#freesecretsanta2015

“Makoto-senpai, you’re not Haruka-senpai’s guardian. He could have done something without telling you.”

Haruka buried his head under his pillow after identifying the third voice as Rei’s. He vaguely wondered if he had missed some kind of team meeting; it was fairly common for Makoto and Nagisa to come and go as they pleased, but Rei generally considered it rude to show up uninvited or without notice.

He had almost drifted back into a light sleep when a fourth, painfully recognizable voice spoke: “He never does anything. Check the bath.”

Haruka sat up in his bed, very aware of the puzzled expression etched into his face. When was the last time Rin had been in his house? He blinked his eyes several times to clear away the sleep as he heard someone check in his bathroom and yell that he wasn’t there.

For a moment he wondered if this was all some bizarre dream, in which case he would make sure and never go to bed early again if this was the consequence. But when the light flooded into his room followed by a barrage of voices, he knew something like this could only exist in reality.

With a delighted exclamation, Nagisa all but jumped onto Haruka’s bed. “Haru-chan, wake up! We’re having a sleepover!”

“Isn’t the point to sleep then?” Haruka murmured, attempting to crawl back under the covers.

“Later,” he whined. “For now we watch a movie!”

Haruka eyed the blond from under his blankets. “And who said we could hold this at my house?”

“Ah! I’m sorry, Haruka-senpai! Nagisa-kun made it sound like you knew about this!”

“Haru-chan never minded before.”

“Nagisa, you really should have asked first,” Makoto scolded lightly.

“Haru doesn’t care though,” Rin said. “Do you?”

Haruka blinked at Rin’s tone: one he hadn’t heard since they were young, a combination of smug knowingness that bordered on teasing and genuine asking. He shook his head, because truthfully he didn’t mind. It had been ages since everyone had gotten together purely out of the desire to spend time together. And it has been even longer since any of those times included Rin.

Nagisa cheered at this. “See, Rei-chan? I told you it would be okay.”

Rei mumbled something about being a proper house guest, but dropped the topic after that.

“Should we start the movie?” Makoto suggested.

Nagisa nodded vigorously and held the DVD case up to Haruka’s face, only centimeters from his nose. “This is the one we brought. Rei-chan thought it would suit everyone’s tastes. I wanted to bring a horror movie, but…”

“The dog movie is a better choice,” Makoto interjected.

Haruka frowned as he studied the title. “Makoto, you know this isn’t a happy movie, right?”

“It’s not? But Rei said—”

“It’s a well done movie that had very high ratings and it won’t offend or frightened anyone present. It is a good choice.” Rei pushed up his glasses as a final punctuation.

“Whatever it is, I’m sure it’ll be fine,” Rin said with a small huff. “Are we going to get started or not?”

Everyone looked to Haruka, waiting on him to give the okay. When he nodded again, they all scrambled out of his room, talking excitedly about the night ahead.

By the time Haruka dragged himself out of bed and changed into something other than his pajamas, the rest of them had already set up the movie on his television and were sitting, waiting for him. Nagisa lay on his stomach on the floor, a bag of sweets in front of him, which he offered to Haruka as he walked by. Makoto was also on the floor, leading up against the edge of the couch. Rei sat on the couch near Makoto and looked entirely too stiff to be comfortable; Haruka vaguely wondered if Makoto had chosen his particular seat solely for the purpose of comforting the newest addition to their team. And Rin sat on the opposite side of the couch from Rei, looking forcibly relaxed, his arms sprawled out on the back of the couch, his jaw set and eyebrows drawn together.

Haruka sat between the two of them, holding a pillow in his lap, wondering if the tension he was feeling in the air was just in his imagination.

The movie was, as Haruka predicted, a rather sad one. As the credits rolled, Rin excused himself to the restroom and returned with puffy eyes and a small shake in his voice. Nagisa declared that Rei was no longer allowed to select movies, causing Rei to immediately defend his choice.

With a small chuckle, Makoto said, “It was kind of a sad movie. We should do something fun to take our minds off of it.”

“Swimming?” Haruka offered, more as a reflex than an actual conscious suggestion.

Rin’s face split into a toothy grin. “Yeah, that sounds fun. I mean when was the last time we all swam together just for the fun of it? No competitions, no rivalries…”

“Where would we swim though?” Makoto interjected. Not the ocean, Haruka heard him speak in between his words.

