Remember | A From Fanfic | Intro
You know that feeling before you reach the drop of a rollercoaster? That uneasiness pulling in your gut knowing that something is coming. Impending doom, some would call it.
Since I was young, its been constant.
It was a constant pull in my stomach, low and tight, like a knot that had been tied there before I was old enough to notice. Not too painful, but a constant reminder of uneasiness.
Like that suspended moment where your body already knows what’s coming, even if your mind hasn’t caught up yet. It has never left me.
It followed me through everything. Every achievement, every heartache.
Quiet mornings. Ordinary conversations. Laughing at things that were supposed to feel normal.Even then, underneath it all, there it was—that slow, sinking anticipation.
As if vertigo was going to hit me at any second, but it never hits.
I grew up thinking this was normal. That everyone felt it. Thinking maybe this was just what being alive meant, and nobody talked about it.
But as I got older, I started to realize other people weren’t constantly bracing for impact. They weren't in a constant state of waiting. Waiting for the glass to shatter. They weren’t waiting for the drop.
They weren’t listening for something that never fully arrived.
I spent so many nights begging and pleading the sky to finally hit me. Finally show me what I have been waiting for. I spent so many sleepless nights clawing at my stomach and screaming into my pillow.
I have never felt that relief.
Never have I felt that stillness.
Well, that was until I saw that tree in the road.
