#forthfellow speaks

Basically Angie got triggered to front but wasn't actually able to. I only saw for a second, but it looked like he was physically stuck in place. Extremely worrying considering what happened recently.

I thought Red would only be gone for a week or two when she disappeared, but she's been gone for months :(

Sometimes I worry that my system isn't real and that I'm just delusional.

We just saw someone very casually say that they killed their headmates for being aggressive in the past, and now Angel is freaking out and thinks someone is going to kill him. My love, even if anyone wanted to, I don't think that's even possible for us. I love you. I won't hurt you. I won't let anyone hurt you.

I wonder if it is actually Angie's fault that Red is missing. Not in the way he thought, but if maybe his fear and hatred of her is actually keeping her away, intentionally or not. Similar to how my dislike for and fear of Lily keeps her away, for the most part. Of course I wouldn't be upset if heart was keeping Red away, his feelings are extremely justified. I do hope that at some point things can be made right between them, and they can at least tolerate each other. I do miss her, and I want her back whenever the both of them are ready.

Angie, chill. I get paid this week or next week. I will remember to make the payment. I will set a reminder. They will probably email me. It's okay. It is not your job to handle my finances and medical things. Everything is fine. Calm down.