“Iwatobi’s pool isn’t far,” Nagisa suggested, a sly smile appearing on his face.

“With what could only be described as a motherly frown, Makoto sternly said, “Absolutely not. It’s after hours; we’d be trespassing.”

“We’ve trespassed so much this past year, would one more time really make a difference?” Rin argued, a familiar twinkle in his sanguine eyes.

“That’s all the more reason not to go! And besides, we don’t have our suits.”

Rin raised an eyebrow and gave a crooked smile. Nagisa stuck his tongue out playfully and winked. Haruka simply dropped his pants.

“I don’t believe this,” Makoto said in a tone that bordered on disappointment. “You guys planned this, didn’t you?”

“I had no idea this was happening until you guys showed up. Come on, your house is on the way,” Haruka said, heading for the door in his t-shirt and jammers.

“What about Rei? He doesn’t have a —!”

“I’ll be fine, Makoto-senpai!”

Makoto let out a defeated sigh, and the five of them left Haruka’s house and, after stopping at Makoto’s, headed for the Iwatobi High School pool.

“How are we going to get in?” Makoto asked as they stood staring at the fence.

As an answer, Rin hooked his foot in one of the holes of the chain link fence. Nagisa followed suit, then Haruka and Rei. Makoto gave one final look of disapproval through the fence before hoisting himself over to join them.

Haruka was the first to enter the pool, diving below the surface and enjoying the feeling of the cool water on his skin. When he came up for air, he floated on his back for a bit with half-lidded eyes, staring up at the stars and the moon. He felt the waves as the others jumped into the pool, and he dove under again.

When his head broke the surface for the second time, he heard Nagisa’s laugh, a squeak of surprise from Makoto, and a loud splash. He looked over and caught sight of Rin’s face: smiling so brightly and genuinely, just like in elementary school. Haruka then glanced over to the side of the pool and spotted Rei sitting on the side, still fully clothed.

Haruka swam over to where he sat and simply stood there in the pool, watching the other three alongside Rei. He eventually broke the silence by saying, “You know, you could have borrowed one of my suits.”

Rei nodded. “I know. But there really should be someone out of the water for safety measures anyway.”

Another moment of silence passed.

“You’re part of our team too, you know.”

Rei opened his mouth in surprise before chuckling lightly. “I know,” he said, eyes beginning to shine with emotion. “That’s what Nagisa-kun said too when he asked me to come tonight.” He looked off at the other three. “He also said that even though Rin-san swims on a different team, he’s still part of our team.”

Haruka stared at them, feeling his face soften into a smile. With a nod to Rei, he dove under once again, this time swimming over to the group. From under the water, he poked at Nagisa’s feet, tickled Makoto’s calves, and grabbed Rin’s ankles to pull him under.

The redhead’s expression was a mixture of shock and fury under the water, but when he caught sight of Haruka, it turned into a friendly threat to return the favor, which he did.

After everyone’s muscles grew tired and stomachs began rumbling, they changed into dry clothes and began the walk back to Haruka’s house.

“You know that was the third pool we’ve broken into this year?”

“Don’t remind me.”

Upon arriving at the house, Haruka headed for the kitchen to prepare a supper, while the other four collapsed on his living room floor, exhausted from the evening. It was almost quiet for a minute, only a low chatter being heard from the other room, until a voice came from the doorway.

“Are you making dinner, Haru-chan?”

Haruka merely gestured to his apron in answer to Nagisa’s question.

The blond smiled and skipped over to where Haruka stood. “Are you having fun?” he asked.

Haruka thought for a moment before nodding.

“Do you think everyone else is having fun too?” As Nagisa asked this, he dropped his eyes and became very interested in his fingernail.

A loud round of laughter echoed from the living room. “Does that answer your question?” Haruka said.

Nagisa nodded, his usual smile reappearing. “Yes, it does! I was worried there’d be some tension with Rei-chan and Rin-chan”—he paused, eyebrows coming together for a moment—“and even with you. But it seems like everything’s going well.”

Haruka nodded and sighed a little. “It’s nice having everyone together outside of practice, like old times.”

“Like new old times!” Nagisa corrected excitedly. “We have Rin back, but we also have Rei!”

Haruka smiled softly. “We’re not reliving old memories, we’re making new ones.”

“Exactly!” Nagisa cheered. After a moment of only the sizzling food being heard in the room, he eyed the cooking, bouncing lightly on the balls of his feet. “What are you mak—?”

