#forgey

Life is tough.

Life is beautiful.

Exhilarating.

Infuriating.

Wonderful.

Any adjective, any adverb, anything you want it to be...that's what life can be.

When I listen to classical music, I am often left in a bi-polar state. How incredible life is, how much I love my wife, my children, the kids that I coach, a nice day at the pool, good music.

Then I am torn thinking about the fact that it's fleeting. One of my best friends lives was cut short in his early 30's due to a brain tumor. My children struggle with the challenges we all faced at those ages. How my life has seen so many good friends come and then go and how I and they have moved on to other stages in their lives, never to return.

I took an Art Appreciation class when I was completing my Bachelor's Degree at Emerson College in 1990. It very well may have been my last general education class. I liked and appreciated art, though I couldn't then, nor can I now, truly express why something beautiful artistically, it just is in the eye of the beholder to me. I endeed up getting an F on a mid-term and escaped with a C- (my only grade below B at Emerson) because the professor "liked" me (ha!). 

I recently took an online Music Appreciation class along with my wife. Aced it. Easy A for me, not because it was an easy class, no one told me what was good and bad music, just what to identify.

I write this for two reasons...

1. Billy Joel sums it up best at the end of every one of his concerts (see below video).

2. Claire De Lune, to me, is one of the most resplendent works of art ever. It moves me in so many ways...maybe it does for you too. If not, that's OK as well.

Oh yeah, in 1999 one of my favorite bands, Art of Noise, released "The Seduction of Claude Debussy", for what it's worth.

We've been a couple, we've been best friends, I'm pretty sure we've gone through everything in a friendship two people can go through. The best part is I still love you.

I was just told that you got in a car accident and i guess the first thing i thought was make you a letter or a note, or something you could read.  I decided to use tumblr; it meant that you could read it whenever you wanted.

I love you so much AJ; you're amazing. I dont know what I'd do if I lost you. I cant even imagine how i would handle it. I'm not a hundred percent sure whats going on right now, nothing's a hundred percent. Everything is mostly rumors right now, and it scares the shit out of me. I would come to whatever hospital you're at but I'm not even sure where you are, otherwise id be there with flowers, giant teddy bears, and fuck tons of balloons. I keep trying to make small jokes in here because I'm sorta crying right now and i just miss you. And i know i'm a shitty friend, and I dont come visit you all the time and I'm so sorry it took me so long to get my head out of my ass. I'm gonna work on  being a better friend, i promise promise promise. Cross my heart <3

I want you to know I'm here if you need me; till death do we part. You're stuck with me asshole. I love you so much. Stay strong babe and know that I'm thinking about you!

I have blankies, and nutellas with your name on em! c:GET BETTER. Let your body heal and for fuck sakes can you not scare me so fucking bad next time. *sigh*

I love you. Keep pushing through and when your neck is all better I'll give you the biggest hug in the whole damn world.

Yours,