So I sometimes have this reoccurring thought that's basically a waste of my time but I don't quite understand how you can completely detach yourself of someone. As far as a romantic relationship, I can understand it, I've done it. But when it comes to a really close friendship I have a hard time. I had a friend in my life, a best friend. I had known her for 10+ years. We went through a lot, a great big friendship, an out of city move, an out of province move, we reunited and then she let go. I was going through a really rough time in my life with my parents health but I was also in a great place in my life where I finally found an amazing guy and I was moving in my very own place. We had talked so many times about how much fun we would have when one of us would have our own house but it didn't quite go as intended. I have to say I have my own faults. At points I was very quiet due to my parents health and other issues. I was extremely busy with work because of a new job promotion and moving in was going on. I kept checking in here and there and got minimal responses. She didn't open her arms as much as I thought when the move was happening which really surprised me since I had been there a lot when she moved out. We attempted to make plans to get together but either we already had other plans or her work schedule didn't work. I randomly received a long and hurtful text saying that she deserved a better best friend and that I always seem to put dicks before her.. Anyways there was a lot of back and forth messages where I was trying to understand and let her know that my door was always open. She made a date for coffee that she cancelled a few hours before and I never heard back from her, other than subliminal messages or pictures on social media. I don't understand how you can share such a close bond and memories with someone and just break it off. I put my trust once again in someone who broke it. But I can honestly say of anyone, I didn't think she ever would. I'm working at letting go but sometimes it still hurts and sometimes I still miss our friendship. I don't think I'll ever find one that was like that.