“Mackerel.”

“Of course,” he sighed. “I’ll go let the others know.” Before leaving the kitchen, he turned back and looked sincerely at Haruka. “Thank you.”

Haruka was slightly taken aback at his thanks. What was Nagisa thanking him for? For using his house? For having fun with everyone? For being his teammate? Maybe it was everything all rolled into one, but regardless it made Haruka sharply turn his attention back to his cooking, slightly embarrassed.

“I just finished my 36 hour shift, Rin. The phone actually startled me at first.” Makoto explained. “I’m surprised to hear from you. I thought you said you and Sousuke were going out of the country.” Makoto remembered saying goodbye to both Rin and Sousuke nearly a week before. The two were off to enjoy a vacation in Australia since they had both been recently promoted in the police academy. Makoto didn’t expect to hear from Rin so soon. “Yeah, we are still in Australia but I got some free time and figured I’d ring you. Sousuke is out like a light right now and I’m bored as fuck.” Rin explained. “Guess I’ve got good timing if you just got off your shift.” “Yes I’m heading home to see my family. It’s been quite a while since I last visited and I’ve missed them.” Makoto said as he walked past the stores on the busy street. He was nearly back to his small apartment. “I’ve got to change and take a bath but afterwards I’m catching a train back to Iwatobi.” “It’s good that you’re taking time for yourself for once Makoto. You’ve always been the team mom of your comrades at the fire house.” Rin commented. “Sometimes you’ve gotta look out for yourself, you know.” Makoto sighed, his mouth forming into a smile. “Yes yes I know. Oh…” a beep was heard from Makoto’s phone and he looked at the screen to see a new voice mail from…his boss! “Hey Rin I’m sorry but I’ve got to check this voice mail I just received. It’s from Luca-san.” “Your boss? He hardly ever calls you so it must be important. Just don’t forget to tell him you really need this vacation alright?” Rin reminded in a harsh tone. “I know you’re their best firefighter but sometimes even the best need a break.” “Thanks Rin. I’ll call you later okay?” Makoto said goodbye to the red haired boy and hung up. As he entered his small, dark apartment, he began to listen to the voice mail left by his boss. “Makoto-kun! I really need you right now! There’s a large fire north of the city at an elementary school! I’ve got everyone here already but we could really use your help! Please get here as quickly as you can. Please!” the message ended abruptly. “Oh no…this is horrible!” Makoto jumped into action, grabbing his keys and his fireman jacket before heading out the door. As he ran down the steps as quickly as he could, he dialed a friend. “Rei! Are you at home right now?” “This is very abrupt, Makoto-senpai, but yes I am. What’s wrong? You sound upset?” Rei asked of him. “I need you to drive me to the elementary school north of town as soon as possible. I’ll explain when you get here.” Makoto said as he ran as quickly as he could towards Rei’s home. Rei only lived a few blocks from him. “Okay, I’ll meet you on the side of the road!” Rei said and hung up. Makoto ran like his life depended on it. Makoto and and few of his fellow firefighters had spoken to the students at this school. They had taught the children how to safely escape the school in case of a fire. Never once did Makoto think that they would be in danger just a few short days after their visit. A honking horn jolted Makoto out of his memories as he looked up to see Rei parked alongside the road. Makoto picked up speed and jumped in. He pointed Rei in the direction toward the school and the scientist took off.

“I’m sorry if I interrupted you working on anything important, Rei.” Makoto said, holding on to the door with white knuckled hands.

“It’s okay, Makoto-senpai. Your job is much more dire than mine is at the moment.” Rei responded, not taking his eyes off the road.

As the vehicle came over the hill, Makoto’s eyes were attracted to the smoke billowing in the air from a small building. It was the elementary school. Makoto had been hoping he was wrong….but too right he was. Makoto saw his comrades already fighting the blaze and several others bringing children out of the smoke filled school.

He leaped out of the car, shouting a quick thank you to Rei over his shoulder before quickening his pace to where he saw his boss.

“Tachibana! Thank god you’re here. I need you in your suit quickly!” Luca pointed at the extra suit in the back seat of the fire engine. “Kato and Reiji are up on the second floor and can’t get past the door. We need your strength to get past!” Luca shouted over all the noise.

By the time Luca had finished his sentence, Makoto was already pulling on his fire proof helmet. His adrenaline had helped him get ready quicker than normal.

