I was a hopeless wreck last night. The unknown was making me so upset, that I sat sobbing on my bed. In the middle of all. I won’t blame you for anything. I will never. But my emotions were running high and I cried even harder. I felt like I might have a panic attack. but what did you expect? That i’ll be silent without fighting? I knew from the beginning that it would not be easy. But whenever was life easy? exactly, never. I won’t give up without a fight. Not now. Not today. not yet.

It's not like I would immediately date him if I could..