched Shea as he leaned back into the couch and nodded his head. “Yeah, he wanted me to take over for him but... then I wasn’t good enough. So fuck him” he snickered. “But yeah, he’s in England. He’s gotta whole chain out there.” He took a drink of his tea and looked around the garage. “This is a nice set up babe. Very private.”

Shea She’s nodded, “alright yeah, fuck em, because this smells amazing.” He looked down deciding what to try first, picking out a piece of bacon with his fingers and taking a bite. He nodded again  and muttered, “yeah fuck him,” quietly, enjoying his bacon. Then he looked back over at Khai and snorted. “I think this is the first time I’ve seen you drink something that’s not tequila.” Then he nodded. “Yeah my band mates and I split the rent, it does the job.”

𝕂нαι Khai smiled as Shea muttered under his breath and then stood up to walk around. “Oh yeah? That’s a shame. You got any tequila?” he asked raising his brow. “I like it”’he said softly going over to the mic and tapping it softly.

Shea Shea chuckled a little. “I don’t know if I have tequila but there might be a bottle of gin in the cooler that hasn’t been opened,” he mentioned watching Khai. Shea shoved his food aside and reached down on the other end of the couch to flip the switch to the amp the mic was connected too. “Are you going to serenade me with some music while I dine?” He laughed.

𝕂нαι Looking over to Shea with a grin he nodded his head. “Maybe later. You know I’m gonna need my fix eventually.” Once the amp was on he tapped the mic again. “I could...  but I don’t wanna make you puke” he teased. “Besides, what would I sing?”

Shea Shea laughed a little. He ate a little more of Khai’s food before shutting the container. He got up and pulled out the acoustic guitars from the case on the floor. He sat down on a stool. “I might be rusty so excuse me if I mess up,” he started. He strumed a couple times before he started playing the cords to the Killers song. He started singing some of the lyrics to get Khai started, with a cheeky smile on his face, “coming out of my cage and I’ve been doing just fine... “ it was always fun to fool around with cliche songs for warm up.

𝕂нαι Watching Shea he licked his lips and walked over to stand behind him. His eyes following his fingers on the strings as he played and started singing. “You have a good voice” he said nodding along to the music. “I don’t know the lyrics though” he laughed. Humming along to sheas voice as he continued to play.

Shea Shea shook his head, then he abruptly paused when Khai said he didn’t know the lyrics. “You don’t know this song!?” He asked in shock. “How do you not know Mr. Brightside?”

𝕂нαι “I know the song just not the lyrics” he chuckled. “Keep singing though, I like listening to you. He moved over to sit on the floor in front of him and looked up at him. “Serenade me mr. brightside.”

Shea Shea looked down at him with a raised eyebrow. “I’m really no singer.” He strummed the guitar a few times and laughed. “I feel like a youth paster like this,” he said before he slide off the stool and onto the carpeted floor. “You’re the singer here so we need to find a song you know the lyrics too.”

𝕂нαι Khai chewed his bottom lip as he sat indian style on the floor. A soft chuckle passing his lips as he watched Shea move to join him. “I told you, I’m more of an r&b singer. I do know some queen and some Aerosmith though.”

Shea Shea shrugged, “it doesn’t matter, sing whatever you want too.” He told him. “I can ... most likely follow along. We’re just warming up anyway.” He nodded at Khai. “Don’t get shy now, you’re the one that went to the mic,” he smirked.

𝕂нαι Khai laughed and shook his head. “Alright... hows this..” he cleared his throat. “ I could stay awake just to hear you breathin. Watch you smile while you are sleeping. While you're far away and dreaming “ He sang. His eyes looking straight at Shea

Shea Shea imediately knew the lyrics and waited for the second like to start strumming a few chords along to it. He nodded to coax him along. He smiled a little and continue to play for him.

𝕂нαι When shea started playing, Khai smiled. Licking his lips as he watched him before continuing to sing. “ I could spend my life in this sweet surrender. I could stay lost in this moment forever... Oh, every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure. Don't want to close my eyes.. I don't want to fall asleep. ‘Cause I'd miss you, babe, and I don't want to miss a thing “

Shea “*cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do. I’d still miss you babe, and I don’t wanna miss a thing,” Shea sang along with the second part of the chorus and picking up his beat with his foot.    He continued to play until Khai was ready to stop. Then spoke up, “I’m not surprised you would pick the ballad,” he teased.

𝕂нαι Once they stopped singing Khai blushed softly. “Not surprised?” he asked with a soft laugh. “I have a ballad voice, what can I say? You though... so sexy” he nodded.

Shea Shea laughed a little. “Okay I won’t lie, you definitely have a pure voice.” Then he shook his head. “Absolutely not, I told you I’m not a singer. I really don’t know what you’re listing to that you think I’m good at it.” He laughed some more. “I think you should sing one of your songs now.”

𝕂нαι “Well thank you. I appreciate that” he continued to blush. Pushing his hair back as he shook his head. “You do not have a bad voice. I like it.” He nodded his head and licked his lips again. “Okay... another ballad?” he asked with a chuckle. “I have this one song... it goes... We're so late nights, Red eyes, amnesia, on ice. Late nights, red eyes, amnesia, I need ya.... Right now I can't see straight. Intoxicated it's true, When I'm with you. I'm buzzing and I feel laced. I’m  coming from a different phase. When I'm with you “He sang as his hand clasped together in his lap. His eyes watching Shea as he stopped singing and shrugged.