“Yes sir. I’m on my way.” Makoto said firmly as he took off for the front door.

Makoto braced himself for the heat he was sure to feel as he approached the building. No matter how many times Makoto had seen a fire and been in a burning building, he never got used to it. It was always terrifying and seemed like something from another world. The way the fire engulfed everything…it was horrible and yet also beautiful in the same breath. Makoto pushed his way through the building, spying the stairs after about 5 minutes. The stairs were a challenge as some of them had already burned away. As he managed to see the top of the stairs after what felt like an eternity, Makoto saw Kato and Reiji standing near a door with a battering ram. They reared back and swung the ram but with no avail. The door didn’t budge.

“Tachibana-san! You made it!” Kato called out as Makoto walked up next to him. “The ceiling has collapsed a bit on the other side of this door. Reiji figured the ram would help but it’s just not strong enough.”

“Try one more time. You’re weakening it with each swing.” Makoto suggested. “Always try once more.” He placed his hands on the back of the battering ram to help. “On my count…”

“One….”

“Two….”

“Three!”

The firemen pulled back and pushed the ram as hard as physically possible and sure enough the door collapsed but only partially at the bottom. Makoto instantly fell to the floor and crawled underneath the hole which was just big enough for him to fit.

“I can hold up the wall! Go get the people inside!” Makoto shouted. He could feel the fire around him beginning to go out of control. He put all of his strength and lifted the wall off of the door, allowing Kato and Reiji to make their way inside.

However, as soon as Makoto motioned them to come inside, the floor below him gave way. Makoto felt a shout come from his throat as he fell fast downward. Kato and Reiji acted quickly, each one catching him by one hand. Makoto’s head was knocked for a loop and has he looked down he could see the two kids Kato and Reiji had been trying to save.

“Kato-san! Reiji-san! Please let me go! Let me drop down! I can get to the kids!” Makoto pleaded. The two boys were looking up at him, tears streaming down their face. They were holding onto each other.

“Tachibana you know we can’t do that! You’ll never make it out!” Kato shouted back. “That floor is hollowed out because of the fire!”

Makoto felt tears prick at the corner of his eyes as he looked at the kids but cleared it up. He had to be strong for them.

“Let me go! Now. Please!” Makoto begged. He met eyes with Kato and his partner stared back. “Please…” his voice cracked.

“Agh fine! But don’t you dare die Tachibana!” Kato shouted as he and Reiji both let go.

Makoto braced himself for the landing on the concrete floor below. The impact was harsh but Makoto rolled forward a bit to lessen the pain. After he adjusted to the darker area with the fire not too far behind, he could see the kids shaking in terror just a few feet from him.

“It’s alright. I’m gonna help you out of here.” Makoto assured them, speaking in the most calm voice he could. Of course, getting out of this basement with the fire covering the only exit left little to the imagination in terms of getting out, but Makoto knew he was determined to save the two kids.

“Come here.” Makoto motioned them and they complied. He took off his jacket and placed it over the two of them. It was more than large enough to protect them both from the flames. “Are you ready? We’re going to run, okay?”

The two boys both nodded and held hands. The taller boy grabbed Makoto’s hand. Makoto jumped in surprise at how small and cold he was.

At the count of three, they took off, making their way through the billowing smoke coming from underneath the closed basement door. Makoto reared back his foot and kicked the entry open. Flames immediately were pulled towards them and Makoto protected the children with his body. He could feel the fire burning his skin and his lungs. It was the worst he had ever felt in his life. He ignored his pain. The children were screaming behind him and the taller boy’s hand had tightened the grip on Makoto’s. They continued to walk through the fire, a small path laid out from a higher power Makoto figured, creating a way to get to the exit.

Suddenly the building began to shake and Makoto realized the second story was getting too heavy from the water being used to put out the fire. It was going to collapse and it was gonna happen soon.

And as Makoto took one last look at the children, and turned to try to get out of the home, he suddenly blacked out.

****

“Hey hey! Makoto-chan is awake! He’s awake everyone!!”

The voice piercing through the air Makoto instantly recognized as Nagisa, another of his high school friends. Makoto felt like he was under tons of pounds of bricks. It was so loud and he couldn’t really see anything though he had his eyes opened. The light was so bright; it overwhelmed his senses.

“Nagisa-kun you’re in a hospital.” Rei said, almost as if he was speaking to a child. “There’s no need for shouting here.”

