#freana

been tryna shake this feeling off for six years now.

i believe that the universe has new and better things in the works for me. even though i’m not fully okay, i can say that things are starting to get better. i can only hope that things will fall in the right place soon and that i won’t screw up this chance of building my life together again.

backread my previous blogs and i'm still thinking/writing about the same person lmao how lame is that

remind yourself that everyday is a chance to become better. don't waste your time doing something you're not passionate about. life is about doing what you love and makes you happy. you are not the person you were before. always strive to be the best version of yourself. take all the chances you can get to do good things to people without asking for anything in return. life isn't a race. we all have different paces. you'll get to where you want to be someday. remember that learning is limitless. don't ever give up on what you love to do just because you're not good at it. never think that you are talentless, remember there's so much that you can do and you just have to believe in yourself. take advantage of the time you have for yourself. being single is a privilege. be thankful. spend as much time as you can with your family. it's natural to make mistakes. there's always room for improvement. you will travel the world. you will find the right person. it's ok to be sad and take a break from people - you deserve that kind of space. everyone in this world is beautiful in their own way. there is no need to feel insecure. do what makes you happy as long as it doesn't hurt anyone. it's ok to feel mad about things not falling into place but never blame yourself for it. some things happen for good reasons. some people will always speak wrongly of you - don't be bothered by it 'cause you don't need that kind of negativity in your life. remember that you know yourself better than anyone else. take lots of photos. there are moments that you can never get back. explore new music and watch a lot of tv shows. read. do something fulfilling rather than just sitting around and scrolling through social media. there's always time for prayer. love fully. it's helpful to write down how you feel if you don't feel like opening up to someone. lastly, be kind, always.

i'd like to think that better days are ahead of me but its just been really sad for a long time and everything feels hopeless.

you always come back. and no matter how long it takes, i still can’t make my mind up about you - if i want you forever or if i just want you to stay gone.  

tonight’s highlight: biked 7 miles from our hometown cainta, rizal to taguig city. it was by far the most challenging ride I have ever done. more challenging than all the ascending slopes i went through in UP Diliman. my rear tire fucked up which caused me to slow myself down along with my body weight from going uphill. my legs felt numb for a short while back there for trying too hard and I couldn’t pick myself up also for the reason that my breathing went shit fucking crazy on me  that I had to lay on the sidewalk to straighten out my fucking legs, get my shit together, pick my ass up and continue to ride. it was shit hard biking with one fucked up tire. luckily, we were still able to make it to the planned destination and arrived home safe.

//i'm trying not to let it show that i don't wanna let this go//