#fromthevoidd

oh, mazzaroth, my monster baby <3

i have already published like 29 chapters, i sometimes talk about it on here [#mazzaroth] and you can find some info about the MC here

it's wammy's fic during L's time there. it's very niche in every way you can think of - oc-centric, 1st person pov, half diary-half narration, very character-driven and so on. you must have my same reading preferences to like it, in my opinion, which is difficult. also, i am very slow at updating it and now it's also on hiatus, so the writing is... not going great.

the first part is set between 1988 and 1991. it's supposed to be around 200 chapters (insane), and it's more about exploring the wammy's house as i see it (which seems to be quite different from the interpretation of most of the fandom), seeing L interact with other people and lay the groundwork for the second and third part, so the reader is on Ethe's side and then switches and then doesn't know how to feel, because you'll end up piting her but she is not a good person (she is 🎀just a girl🎀 to me, but... she is not going to heaven, if we want to use some christianity reference. not even if she repents).

it's from the point of view of the MC, because I didn't want to follow L and showcase exactly what he thinks. also i am a sucker for first person, so it is easier for me to write. besides, since it's character driven, i am exploring ethe's descend into madness aka how conduct disorder can be exacerbated if there isn't the appropriate support system. the wammy's itself is not physically abusive, but there are instances of violence between the kids and neglect, so it's not peaches and roses, but i am also trying not to villainize it since in the end, it is also a safe place for the kids and they have their own attachement to it, especially if they come from problematic backgrounds like the one Ethe comes from. last thing, the writing is convoluted and more mature, even in how these kids interact or Ethe writes her diary, because of future things that will be revealed, but one thing i can say is that the "mazzaroth series" part of summary (pasted below) points out why it is like that.

the second part is only about the year 1993. 14 chapters in total. i have not written a single word but i know it has to be 14.

the third part is about catching up with L and the OCs as adults, basically to witness their downfall.

overall, it's canon complaint. so it's more about filling in the gaps of L's life, rather than rewriting his future. it serves also to explain some of his traits, in a way, through the lens of trauma, yeah.

this is the summary:

PART ONE OF THREE: YEARS 1988 - 1991 L said that if he were to encounter lying monsters, he would likely be eaten by them, and I suppose I was starving when I first met him. MAZZAROTH SERIES: You realise the impact of something's presence in your life only when it's gone. As you relive those memories that you can't change, you find yourself at a crossroad: either leave them in the past or use them as a fuel to destroy the cause of why things ended up in some way.

and i don't know what else to say, so i am going to share something from a chapter (2nd december 1988) i have yet to publish lmao

a bit of context: Ethe hates L. She hates being around L, talking to him, seeing him - everything about him. She just can't stand him. She will only talk if she can insult him or gain something from him. She doesn't answer his questions and if she does, that means she is lying. Here, Rae is her friend and called her a hypocrite for something and is now giving her the silent treatment.

Car with a hat

first of all, YELLOW CAR 👊👊

don't know how I missed this, sorry !! BUT YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY :<

DEALTARUNE. DELTARUNE YESTERDAY, MY DEAREST. DELTARUNE YESTERDAY, MY ESTIMATE.

I AM AWARE