As Makoto’s sight finally adjusted to the light, he could see four people standing in front of him.

“Geez, Makoto, you gave us a heart attack.” Rin groaned with a hint of sarcasm. “How many times have I told you to think of yourself first?”

“Rin…” Makoto struggled, looking at the red haired man. He didn’t recognize his own voice. It was so gruff and dry. “W-what happened? I…” He had no recent memories. Everything was black.

Nagisa grabbed Makoto’s hand, gently and with more care this time. “You don’t remember anything Makoto-chan?”

Makoto tried to shake his head but realized he couldn’t move. There was a brace around his neck. The boy hadn’t even realized everything that was on him. IV meds, a brace on both of his arms, and a brace on his right knee, most of his face covered in bandages….what was going on?

“You don’t remember the fire at the elementary school?” Sousuke questioned. Makoto focused more and saw the stern faced man leaning near the window with his arms crossed. “You tried to save some kids and as you were on your way out, the second story collapsed inward.” Rin was suddenly at Sousuke’s side.

“Shut up Sousuke, he doesn’t need to know now.” Rin hissed, obviously annoyed.

Sousuke stood and walked past him. “Unfortunately he does need to know and hiding it from him only makes it worse.” The man, still dressed in his policeman uniform, came up next to Makoto. In a fashion unlike his usual self, put his hand on top of Makoto’s. “Makoto…those kids died in that day. The wall from the floor above landed on them and crushed them. Along with your right hand and your right knee.”

***

Makoto had been allowed to leave the hospital after about a two months. He was almost fully healed other than his hand, his knee, and some burns on his face. But he was living in a fog. The fire station had let him off to recover completely and hadn’t required him to come back in any specific time. His mother, father, and two younger siblings had come to visit him, but had already returned to Iwatobi.

The boy stared at himself in the mirror, trying to tie his tie with only one hand but it hadn’t been working. Makoto threw the tie to the floor in disgust and looked back into the mirror. Dark black bags under his eyes stood out and he just looked exhausted. Sleep had all but deserted him. The nightmares kept him awake every night. Every time he closed his eyes, he saw those two children. He knew he wouldn’t be able to forgive himself for what happened.

Makoto adjusted his tux. It was stiff and form fitting. Makoto hated it but knew he needed to do this. The wake for the two boys was today, just a mere mile from his home. It wouldn’t be right for him not to go. He had forced himself out of bed for the first time in a long time. Makoto made his way out of his home and pulled on his jacket outside. It was warm but Makoto wanted to cover himself. He didn’t want to be recognized there.

The walk was surprisingly short and the line was long. The wake was being held in the parents’ home. After waiting in line for nearly 20 minutes, Makoto was near the front. All he wanted to do was pay his respects and leave. Maybe his heart would lighten a bit and he could move on. That was all he hoped for.

“It’s you…”

Makoto heard a female’s voice behind him. It sounded imposing but soft at the same time.

“WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!” The same voice screeched through the otherwise quiet night. People began gasping as Makoto turned around to see a long brown haired woman looking at him. Her eyes were full of tears and she was completely irate. “You, the so called hero of our city…the best fireman who ever worked for the station, let my children die!” Makoto’s eyes widen with the realization of who he was looking at.

It was the two boys’ mother.

“No…I…didn’t…I….” Makoto couldn’t form a coherent sentence.

“Give me back my children!!” The woman screamed so loudly her voice cracked. She grabbed Makoto violently on his injured arm, yanking it as hard as she could. “Give my children back to me!! They shouldn’t have had to die!” She began sobbing uncontrollably. “You should’ve died instead of my children!!”

Makoto suddenly felt ringing in his ears. All sound disappeared. It was as if his soul was leaving his body. Around him other people began pulling the children’s mother off of him. His hand was bleeding from where she had pulled off his bandages. Makoto tried to block out everything…he tried so hard to focus but too much was happening he couldn’t take it anymore.

He screamed.

So loudly did he scream.

The crowd stared at him and even the mother looked up at him.

Within in a instant, Makoto took off running, holding his injured arm to his body. He ran and ran, not knowing where he was going and ignoring the pain of his right leg. He wanted to disappear. He wanted to change everything that had happened in the past three months. All he wanted to do was rewind time and just erase everything so he could bring back those two children. Makoto’s breath was heavy and he was winded by the time he stopped running. He hadn’t been paying attention at all. As he adjusted to his surroundings, he realized he was on the peak over looking the ocean. The area was so quiet and so peaceful in comparison to where he had just left. Makoto could hear the waves clashing with the rocks below.

