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SUp I lied I'm gunna write again

I was reading my old stuff from awhile ago and thought I'd write again just because I felt like it and I'm rather bored.

I finally finished up these acting classes I've been taking, one on on camera acting and another learning about different acting techniques and how to tell the stories of songs and things like that (it was super interesting and schtuff)

I was told that I "could sell wood to a forest" (I had the coolest on camera teacher)

Found out I'm not good at portraying "love" in a character, and acting as like disney princes and what not (which is something I need to work on, thank you typecasting) but I found that strange. I'm working hard on it though.

Being a part of this acting group in a nearby community has made me so fucking happy. It's such a different feel than the high school stuff I've done since like freshmen year. I have learned so much, and everybody there takes it very seriously but it's still so much fun. I have met the most amazing talented people I can't even begin to describe. In such a short time they have really made an impact on me.

Things have been going really, really well. It's nice to be gone from all the negativity that I had to deal with this time last year and earlier this year. It's practically all behind me. And I'm definitely not complaining. I barely see certain people anymore and when I do I'm not immediately thrown back into any negativity, but it's nicer when I'm not around them. I don't feel any real  connection to them anymore which I am, again, not complaining about.

I'm going to NYU this summer to study screen acting for a month. I'll be living in the dorms and working with kids from around the country in different programs too. only 16 kids in the nation get accepted into each program. I smile whenever I think about going. (I have to miss lollapalooza but whatever, I'll be in New York! FUCK YEA)

After these next two weeks of shows finish up, I'll finally have some free time. That'll be weird. I'm going to start running again though, I've been eating really unhealthily and gaining some weight and that's a no no.

Gotta stay fit!

Can't think of anything else!

Seeya

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2 things I'm gunna talk about

1. My buddy and student director of the show I was just in, Bruh-bruh-brad (if you're reading this, this is my note to you cuz you missed the little web thing and so I'm writing this as a lil suprise for you when you decide to read my tumblr)

We should not be friends. There is no one on earth who would have paired the two of us together, and only god (or whatever higher being) knows how the fuck we get along despite not being similar at all. But I think that's a lie. I think we are more similar than we both think. Hopefully that's not an insult to you. We connect, given on a strange level, but I like to think we really do see eye to eye and we learn from each other. Or maybe I just learn from you hahaha. You're sense and skill as a director (aka you're self-proclaimed "nit-picky bitchiness") is honestly amazing. I can't imagine the show being half of what it was if you weren't there. You've got an eye for detail with plays that not a lot of people have, so use it wisely my friend. I see you as an equal, but I also look up to you at the same time.

To wrap it up, you're a really fucking great guy Brad, I can't imagine doing theatre without you. And I'm glad, despite our apparent differences, we still get along awesomely.

On a completely Numbah 2:

I'm fucking free. Holy shit it's amazing. All i needed was some time to myself. away from everything. I spent some time in Costa Rica and just let myself slow down and breathe and relax and I woke up one day, look at the sunrise (and damn was it a fucking good one) and I could feel it was gone. The light that I saw in her, I couldn't find it anymore. gone. The emotions towards the people causing me the most stress disappeared. 

My mind was just like "No more. You're done." and cut the ties. Part of me is a little freaked out because I'm like "were my emotions real? they were pretty damn strong." It felt a bit robotic for me to just kinda have them shut off like that. And the weirder part still is that I don't feel anything towards her now. nothing whatsoever. She's just another person that I met, and will most likely end up forgetting in the future, just like what I am to her. And i don't mean that in like a "boo hoo hoo" kind of way but as a matter of fact. I've grown. I can move on, and stop being that dumb little love struck kid obsessed with getting what he cant have and what isn't good for him. and she can move on and no longer feel guilty. Now I can put complete focus on the beautiful girl that i have now and I can cherish her and give her the affection and love that she deserves.

You win some, you lose some.

But damn does it feel good to be free

also I think this will be my last Tales From

So I have officially set up a bandcamp account as Caleb Kerr (Kerr is my mom's maiden name and Caleb Kerr just sounds cooler then my other last name so Kerr it will be!)

This is kinda big for me, because I feel like I'm taking the next step into the music world.

I'm currently trying to figure out if this is an appropriate time to make a facebook page for me as a musician, but I don't want to get ahead of myself.

I put up a single Call Me Yours which I made for a friend of mine, but I was really proud of how it turned out while recording it.

IDK I may just be getting to ahead of myself :P

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