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Wasted potential chasing after a boy who wasn’t even that great.

Oh, but the most aggravating thing, was that Leaf got it. 

In a lab at the age of fourteen she stared down a boy three years her younger with a Bulbasaur and lost. She then watched that boy, Red, run off into the distance and breeze through obstacles that stumped her for days. That was her life since birth, hitting roadblock after roadblock, tripping over her own feet, failing. They told her she was smart but her grades never match. They told Leaf she had potential but she squandered it as a pick pocket. Every lost fight, every hit, every punch, it settled on her shoulders as an old weight. A dead weight.

She put it on her father once but sometime in her early-teens she realized that it was her. She was the screw-up, the failure. So stuck on her circumstances and failing to realize her own responsibility. She then spent years overcoming it. 

When she met Kasai, she sympathized. She chased Red, lost the race, struggled through the badges, scratched and crawled her way for every pittance of recognition. The only difference between the two of them was measure of determination. Leaf was stupid and stubborn, and she never let go, spite and rage drove her beyond the point where most would give. A fire in her soul to burn away all that held her back till she was nothing left but pure matter. The only difference between her and Kasai, was that Kasai was fucking rational. 

Good on the kid. If he didn’t find his calling at the League then it lied for certain elsewhere. She hoped the kid found his own way. His own name. That he cut what held him back and pulled through to the victory he desired. She hoped he realized that Red lost battles too, hell, Red lost battles to her. She hoped he found his own success as a trainer and found strength in his pokemon. That walked a path that only Kasai Mori could walk. She hoped he realized what came to her as a teenager, staring down a future, that no one was better than her and she was better than no one. 

   --- “Lose the glum look!”

...who even was this person? Well, questions aside, there was something bugging her about the way this guy carried himself. With a playful punch to his should, she continued, “Is it this city sucking the life out of ya? ...get it? ‘Cause...  ya know... Lavender Town... funny?”

"What do you mean, only in pairs?"

Fire was... well, not in a bad mood, exactly, but he was irritated, which he supposed counted as the same thing to some people.

He had no real interest in ferris wheels and the like to begin with, had tried to tell his Gengar no several times, then finally caved and gotten in line to wait for what was much too long in his opinion. All that trouble just to be told no, and about a thing he didn't even really want to do in the first place. 

June 1– Leaf’s birthday, Poke her in the Inbox

Leaf did not advertise her birthday, actually she made a concerted effort to keep it under the radar. Her birthdays when she was young were brief, her and her mother, a small gift. She had neither friends nor money to learn to appreciate birthdays.  It was nothing but a celebration of passing time, a childish game that she tucked away as she entered adulthood. 

 Trust Kasai to not only know hers but also to remember. She’s offered the little bag and she didn’t quite comprehend what it was but like any person, she accepted what was handed to her. If it was a bomb they’d all be dead. Instead she’s given candy and a cute card. 

Leaf flipped the card over, and grinned as she noted the little sketch. Forget the candy, she’d keep this as a bookmark or maybe put it in her wallet. There was effort and care put into this, a thought that went beyond ‘just gotta get her something.’

 Leaf’d keep it until the thin paper crumbled and stained, worn down by time, when it’s final death nell sounded in the garbage can. For the moment she transferred both card and bag to her left hand then reached out to Kasai with her right. 

What a sucker..!

At least, that was her thought process. Getting his guard down wasn’t too hard... and now she was in his room, having welcomed herself, digging through whatever nook and cranny there was. Pilfering money was a no brainer, but she also took anything that seemed remotely valuable... at least, until the hairs on her hair stood on end at the sound of footsteps approaching. Crap, crap, crap..! Why did he come back so early?! Hurry, Blue! Put the stuff away before he notic-- 

   “Oh... wow..! Funny to see you here..!” Funny to see you in your own room, she may as well said. So much for that all friendliness she displayed when first meeting him. The brunette dropped everything in her arms, raising her hands in front of her with a guilty and nervous smile on her face as she forcefully laughed.

   “I was just, you know... checkin’ everything out! I was just so gosh darn interested in you, so I kinda let myself in..!”

Green doesn’t visit often - his work keeps him quite busy, but it’s the anniversary. He couldn’t miss such an important date. His eyes flick curiously over the new construction on his way out of the building. He’s managed to make a visit every day this week, and one of the residents had caught his attention. For once, Green sees the boy is alone. He jogs closer, smiling.

“Hello there.” He greets the brunet boy, smiling lightly. “I’ve been trying to get your attention all week.” He tilts his head, observing the boy with open interest. “Kasai Mori, right?”