“This world…” Makoto said out loud, his voice weak and dry. “….is so rotten.” Makoto looked up at the sky to see a full moon. The stars were glowing brightly and he could hear birds in the trees behind him. “But it’s also so beautiful.”

Before Makoto realized it, he was standing just on the edge of the cliff looking down at the rocks and waves.

’You should’ve died instead of my children!’

The mother’s voice echoed in his mind. She wasn’t wrong. Makoto felt he should’ve tried harder. He didn’t and those children paid with their lives.

As the wind blew, Makoto let himself fall over the cliff. His ears were filled with the sound of rushing air and eventually he felt the harsh impact from the water. It was as if his arm was splitting off but Makoto didn’t care. Nothing mattered.

This is what he deserved.

**

Sometimes people get lost

and they feel like all is gone

their purpose

their reason for life

but the world is always beautiful

if you just keep looking

you’ll see the world in your eyes

not everyone can be the hero

let your heart rest

let your heart rest

my dear

Makoto had never heard such a beautiful voice before. It was the voice of an angel. Clear and crisp just like water. He felt sand underneath him and his eyes felt heavy. With a bit of strain, he opened his eyes to see baby blue ones staring right back at him.

“Ahh!” he screamed, startled. His body had enough adrenaline to push away from the face.

As Makoto stared, he couldn’t help but think how beautiful this…person looked. It was a human until just below his stomach and then it looked like…a mermaid? He had striking features: dark black hair, bright blue eyes (which were as clear as the ocean Makoto noted), and his scales on his tail that shoned so brilliantly under the full moon light. It was almost as if he was made of tiny diamond crystals in the way the water sparkled on his pale skin.

“You are alive.” said the mermaid, his voice a bit deeper than Makoto thought it would be. “I saw you jump, you know. Why did you do that?” He was very blunt with his questions. The mermaid started to come towards him.

“Wait, wait.” Makoto put his hands out in front of him and the creature stopped. “I-I don’t…uh…” he glanced off to the side. “What are you?” Makoto abruptly asked, trying to change the topic of conversation the mermaid started.

“I’m a half breed man.” He said as a matter of factly. His voice didn’t change tone. “I’m half fish, half man. I can choose to change of my own accord.”

The explanation went way over Makoto’s head and he began to laugh. “It’s a dream. Right…I’ve drowned and now I’m dreaming and this is the hell I’ve been given.” Makoto couldn’t stop his laughter, even when it turned to small sobs and crying.

“Nanase Haruka.”

Makoto looked up at the half breed man and sniffed. “What?”

“My name is Nanase Haruka.” Haruka crawled over towards him and this time Makoto didn’t move. “I saved you from the waves. It wasn’t easy. The rocks you fell around create a whirlpool and I was almost pulled in too.” As he explained what had happened, Makoto became furious.

“Why did you save me, Nanase?!” Makoto barked, his voice raising in anger. “I don’t deserve to live. I let those children die…”

“Did you really though?” Haruka asked abruptly, not even letting Makoto finish his thought.

Makoto glared at him. “Did I really what?”

Haruka laid back on the sand as the water lapped up around them. The tide was coming in and the water level was rising. “Did you really let those children die?” Haruka placed an emphasis on the word 'let’. “I’m pretty sure the hero of the fire station wouldn’t let children die in a fire.” He closed his eyes but continued to talk. “Don’t let the words of others get to you. People in sorrow often say things they don’t mean.”

Makoto gasped. “How do you know about-?”

Haruka placed a finger on the fireman’s lips, quieting him. “You talked a lot before you regained consciousness. Including what the woman said to you. Not to mention…I said I was a human as well as a fish.” Haruka looked up into Makoto’s eyes gently. “I saw you there…at the wake. I didn’t think that I’d see you again, much less in the ocean.” He sighed. “Do you really think you deserve to die?”

Makoto shook his head. “….no.” he mumbled, nearly inaudible.

“Say it again.” Haruka demanded, his voice firm.

“No!” Makoto yelled, feeling tears roll down his face. “I want to live! I want to help other people! I want to make up for my error in judgment.” Makoto felt the air escape his lungs, his throat burning. “I’m sorry! I’m so so sorry! I’m sorry you died and I lived! I’m sorry!” Makoto screamed as loud as he could, and he felt amazing. He had finally gotten everything off his chest and for the first time in two weeks, he felt like he could breathe.