Shea Shea gave a soft sigh. “Well, thanks,” he finally accepted the compliment and half shrugged. Shea nodded at him as he decided on another song. He listened and nodded along for the first few lines. But instead of strumming he found himself taping the guitar with a slow beat along with Khai’s voice. He looked at him when he stopped. “There’s no more?” He asked, curious.

𝕂нαι “No, not yet” he shrugged. “It’s a work in progress. “Maybe I need some inspiration. He lifted to his knees and grabbed the guitar from Shea putting it to the side. Crawling a bit closer to the other boy before leaning over him. Their faces close enough to feel each other’s breath as he reached over him. “Sorry, just needed my tea” he grinned. His eyes falling to Sheas lips as he grabbed the bottle but didn’t move.

Shea Shea raised his eyebrows. “Emily’s not a good inspiration for it?” He mentioned before he flashed a confused expression when Khai took the guitar. Moments later he was too close for comfort and naturally Shea started to lean out of his way before he realized exactly what Khai was doing. He caught eyes with Khai briefly before he noticed them drop. “Yeah... just your tea,” he said, playfully mocking him.

𝕂нαι “Maybe it’s not about her” he replied. His eyes moving back up to Shea’s as he tried to back up from him. Khai placed his hand on Sheas face before smiling devilishly. “Mhm... for my tea” he nodded. Leaning in and kissing Shea softly on the lips.

Shea “So it’s about Roman...” he said quietly. His eyes were looking down until they trailed back up to Khai who was still leaning in close to him, now with his hand on Shea’s face instead of the tea. A moment later he was feeling Khai’s lips on his own. He blinked and his eyes widened a little even though he knew it was coming. He was actually surprised Khai held out all this time between all the flirting about it. It was a weird sensation, but Khai’s lips were just soft enough for Shea to not pull away and make things even more awkward.

𝕂нαι Khai just shook his head and ignored any indication Shea might not be comfortable with him so close. His lips pressing into the other males with a slow luring movement. His eyes were closed but he could feel Shea’s eyes on him. It made him smile against his lips as he continued to kiss him. His hand moving to the back of his head to grab a fist full of curls. Toying at the boys lips with his tongue like asking for permission to enter his mouth.

Shea Khai continued to go for it, and for a moment, Shea was just letting it happen. It was just a kiss right? Until Khai’s hand was in his hair and his tongue on his lips. Shea contimplated entertaining this, but then convinced himself this wasn’t right. He pressed both of his hands into Khai’s torso to push him off a little bit, and pull his head back, breaking the kiss. “Um,” he tried to say something, but that was the extent of what came out of his mouth and then he swallowed hard. Unable to think of how to say anything really.

𝕂нαι Khai was fully expecting Shea to stop him. He was honestly surprised it lasted as long as it did. When he was pushed back he let go of Shea’s hair and whined softly. Sitting  back on his knees as he watched the other males reaction. “Was that okay?” he asked. Licking his lips before pulling the bottom between his teeth.

Shea Shea’s expression was mostly blank. He too licked his lips. Suddenly his mouth felt dry & adrenaline flipped his stomach. He started at khai for a few more moments before he cleared his throat and sat up, pushing khai back with his hands some more. “I um, I should go, I gotta get up early for work tomorrow,” he said quietly. He scooted back to stand up and turned around. He placed 4 of his didgets over his lips for a moment, before he turned to pick up the guitar and put it back.

𝕂нαι When Shea pushed him it knocked him back and he caught himself with his hand. “Hey, wait” he said getting up to go after him. It wasn’t until he turned back aground to get his guitar that Khai stopped. “Stop, please” he asked. Placing his hand on Shea’s shoulder. “Don’t go please. I’m sorry.”

Shea Shea was putting the guitar back in the case. “This isn’t even mine I probably shouldn’t be playing it,” he muttered, before Khai touched his shoulder to stop him. He met Khai’s eyes finally. “Do you know what you just got me into?” He asked.

𝕂нαι Khai just watched Shea, he was obviously battling with what he just did. “No, I don’t” he said softly. “Shea, it’s just a kiss. I’m free to do what I want and I wanted to kiss you. If you don’t want that. I won’t do it again.”

Shea Shea just started shaking his head. Did he himself even know what he got into? For some reason it just felt like this shouldn't have happened, but Khai had a point. He still looked at Khai. "Don't you love Emily?"

𝕂нαι Khai just looked at Shea and shrugged his shoulders. “Of course I do. But, it’s not about that. I just wanted to kiss you. I’m sorry okay?” He moved his hand from Shea’s shoulder and walked over to where his tea was still sitting. “I’m sorry” he muttered again. Shea was his friend and above all else he felt like he just ruined that.

Shea Shea stepped back from him when he moved to go grab his tea. He reached up and pulled at his bottom lip before letting it snap back and looked at his feet on the floor. He heard his apology again, and he started chewing on the inside of his cheek. "Well don't..." he muttered quietly. He knew what Khai was like. Shea was his friend after all and was starting to think they were close. He knew Khai teased him about kissing and flirting but he never thought anything of it. Clearly it seemed like the close intentions were a whole different ball game with Khai and Shea did not want to get caught up in his roller coaster of a love life like this. He liked being his friend.

𝕂нαι “Fine, I won’t” he said softly. Khai had never met someone like Shea. Someone who was not only brutally honest. But someone who didn’t wanna take advantage of his body when it was offered to them. “I’m just gonna go” he said. Taking another sip of his tea before putting the cap back on. “You enjoy the breakfast. It’s all for you.” With those words he started to walk towards the door.