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My Opinion on;

Character in general: Honestly, when I first started to RP Red so long ago, I came to realise that Fire, is in fact, NOT Red at all. Like I had the general understanding that or Red and Fire are not the same thing. but for me, it was more on the idea that??? they could be?? in the same universe?? like that for me was something that I found really hard. IDK why? I jut dissociated them so much that it got to the point where I simply didn’t like Fire? Another reason for me disliking the muse was because I just didn’t like him as a character concept. IDK. I guess there were some that caused him to be an “alternate” or “UNDERDOG”  version of Red and I was like no please stop.. um?? no?? Like idk how to explain. Fire and Red are two completely different people, and most people were like well Red is nonexistent to Fire. while others just thought that Red and Fire came from different generations and wouldn’t have kNOWN of each other.  That and like… the personalities were so vastly different imo that I just couldn’t comprehend Fire as a muse???? Like there were so many things happening that I just shut myself out from considering Fire. I was SO (and still am at times) dissociated with Fire because I just didn’t have any good reason to attempt any interaction. Like I am sorry to say that, but it’s the truth and I hate it, but I genuinely always have a hard time trying to like a Fire muse because people aren’t vary forward or clear about wtf is happening. Like to me sometimes I feel like Fire is a canonised/glorified self-insert. and I’m like??? please help me understand this boi, is he a canon character? is he an OC? like what is his story line? where tf does he fit in life and in general.

How they play them: So you know How I just took the time to literally question everything about Fire above? yea well allow me to say that while I still question him, I still think what YOU have for Fire makes me appreciate the fact that you took the time to sit down with him and be like “yo i wanna write Fire today.” Like?? Idk if that makes sense but no really, I’m terrible with reading the interactions, but I LOVE reading up on his bio a lot, it makes me genuinely happy and proud that you wrote it because it’s clearly written in a way where i’m like, wow this is actually something I can follow? And for somebody who was able to hold the path steady and show me the way, I’m very appreciative for it. Because yes, please I want to read more about Fire’s history and I would actually love to write with Fire now that I have SOME understanding of him. granted, I’m still confused, but at least I am not confused to all hell and you’ve written Fire in an understandable way for me. I thank you.

The Mun: Yo, the mun?? I love the mun lol. Ye buddy, I do actually appreciate you lol. I mean, it’s also been how long since we last talked and I mean even remotely saw once another on the dash?? oh WAIT, pulling up my Red blog now, I can see that… you commented on this post here… AND IM LAUGHING SO HARD. YES HELLO WELCOME TO ANGST LAND. and THEN, looking back on your tag on my moon blog… and…. WAIT IM SCREAMING WTF THIS AU RIGHT HERE HOW COME THIS WAS NEVER A THING OMFG SO HELP ME I WILL LOG BACK ONTO MOON FOR THIS AU PLEASE. I know its not for Fire but like…??? also??? I love the fact that we haven’t really interacted or talked much ooc but??? like??? idk??? jsladhfdfs honestly I think I need to be reminded on what exactly we have done like RP wise because I didn’t think we spoke much to begin with and??? shfd while I really did appreciate you, we also never really got the chance to like… FORMALLY sit down and talk. It’s sad but I’m now happy cause now we are talking and interacting again and I never realised that you wanted to do something with me like alghfdbsl omg /)~(\ If I had known then I would have probably come in your ims to bother you 24/7. You just seem like such a chill and sweet friend and im??? honestly??? I really do enjoy your presence though. Its why I write a lot for you because i want to show you how much I appreciate the fact that you took the time to write your muses and whatnot. Like hello, you have really good ideas. So well thought out. You’re so funny too and super lax and chill and im??? I only wish I knew you better friend!! I hope you know that you’re more than welcome to come and msg me anytime. :) like stahp being so mysterious lolol its a bit of a wonky ‘do I approach you or should i wait for you to approach me’ and we have this mutual thing going on but idk how to describe it in words. But yes. Many much good and quality and all of the things.

Do I:

RP with them: yea I have yet to make a reply for Calem. OPPPS. I have bad timekeeping. I SWEAR i have it drafts i am so so SO sorry its taking me forever to do a simple reply. Life is saying fuk yu unfortunatel.y

Want to RP with them:  OMG FLAILS MY ARMS BACK IN THE GENERAL DIRECTION ABOVE TO SHOW THAT LONG WRITTEN AU POST I LINKED. *coughs* yes.

What is my;

Overall Opinion: yes, good, den/den. Much amaze. Such Quality. I’m love. I’m also really happy that we are actually talking, I’m sorry I’ve been a shy bean. but yea, honestly, at this point, I’d follow you on any blog of mine. yus. huggles you tightly.