Suddenly he felt an hand on his shoulder and looked to see Haruka smiling next to him. It was faint, but for the first time Makoto saw what looked like happiness on Haruka’s face.

“Nanase….I…I will keep moving on and I will make the most of my life to protect those I can and to keep the memory alive of those who I unfortunately cannot save.” Makoto said, his voice steady and strong.

Haruka nodded. “Good. I must go. I’m sorry but the morning is coming and I can’t stay here.”

Makoto felt a pining in his heart. He didn’t want Haruka to leave. “What? No…I…I’d like to stay here with you. Just for a little longer.”

“You’ll see me again.” Haruka promised. He held his hand out to Makoto and Makoto took his hand in his. “You just won’t expect it.”

The fireman expected Haruka to feel slimy and cold, as he was a fish, but all Makoto felt was warmth. Before Makoto realized it, Haruka had let go and slipped back into the ocean.

The only sound around now was the waves.

**

“Tachibana!! Are you coming?” Kato shouted up the stairs into the fire station locker room. “We’re gonna go grab a bite to eat at the new cafe across town!”

“Yes, yes! I’m coming!” Makoto shouted back, grabbing his duffel bag.

It had been nearly a month since Makoto met Haruka on the beach that late night…or so he had remembered. Makoto had chalked it up to a very vivid dream. Ever since then he had tried to find Haruka in the city. There were plenty of look alikes but none of them were the Haruka he knew. His Haruka…the one who had saved him that night in the ocean. So Makoto had decided to move on and tat it was just a dream. There was no way a half fish half man really existed anyway.

Makoto, Kato, and Reiji all walked together, seeing the Grand Opening sign for the cafe, called 'Saba-chan’. Makoto thought the name was awkward since it was a coffee shop but he had just decided to ignore it. After a short wait in line, the three were sat at a small table just outside the building in an umbrella covered patio.

“I’m going to go to the restroom real quick.” Makoto said as he sat down his bag in his seat. “I’ll be right back. I just want water to drink.”

Makoto slipped past a lot of people before finding the hallway leading into the bathroom. As he went to enter, another man came out, pushing past him.

“I’m sorry I-” Makoto apologized before meeting eyes with the man, awkwardly close. Blue eyes met green and in an instant, Makoto felt a familiarity in those baby blue eyes that were as clear as the ocean. “Nanase!”

The man hadn’t stopped and continued walking past him and out another door that had been in the hallway. It was an exit that had led outside the building. Makoto couldn’t help himself. He opened the door with more haste than he originally intended. After his eyes adjusted to the sunlight, he saw Haruka standing before him, wearing the uniform of the cafe.

“Nanase…” Makoto breathed. “You…you are real.”

Haruka frowned. “That’s the first thing you say to me? I saved your life from drowning and helped you get over a huge part of your life and the first thing you say to me is that… I’m real?”

Makoto laughed. “I know! I just…it’s been so long and I just thought that…I really thought it had been a dream! I really did!” He walked down the small steps to stand in front of Haruka. Makoto hesitated before he brought his hand up to Haruka’s cheek. He saw a faint blush appear on the dark haired boy’s face. “You know…I never got to thank you for saving me that day. You didn’t have to…but you did.”

Haruka tried to look away. “I didn’t do it so you could…flirt with me.”

Makoto was taken aback by Haruka’s blunt statement. “Well, I guess it just fell that way. So thank you. Thank you for saving me that night, Haruka.”

Haruka was put off by the sound of his first name. “Don’t call me that so formally…”

Makoto smiled, pulling Haruka’s face back towards him. “Okay then…how about Haru-chan?”

The cafe worker couldn’t help but blush again. “Oh stop trying to be cute.”

Haruka leaned up to Makoto and gently pressed his lips toward the fireman. The two shared a short gentle kiss, Makoto’s hand holding Haruka’s neck gently. Haruka had placed his hands on Makoto’s strong back, grabbing it firmly. As they came apart, the two smiled and couldn’t help but laugh at the situation.

“I am…in love with a fish.” Makoto said under his breath. Haruka hadn’t heard him since he was too busy laughing. “But that’s okay….he’s my fish.” Makoto smiled, pulling Haruka into a hug.